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Finally... finally my heart is starting to see reason... my long crush... my heart is finally starting to let go of his cute face and his sexy action and my mind is starting to see how he has stabed me and many of my friends in the back... my heart... was so weak that I could not see that it was not a crush but a contest... to see who got the sexy guy first... but if I did get him what would I do then? The contest would be over and then I would see the truth about my actions. If I saw the truth then he would let go and then the contest would start again... No!!! No more I can not lose my friends over a hot guy. But even though he is hot is he worth any of my time? No!! He is not the kind if guy to ever truly like a girl for who they are. He likes the girl for what he can get. For what he wants. No!! No more will I fall under his spell. I will not lose myself to him anymore. My sister can have him for she does now but... what hapens when he is done with her... what will she do then... follow him and want him and he will know this and use it... No!!! I will not be so open to his play of the heart... I am done with him and will never follow him again....... I hope.