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Verienkeli

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PostPosted: Wed Jun 12, 2013 7:26 pm
The crushing loneliness that pervades my life.  
PostPosted: Sun Jun 16, 2013 12:12 pm
My best friend was raped Thursday night.
And her "friends" who were with her did nothing to help her, and even blamed her for it the next morning.
They also dumped her off at some other kids house, and they practically abandoned her and they left her laying on the ground outside at one point to just throw up all over herself.
This isn't the first time they haven't even tried to take care of her.  

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PostPosted: Wed Jun 19, 2013 2:20 pm
I've been the one who's been cleaning the
house all year-- Graduated high school last Friday.

- Depressed from now being an adult
- Back pain from terrible mattress
- Brother's 1st day of summer today

I cleaned the house, in it's entirety, around 9:30AM.
By 12PM, the house was a mess.


I'm done. Officially.
 
PostPosted: Mon Jun 24, 2013 7:29 am
My face looks like a freak show, as of two days ago when I got hurt.

So my brother has a girlfriend that is pretty much a fundamentalist Christian. I invite him over to my apartment, and he brings her uninvited. She starts in on me like she always does about how I'm gonna go to hell if I don't become a Christian like her.

So I snap, because I have had about ******** enough of this, and say that she's gonna go to hell faster than me for ******** eight people plus my brother while I have a loving monogamous relationship with a woman. Then she picks up one of my art textbooks and chucks it at me.

Yeah. Split lip, eyebrow being held together w/ a butterfly bandage, and bruised nasal cartilage. Fml.  

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PostPosted: Wed Jun 26, 2013 12:37 am
I realized that I have no soul today.

My dead beat mother, whom I call her real name even to her face, was taken to the hospital because of pains in her stomach.

A month prior I had been told that she was pregnant with her third childin her forties.

When she got to the hospital the found the baby had no pulse and would be stillborn.

I felt sorry for the baby not getting a chance at life then I thought on how mine has been and shuttered knowing that it was spared my hardships. The thing that makes it worse in my mind is that I don't care about what the childs mother thinks of all of this.

It is like I have been beaten so much that I see what is happening and am just like, so what, why should I care. Honestly I feel like a monster cause of it. She is in tears and I'm just stone faced.  
PostPosted: Wed Jun 26, 2013 10:03 am
Hello guild.
I haven't been around in a while. Real life gets in the way.
I'm back for the moment.
It's awesome to see people are still here.

I usually like to keep my head up, even if I have a issue that I have to deal with that seems like it should be breaking me. A lot of the time when people ask me to share extensive stories about my life by the time I'm finished telling them, they're surprised I'm still here, and not spending life in a psyche ward and on therapy for the rest of my life. But lately things have been a lot more difficult than usual.
(This is more what's occurred the passed month, but I feel like venting, so we'll just say this is a compiled list of shitty things that I would have started posting about a month ago if I was around.)
I'll do what I can to keep the details to a minimum, I know people don't like reading too much.
Three years since I was admitted to the hospital for a breakdown, held in too much about traumatizing events that I experienced since I was a kid.
Spent a short time being treated, but realized they couldn't help me, and I didn't have the money to stay.
Four years later I get to a point where I'm calmed down and comfortable enough to go outside and able to get a job.
It's the longest job I've ever held, over a year at this point.
A new employee took an interest in me.
He's a chef and since I want to get into culinary at some point I took interest
Turns out he's gay and wants to pursue me
I don't think much of it.
Already in a relationship of 5 years, long distance, never met, but the guy helped me out a lot when I was out of work.
But after 5 years of not one meeting face to face, and no reasonable explanation to why we can't meet. I decide to break up with him, which was two weeks before I met the other guy.
And the chef seemed nice.
We chat for a while. Hang out. He seems a little too...affectionate for having just met, but after waiting 5 years for another guy, I welcomed it.
We sort of date a while.
We get intimate. He assures me he hadn't been with a guy in a while, over years, and I know he's highly respected, and showed no signs of being a liar or misleading.
So after we're intimate, he tells me he has something to share with me. Turns out he spent some time in prison. Also he was dating a guy about three months before we met.
It was nice that he was honest, but he told me all of that way too late. I freaked out.
Two weeks later I have a sore throat, and I never get sick.
I tell him how bullshit I think it is that he kept information like that from me.
He assures me I couldn't have gotten anything from him. I don't believe it at all.
So the other guy I was with finds out about the guy, and does a background check, and freaks out on me for hanging out with him because he was in trouble.
The chef suddenly gets real close to my family after I show a lose of interest in him, putting his foot in the door of family friends, making it harder to get rid of him, cause he only shows them his nice side, and I see the bullshit side. But I told him to stop coming around me, and he does, but still sees the family.
So since he's on parole after all this time, he's got to keep moving around.
Even though I told him to go away, he still wants to pursue me.
So he actually goes and finds a two bedroom apartment near the place I work, knowing I don't drive or have a license so it'll seem too good to pass up, on top of not charging me rent at all.
Then he goes to my parents and tells them he wants me to move in, so they tell me I'm being kicked out because I need to get over my bullshit needy mental problems and figure life out, which I agree with, but not with someone like that.
And the guy I was with for 5 years hears about all this and tells me I can't go live with the chef, but I also can't find a way for he and I to live together, and he doesn't even try with getting us together after all this time. So he's telling me I'm pretty much stuck on my own, being homeless or having to find a second job since my first one is too high on labor and hours are being cut.
Now I'm not mentally alright to live on my own, I get really bad anxiety and I can't bring myself to do certain things, especially if any of it has to do with being social, especially with strangers, so I've never left the house. Which I don't think is anything to be proud of, but it's better than being on my own and feeling like giving up would just be easier.
So after being sick for a month, and then getting hit on the head with a heavy DVD/VHS player while trying to retrieve my shoes from a closet that my room mate had stuck both the shoes, and the DVD/VHS player on a higher unstable shelf in, I have a doctors appointment to find out what's going on with me. I don't expect to hear amazing results and I'm extremely nervous. And I don't have a lot of money, so I'm relying on this doctor to help me, and considering the reputation of the medical professionals where I live, I'm not sure if I'm wasting my money or not. But the anxiety I've felt lately has me not eating or sleeping and ready to lose the one job I do have.

