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stupid ******** hangover and my stupid parents
i stayed up all saturday night listening to my korn live at cbgbs over and over and headbanging t oit and know my ******** NECK IS KILLING ME I CAN NOT MOVE IT OR IT HURTS and i am tried and well this is very odd i am writing to tell my feelings out on paper well here it
goes i hate it when my parents to be myself when they won't even let me they
won't let me where all black and black lip stick just gets me annoyed i am what
i am but they say no you are just coping other people friends sister but i am not
they just don't like the fact that i am goth they are just afraid that it is what i am
and also is stormy she does want to give away because that she is everything
my mom wanted from her little girl she wanted to have a girl that weres dresses
likes pinkand all the girley things that i her real dauther do not like so that is another
reason why she loves her so much i am not jelious like my brother but that is
why she crys every time she thinks about itthats why i confided in my sister
she will except what i am and believe me when i say i am my brother is like my
mom and my dad he thinks i do not know what i want or am and thinks i am copying
my friends and stuff and he asks me why i love my sis better it is because she
believes me does not say that i am lieing or something so hes like " well why
don't you love me like you do sissy" when it is his fault that i don't i tell him over
and over and her still ask me the same thing what even bothers me more is when
my mom says to my face that i am being like someone else after i tell her that
i am not she says be yourself do what you want to do BUT SHE WON"T LET ME
so how am i suppose to i am going to tell her this today and then she is going
to get mad maybe even cry and make me feel bad but i will not cry because it
is what i want and she tells me to go after my dreams and stuff but when i do
she gets mad at me i just don't know what to do besides yell at her and tell her
this so i am lost write now but i have to tell her today you told me to wait but i
can't wait i have to tell her today sis i am staying home from school today to tell
her so i have to sorry but i will be telling her today so this is what i will say to her
not all of it.

User Comments: [3] [add]
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commentCommented on: Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 12:43am
sorrry don't know what to say

commentCommented on: Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 01:00am
deep... im going thru the same thing

The Antichrist Superstar
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commentCommented on: Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 04:06pm
Yeah, parents never really understand their children, and a lot of them.. like you mom have trouble understanding the huge change in society. Thery think that new age life has to be like old times where girls were that way because they believed they had to be. at this point there are 2 things you can do...
a) just deal with it untill you get out of the house
b) continuing what you have been trying to do and get your mom to understand, and possibly ruin the relationship between you two or possibly convince her
c) express yourself when she isn't looking.. like at friends houses where you spend the night and stuff, like wait till she is gone then put on the whole look

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