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After a couple of months away from Gaia, away from the struggle to regain sold items before they skyrocketed in price, I've decided that my interminable hiatus had gone on long enough.
In other words, I'm back- for a bit.
I was kicked out of a guild for inactivity, but I was never really active in it from the beginning.

I'd like to make an apology where no one will read it, because that's the kind of person I think I am. (Ah, the beauty of these journals.) This was not the first time I randomly left gaia for a few months without warning and it certainly won't be the last. The previous time it was longer, and I lost contact with some people I really adored. And being me, I can't just PM someone and say "Sorry". I'm still working on that one. I have reasons for doing what I do. I pass them off as school, art, work, a "higher calling" (well, that one not so much); but the truth is I go through mood swings with gaia. One month it's my home and I love it, the next I can't stand being on the site and complain about everything. (Hmm, that actually sounds like my home to begin with. XP) Unfortunately, it becomes difficult for me to maintain the friendships I begin here. With all the technology that brings the world together I choose to tear away from it.

Actually, the main reason I left was because I hit another "humanity is doomed there's nothing anyone can do to save us we'll never unite and we'll always been evil barbaric and heartless" phase. They happen all too often. It was just intolerance left and right. My racist family seemed to be getting more and more racist by the day; a regular who comes into my workplace started talking about how he hates Jews; I was studying the Holocaust, which was soon followed by a study Communism and of the Civil Rights movements. And then I looked at the world today. "Look how far we've come" my history teacher said to me.
"We've taken a couple of steps, but we've got miles to go." It was depressing.
I actually began to perk up when I heard about the new planet far, far away. 381-C. I do believe in other life, in case you didn't know. (For crying out loud, I'm a friggin Trekkie.) I don't believe there will be much more there than the potential for life. But I started dreaming again. While intolerance and prejudice may always exist, I think that one sure-fire way to get rid of all (or almost all) of it would be the threat of another planet. Countries unite when they are attacked; I think the world could unite if we were attacked, if we had something to fear. Humans unite under fear, and they are so strong when they are united. History proves that to us. Anyway, I wrote an essay on the wonders of finding a planet like 381-C. I wrote about how a strive for technological advancement and the fear of another species could unify us all as one race- the HUMAN race. And I began to dream again. And I'm still dreaming. But one day, I think it won't be a dream anymore.

So, that's my real excuse.

I've actually started some avi art for the people who were really good to me for a long time. It think it's a lot better than "Sorry I randomly stopped signing on again..."

I'm out.