I haven't done any in a while and I just... yeah.
This insufferable mind, oh how I hate it. It tells me always that good things can't last, that they'll turn bad the first time I blink. Unfortunatly, the most important part, the BEST thing in my life, isn't spared either. Sadly, this means that I HAVE to doubt everything, EXPECT things will turn out for the worst, and this is exactly what I have to fix. I will figure out how one day, I hope that day will be the day I can finally hold you in my arms, my love. I can't help but think you a dream, your so perfect in my eyes, I cannot bear to lose you. And you help me, you help even though my mind doubts our love while I shed my own tears at the thought of such a thing, deep down knowing it's not true and that we really do love each other. I just hope I can be held by you soon enough, claim you for myself. I almost lost you once, I won't make that same mistake, ever again.
Have you ever wondered what pain feels like? I know what it does feel like, but only a small taste. My heart's been torn into before, it's burned and my eyes shared a similar pain, but in the end I realized I'm just a paranoid little child in the world, one that needs to learn to trust better, that things are not as they appear. That.... love is stronger than anything. And that MY love is stronger than anything, and that I never will ever doubt that. My mind might but my heart knows better.
I really hate my mind, it always does doubt stuff. Phooy on my mind.
~Kitty
Kitty-Hankai Community Member 
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