Ok, a lot of s**t has been going on all at once, here is what happened.
My boyfriend of ten months and I have broken up, there was an issue with another woman, an ex-girlfriend he was apparently planning on getting back together with while we were together...He either couldn't or wouldn't give me a straight answer of whether we were still together, or if he still loved me...I asked him if we were still together, he shrugged and when I said I needed an answer, I need to know, he shook his head. So I left, crying thinking we were no longer together. Well apparently the girl decided it was too soon for her to get with someone because her boyfriend had recently died, and I think I could of gotten back with Nick but...I didn't want to deal with the uncertainty, of not knowing if he even really loved me or only took what he could get because he never could give me a real answer, and half truths to me are as good as lies...
During all this I was having a miscarriage, a few days before I found out about the other girl I had started having one, I only found out because she told me not because he did and apparently he didn't want her to tell me. I was going on three months pregnant, almost in my second trimester and I lost the baby, I bleed badly (I am still bleeding now actually just far more mildly.) for almost four weeks. I burried the baby July 11th.
I am still actually sick, I have bronchitis that almost got me rushed to the hospital, I have medicine though so I should be getting better soon.
A very good friend of mine has been helping me through this, I don't think I would of been able to do it with out him. I would like to give him a big thanks. <3
· Sun Jul 22, 2007 @ 03:34am · 5 Comments