~Frank's P.O.V.~
When I finally came to somebody was trying to force black coffee down my throat. It was in my mouth and I choked on it spitting it all over myself and anyone who was close enough.
"What the hell?!"
"Finally..." It was Mikey, Bob, Ray, Bert and Quinn.
"What's going on? Where am I?" I asked. Then realized I was at home.
"You got drunk remember?" Mikey seemed mad.
"What the hell were you thinking making all of us, especially Gerard, worry about you like that?!" I crossed my arms and turned away.
"....None of your buisness." I said angerly, all of the events of the day before flooding my head like a nightmare.
"And to say those things about January, who hasn't done anythign to you by the way, when you haven't even known her for very long. I heard from Gerard that she started crying because she over heard us talking about you."Mikey's voice softened and I felt like his word's cut right through my heart. The anger resided now and I hated myself for making an innocent person cry.
'She probably hates me now...' I thought to myself.
"Where are Gerard and January at?"I asked hurriedly and got up from the ground. I had to appologize for blowing up at Gerard and saying all those things I never meant about January.
"They're at Kaitie's. We're gonna go there in an hour." Ray looked at me like I was asking for a death wish. I probably was about now and I deserved it too. Because I got up so fast I felt a bit woozy. I was surprised I didn't have a hangover from last night. I went to my room and went into the bathroom. I took a shower and got changed.
I felt like a prisoner in my own home with Mikey, Ray, Bob, Bert and Quinn standing around like body guards. They didn't even seem to have an interest that the Misfits were on VH1 with the Smashing Pumpkins. They just stood there emotionless expressions on their face and not talking unless they got a phone call on their cells. I felt like I was a a hated famous person that was under house arrest for spending all their money on illegal drugs far worse than Heroine.
Finally the drawling hour past and I was escorted to Kaitie's house in Gerard's black Cadillac. I was so afraid I wasn't going to be forgiven by January and Gerard. They had every right not to though and I understood that. I should be hated and detested for the rest of my life and never allowed to have a life.
When I walked into Kaitie's apartment everyone gave me the death glare and was sitting around both Gerard and January like they were their body guards. I stood infront of them.
"Could I talk to you guys outside for a minute?" I asked. I could already feel the rejection coming form them both. Gerard nodded, but January folded her arms and pouted like a child not wanting to go obviously. Gerard whispered in her ear and she got up following him reluctantly.
I lead them outside and turned when the door was shut behind us. January's eyes were even more red with the new found hate she had for me. Gerard just stayed emotionless like the rest of them had.
"What does want?!" January finally said angrily after a short period of silence.
"I wanted to say that I was sorry for saying all those things about you," I turned to Gerard."And that I was sorry for blowing up at you in the parking lot. It was wrong of me to do that I know and I promise I won't let it happen again." Gerard looked at me with forgiving eyes, but January's glowed with more hate this time. I knew she wasn't going too forgiving and that's what I feared most.
"Frankiero not ******** care... January not ******** care! Not friends! Frankiero hate January even when January loved Frankiero! January hate Frankiero!" January jumped on to the banister of the stairwell and jumped two floors down to ground level and started running away tears coming down her face.
"January!" I called after her then looked at Gerard. He nodded slightly and I looked down and back at him I wasn't sure if I had to give her space or not.
"Go get her. Don't just stand there and gawk at me like I'm the only person to worry about in your life!" I nodded almost in tears. I was getting a second chance I shouldn't deserve. I gave him a hug and apologized again and then took off after January. As I was running down the last flight of stairs I noticed something by the door that was glistening from the setting sun. It looked like the color of January's eyes.
"Damn... she hurt herself." I said then following the small blood trail she had left.
Finally I found her in the park. She was up in a tree. I knew she was because the shoe I had given her yesterday morning was underneath the branch she was sitting in. I quietly walked over to the tree and picked up the shoe sitting at the trunk. I pretended I didn't know she was there.
"Aww... January I wish I knew where you were. I want to apologize so bad. I didn't mean any of what I said. I don't know what in the world cam over me. I do care about you. I don't know how anyone couldn't care. Especially about you. I love you, too, January. I want to find you so I can say that to you." I could hear her moving around in the tree.
Suddenly her head popped out of nowhere upside down in front of me. She was hanging from a tree branch.
"Moutings real as real? Frankiero loves January as January loves Frankiero?" I nodded standing up. She disappeared as I moved closer to her . Then suddenly her feet popped out, one had my shoe the other one didn't. I just smiled and helped her out of the tree. She plopped right into my arms and hugged me tightly.
"Please don't mouth such mean and horrible mouthings. January not want Frankiero like THEY. THEY is mean and mouth mean things liek that and want January still as still." I had no idea what she meant about the THEY and what she meant by still as stil. I nodded because I knew she didn't want me saying anymore mean things about her.
"I promise I won't say anymore mean things. And I'll love you no matter what. I'll make sure THEY doesn't hurt you." I said hugging her tighter. We both pulled away and I looked into her eyes. I noticed a scratch on her cheek. I smiled.
"How'd you get that? Kaitlin's cat Tiger?" I asked. She put her hand by her scratch. She was trying to think. She looked up at me and shook her head.
"Then how'd you get it?" I aksed confused.
"THEY find me when January's eyes closed and see night seeings. THEY drag Janury down there and want me still as still. THEY mouth mean things and mouth.. 'January must die. January is evil. January is not good.' THEY not like me as much as Gerardway, Pretty eyes, Gerardway friends and Frankiero like me." She whispered trying to hide her voice again like she was telling some big secret. She seemed very afraid of something.
"January what do you mean by THEY? Can you tell me about them?" She nodded. We sat down at the trunk of the tree.
"THEY has wings big as big! Like sitting things."
"You mean chairs?" She shook her head. Then she sort of start talking normal searching her brain for the right words.
"No. Like .... ummmm... COUCHES! Wings white and feathery and pure like clouds. So pretty." She got excited about the wings.
"January, do you know what THEY are?"She nodded.
"THEY just like January. Except THEY is white, January is black and grey and red." She pulled at her hair looking at her back.
"But no more wings..." She became sad when she said that."They is good angels! Just like January. But January looked different and had differnt dad. So Angel's did not like January. Mama liked January, but others did not. They hated January and wanted January still as still." I was kinfd of getting the whole thing and now I finially u understand what still as still meant.
"But January if you just had a different dad doesn't mean you're bad." She shook her head.
"Papa showed me all different things. The others except mama didn't like me. I used my learnings and made big big big Angel sick. He dying so THEY want me still as still for my wrongs."
ok ur all prolly wondering why i just stopped tehre and its because i was being a bad writer and totally lost like 3 pages of the story so once i find them i will add them with chapter 6
