Today I have no school, as I have some therapy appointment. I hate going to therapy ... I never talk to them about the stuff that REALLY bothers me, because they don't understand a thing about me or the people I talk about. I don't have anything bad in MY life, it's just other peoples' opinions and happenings between them that get me down. I think that probably counts as my my life, though .. but oh well. I don't even think I need it, honestly, not like they can help me anyways, I mean what the hell are they supposed to do? I'll solve my OWN problems, thanks.

Well, I enjoyed sleeping in this morning anyways, and not having to go to school, so I'm in a bit brighter spirits then usual, although bored as hell so meh. Listening to my songs and reading my own journal ... it funny how such memories can make me happy, sad, or full of regret. You think about how events lead up to such as the present, and if you'd done something different, would today be different as well?

Things could be better... they could be worse... they could be everything.

Anywhoo, I have two new favourite songs at the moment ... Broken Wings from Trinity Blood and Angels by Within Temptations.

Broken Wings

I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes, hands and your warm smile
They're my treasure
It's hard to forget
I wish there was a solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I'll turn back now and spread

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Across the sky, just keep on flying

keisoku no dekinai itami to keisoku no dekinai jikan no nagare ga subete wo uemete shimaou to shite mo sore demo watashi ni wa kanjirareru sora kara ochite kuru no wa ame de wa nakute. . .

Did I ever chain you down to my heart
'Cause I was afraid of you?
No, I couldn't hold any longer
Love is not a toy
Let go of me now
The time we spent is perpetual
Our future is not real I'll leap into the air

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Across the sky, just keep on flying

sora kara ochite kuru no wa ame de wa nakute. . .

Angels

Sparkling angel I believe
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give you a reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

Update: Went for therapy, blah blah... it was booooring, and of course it didn't help as I knew it wouldn't. I didn't talk much.. didn't want to. But hey, I got some good news! My SIN number FINALLY came in! =D I'm joyous. Now I can finally apply for a job. Question is .. where? If anyone even reads this and has an idea, leave a comment .. because I'm a blaaaank. x3 Though I was thinking maybe Tim Hortons.

MORE updates: Oh goodness, this is noteworthy. Guess who got a girlfriend while he was away? Sheldon! Hahaha, congrats guy! ^__^ Hope there are many great things ahead for you two~