I came to a sad realization while biking home earlier when I passed a car that looked familiar. It reminded me of a time when I use to get excited when I got home or went to a relatives house where I saw a familiar car parked outside, cause it meant someone I liked was there, and after I had that memory I realized, I don't feel excited to see anyone anymore. And I went home and cried. And every time I'm by myself lately, I just cry. Like I said, usually I can just push myself through things and smile, but lately I'm just tired of everything and pretending takes a lot of energy.
 

S St Stutters

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PostPosted: Fri Aug 02, 2013 5:50 pm
Getting chewed out twice by my boss for something some b***h did and the normal being called sir him he... rolleyes  
PostPosted: Mon Aug 12, 2013 9:37 am
Talked to my college councelor about possibly filing a restraining order against my ex.  

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Dr. OCD

PostPosted: Sun Aug 25, 2013 11:34 pm
Taco Bell got rid of their volcano tacos. emotion_donotwant  
PostPosted: Tue Sep 03, 2013 5:39 pm
So.. Yesterday I woke up in the middle of the night. As I walked out of my room and tried to walk into another room, I accidentally walked right into the door frame. Being half asleep, I didn't think much of it..
When I woke up the next day and looked in the mirror, I noticed I now have a pretty bad bruise above my left eye. I swear.. People are going to assume I'm being abused or something.. When the truth is I'm injuring myself with my clumsiness.
 

chaoskaye

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Verienkeli

Girl-Crazy Genius

PostPosted: Tue Oct 15, 2013 7:10 pm
I'm pretty sure I did not do well on one of my midterms this semester, it looks like I'll have to file a missing person report about my roommate tomorrow, and I'm too much of a coward to ask out a woman I met shortly after arriving at my new university. sweatdrop  
PostPosted: Wed Oct 16, 2013 11:00 am
Let's see, my boyfriend of four years almost left me, though now he isn't answering his phone so it's still up in the air. After getting off the phone with him and since we live in the U.S.A and its that time of the month I decided I wanted some candy. That's when I found my mother O.D-ing on her perception medications, she was totally unresponsive and it was all I could do to get her on to the bed.

Then I called 911 and shes taken to the hospital, and on arrival she has entered a dead sleep. The doctors did scans, blood work, had tubes feeding her oxygen. Then this morning during a heated fight with her sister said some things that I'm sure she didn't mean, after all her sister is gas to her fire so to speak. Now she is being sent to psychiatric ward, and I'm having a total nerves breakdown-- If fact so much it has taken me around ten minutes of typing to even fix the blatant mistakes.  

Akatsuka Kun

Newbie Gaian


Dr. OCD

PostPosted: Wed Oct 30, 2013 1:25 pm
My grandpa died this morning and I probably won't be able to get home for his funeral.  
PostPosted: Thu Nov 07, 2013 5:30 pm
I dedicated all of my time to studying for my history midterm (got an A-) and didn't study as well for my geo science midterm (D+).

sighs forever

I need to step up my game.  

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PostPosted: Thu Nov 07, 2013 5:31 pm
Dr. OCD
My grandpa died this morning and I probably won't be able to get home for his funeral.


I'm very, truly sorry for your loss. heart  
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