Rain.
Thats all it seemed to do lately, as the wolfess watched the droplets hit the terra outside the den one by one. The world had turned a shade darker from the moisture, the birds had stopped singing as all Bindi could listen to was the sounds of the rain; and of course the other occupant in the den with her. She could feel his stare on her sick body, her once beautiful and sunny pelt now dappled and partially consumed by what looked like fireclouds in the sky. In reality though they were sickening sores, tinning the hair which they lay beneith so all could be seen was her decaying flesh. One brilliant sky blue eyes were dulling to a fog grey with only the slightest ting of blue....she had become something close to a monster; a hideous, dying monster. Luckily her own mother wasn't here to see her now, she wasn't too sure even she could love her now. Bindi had forbid even her own children up to the den now as she remained far away from any curious eyes of her packmates. It would kill her sooner if she caused her loving pack any more worry then they were already stressing about, even though everyone was aware something was up - she at least kept the part of her dying exclusive to only a few wolves.
Blinking slowly, the wolfess pulled her head over to the side to cast a tired glance at the wolf currently talking at her side. Normally she would have been estatic to have company, but even the pure hearted intentions of Juude couldn't rouse her from her spot. Attempting a smile despite the pain which tore through her body, the gesture looked more like a grimace then anything, which only made things worse for her mate's cousin.
Whining softly, Juude padded over to the grotesque female and nudged her maw lightly, smiling sadly. "Take it easy Dudette...you don't gotta move for the likes of me." Sitting down beside her in the empty cave, he had taken it upon himself to watch her each day while Dax tended to the pack...not to mention caring for his own family, to which is darling Princess was in the same predicament; save an earlier stage. It broke his heart that the three most treasured wolves in his life was in a world of pain and suffering and he could do nothing but idlly stand by and watch them. Despite the fact Juude has always been the more childish of the pack, even more than some of the pups...life had grown up what seemed to be the eternal child. She won't last much longer... Johab spoke solemnly in Juude's mind, wearing down the smile on his maw to a quiet expression. Are you sure...? Maybe she'll bounce back....Princess has those often. Its like she isn't sick. He suggested, yet knew his hopes were merely wishful thinking. When you've been alive as long as I, Juude, You'd know. Amarii also hasn't exerted herself as much as Bindi or Dax while carrying the disease. Its grown faster on them. Davon has kept Dax strong, which is why he isn't suffering as bad. Bindi has no such luck; she is on her own and I am impressed she has lasted this long. She must be in tremendous pain, and still will not show it infront of anyone. Johab concluded, with a sigh. She won't survive her next fit.
"Damnit!!" Juude cursed, slamming his paw against the ground as his head hung low. His chest shook lightly as he attempted not to cry, even though he was horribly failing as his vision began to blurr. "You can't go.....Bindi you just can't!" Looking up at her slowly, it broke his heart further to see a serene smile on her maw as she lay helplessly on the terra. He would have given anything to see her up and about, telling him the bugs wern't out to get him or that he should be paying more attention to the pups he was supposed to be sitting. All with that warm and bright smile on her maw...even when being scolded he felt he could never be down after being around her. But now...the smiles were gone, much like the current weather her personality had been blocked out by the clouds of her plauge.
"Juude....don't." Bindi spoke as softly as she could, her lungs already burned thanks to how her thinned blood barely reached her oragans anymore. Each breath was a challenge to settle her pained nerves, her shallow and ragged breathing giving more meaning to her pathetic state. "You and I both know its time. I have lived long, and fully....its only right that now its my turn. I've been living on borrowed time, afterall.....this plauge could have taken me a lot sooner." Stay strong, old girl. Bindi thought sadly, looking up to the crying Juude. He needed to stay strong, for wisdom knew that he would have to experience this twice more before he would have emotional peace once again. Although then he would have all of them stripped from his life...it was then Bindi took note of something. Never would she know the pain he would...she was selfishly telling him to be strong when she would be the first to die....not having to worry to see her dying mate, her crying children, her mourning pack.....her dear Amarii to whom she gave the plauge to. "Now...." Bindi breathed out, heaving her burning body up to her paws with a soft whine as she moved forth and nuzzled Juude; for the last time. "Go. Your family needs you now. Take care of everyone for me okay? I'm counting on you." She placed on the best smile she could as she nudged Juude to the cave enterance.
"Bindi...." He breathed out, the tears uncontrollably streaming down his cheeks before he nodded reluctantly. She probably wished to save him the torture of her death, so she wanted to get him out now while he still had the chance. As much as it hurt to do so, he nodded sadly and nuzzled her back for all it was worth before moving out into the pouring rain. At least here no one could tell his tears from raindrops. "Goodbye..." He choked slightly, turning and running down the mountian slope back to the packlands below. Knowing in his heart he would never see her alive again.
Opening his blue eyes to the world as his body stood and padded out to catch glimpse inside the den, a sad smile crept on his maw to see his mother staring out into the world. Normally he would have been at her side in a heartbeat, never leaving for a moment....but even to have her son there, he knew that she would keep on her strong front when she needed to fully accept her fate. Not that he wished her to die....that was not the case at all. Yet he had inherited his father's silent but thoughtful demeanor and his mother's kindness and understanding. Naturally....he was devastated yet knew as much as she that life needed to move on; no matter how much one wished otherwise. Thus, he had stayed hidden outside the cave to keep silent watch on her and make sure no one who was unwanted got close to her. He would stay here, feircely loyal untill her last breath....he was not leaving this spot.
That is untill....
Bindi's cold eyes widened, terror shot through her body as again she was plauged with the images of her mother's death. Lately thats all she had been seeing....which usually was the start of her fits; her body unable to handle the stress of her hallucinations. With a choking gasp, her body began to shake violently with tremors, as she lowered herself to the ground carefuly. As the blood began to drip from her jaws, Bindi's eyes hazed lightly as her mind raced. No....no, it can't be! Not now.....This fit is much too strong, I....I won't see another..... Her breathing had become hoarse, her heart was racing and with each pump came another wave of pain as she shut her eyes tight trying to will it all away. She.....she...
...she was going to die.
Taking a few timid steps foreward, the young adolecent; one of the latter litters from Bindi and Dax, seeing as some of his siblings were already far into their adulthood, knew it was time. Panicing slightly, he tore down the hillside in a bluur of black and sunny stripes....ice blue orbs glitering with fear and adrenalin. Time was running out and he knew if his mother liked he hoped....now more than ever she would want - no, need Dax there. Despite the fact that he too had contracted the plauge, his father was strong with Davon...yet he too was losing the battle. Once in the valley as his paws carried him swiftly and silently across the woods, he let out a howl for all he was worth....
Father....please...be near.
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