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~Darkness only now~
Loss of hope,
Shards of glass rip into my flesh.

Darkness only now...

The pain is nothing to the torture I've seen,
The last drop of blood spilling out on the floor,
My nightmarish reality is hidden.

Darkness only now...

I cannot bare for my companions to feel my pain,
Tearing them apart.
Their flesh being ripped to shreds by my inner demon.

Darkness only now....

I sit her waiting for my breath to stop.
Motionless my soul lays, trapped forever...

Darkness only now...

Pity and sorrow, pain and corruption,
My sins will forever haunt me...

Tenth floor is moving closer,
Fifth is closer still.

As wind rushes through my hair,
The earth and I are one...

Darkness forever now...

(you kind of get the rhythm after your read it)

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How romantic. *sigh*

(Were you a troubadour in a past life? whee )

aw.... crying i like!! it reminds me of my boyfriend!!!! heart

kiss me
kill me
twist me
turn me
you hold my heart
inside your hand
with you
there is no
going back
my love
a fire
deep and burning
as the sun
kiss me
kill me
dance with me
beneath the blackest sky
hold me close
don't let me go
the stars cry tears tonight
twist me
turn me
stay with me
hold my dreams
in your hands
you are my path
my path of light
my only light

Wrote another poem. For once, the rhyming doesn't sound TOO dorky

-----

She's lost inside,
Lost inside;
Who will see into her empty eyes
And in their darkness
See her cry
Hidden tears
And practiced lies?
Lost inside,
Lost inside.

She hasn't found
A way to stop
The dreaded sounds
Of lonely thoughts,
Of broken dreams,
Of screaming pain.
She looks for where
Sweet Death has lain.
But empty is
Her search for peace.
Her life goes on
And will not cease.
So one gray day,
She feels no more.
Her sinful blood
Defiles the floor
And speaks her heart
And locked up thoughts
A message true
From sadness brought:

"I only wish
I hadn't broken
Before these words
Could be spoken:
I love you, -----,
With all my soul.
But since you left
Life's not my goal.
I cannot find
The one I've lost.
Maybe in death
Our paths shall cross..."

But her body survives
Though her soul has died.
She's grown so numb
And forever, she sighs,

"I'm lost inside,
Lost inside;
Who can see into my hopeless eyes
And in this numbness
Know I hide
Mournful tears
And silent cries?"
Lost inside,
Lost inside...

i try to remember
those nights when we lay together
and i worshipped your body
kissing every inch of you untill you shivered
nibbling your neck
listening to your breathing
and i asked myself why i would ever let this go
i said i never would
but i did
then i think of the times when you wouldent let me see your body anymore
it made me angry but i could forgive you
because i loved you
so i accepted that you would only let me kiss your exposed flesh
and i did
nibbling the veins in your wrists
because i knew you liked that
and everythinmg was still okay
and i still said to myself that i would never let you go
but i did
when you stopped letting me kiss you
see you
speak to you
i could hear the shame in your voice
and i thought you were ashamed of me
but i just clenched my fists and walked away
because i told myself i was going to let this go
let you go
and i did
the next day i remember seeing you in the hallway
and then i didnt see you
i got worried
and i went to your house
i remember the day because it was snowing
and the light in your bedroom was on
because i could see your silhouette in the window
as you swallowed the barrel of your fathers gun
and pulled the trigger
i remember running upstairs and screaming when i saw your blood everywhere
like a woman possesed i tore the clothes from your body and saw them
like ugly white worms frozen under your flesh
all over
where you had cut yourself
again and again
and i throttled you back and forth trying to shake an aswnser out of you
and then i saw the scar that said 'love'
and i dropped you
going outside where i sat frozen in the rain
crimson soaking the slush around me
flurries clinging to me becoming stained with your blood
tears and snot frozen on my face
as i search my mind through out times together
i mustve said it
i mustve
i think frantically
but in all that worshipping of your body
during the times i kissed you everywhere until you shivered
i never said it
and now i rwalize that your eyes always pleaded with me to say it
but i thought you understood
it was so obvious
now i can only kiss your body
and nibble your neck while i listen to you breathe
in my dreams
i died frozen in the snow that night
my mind lived long enough for me to write out
"i love you"
words pink in the soft powdery snow
they told me i was still alive
in the hospital
but i died inside because
i love you
and i never said it
-Alex