So This guy is coming to hang out with my friends and I!! I MEAN WHAT THE ******** IS THAT?!?! What the hell have I done to deserve this s**t? But I'm doing what I always do. I just bottle up al of my emotion...Then when I'm alone I cry...Sad isnt it? Ya I'm that pathetic...Nobody knows the real me because I'm afraid to show them...And...It just sucks. What do I do? Do I lie and say everything is ok? Or do I be honest and lose a friend? Every question I ask myself comes up with one answer. Suicide. Don't worry I'm not going to -.- Honestly I've never been one to say "******** off its my life" or something like that. This is the one time would want to. Why should I care? I dont want to but I do...The nly reason I am here is because I dont want to upset anyone...Not that it wouldnt take anyone very long to get over my death. And my other friend is using the guy I like....Do I say anything? Or just keep quiet like I always do? Of course I'm just asking myself...I'm the only one I have to talk to...So does that make me crazy? And whay does EVERY GODDAMN QUESTION lead to another one? I don't get this....Its just too much....So why cant I just die?