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 Posted: Thu Apr 17, 2008 4:26 pm
There must be something wrong with my brain. That's the only way this is possibly happening. And I can't talk to anyone about it.
Last time I was on here, I was having problems because my boyfriend, whom I love, was said to be boring me. And it was true. I was told to put a little spice back into the relationship, and it did work a little. But there's still problems. I don't know why!
Two things happened at once in February: my grandma went to the hospital and I started birth control. She's still there, by the way. And ever since then, it's like I'm slightly numb to my emotions. Like I have none anymore or something. I honestly blame it most on my birth control. It's like I'm checking out guys but don't have feelings for them. But I do have feelings for my boyfriend, they're just not as strong as they were before I started the pill. Does that make sense? And there's this guy at school that resembles him SO MUCH. And I've never talked to him before but whenever I see him it's like BUTTERFLIES and there was even a time where I stalked him. It makes me hate myself. Hate hate hate! I'm crying even when I type this (sorry if I sound emo) but it is seriously depressing me.
I find myself asking, "why am I even attracted to this guy in the first place?" and then I remember, DUH he looks like my boyfriend! THen I'm just like then why aren't I gettng all those butterflies for my boyfriend who loves me so much and treats me so good?
It's driving me insane.
I don't know what to do, I'm so confused!
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Posted: Thu Apr 17, 2008 10:13 pm
wow.. i so know what that is like, but thankfully it is all over for me, it worked out well in the end..
Dont worry you do not sound like an EMO people do go through these types of things.
First I think you would feel better if you broke up with your current bf. you said he is boring you and you tried to put some spark back in you life with him, but obvisuly that didn't work.
Breaking up with him will be hard. Its a difficult thing, but you will feel better with out him. (They say if it is meant to be you will go find each other, later in life).
as for the other guy, you have butterflies for. Do not be come too involved with right away. If the only reason u like him is becuase he looks like ur current bf then that is not a good thing. it is also not fair for him.
the pill is just mnessing with you emotions. if you do not like being like this, then you could change brands of pills or change birth control, like using the implanon or the injections. Everyone does react differently to differnet levels of hormones.
Sorry to hear about your grandmother. heart it always sux when a person we are close to is sick.
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Posted: Fri Apr 18, 2008 12:22 pm
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I really, really, really insanely do not want to break up with him. And I don't want to get involved with the other guy, either. I just want to feel the way I felt before I started this stupid pill. It just upsets me that I have to make a choice because though I act different, I never have cramps anymore, my period is shorter and it's less heavier! Plus, I won't HAVE to use a condom once I start having sex. But I don't think it's worth it. It's such a hard decision...
Thanks for your advice, though.
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Posted: Fri Apr 18, 2008 5:23 pm
josss ... I really, really, really insanely do not want to break up with him. And I don't want to get involved with the other guy, either. I just want to feel the way I felt before I started this stupid pill. It just upsets me that I have to make a choice because though I act different, I never have cramps anymore, my period is shorter and it's less heavier! Plus, I won't HAVE to use a condom once I start having sex. But I don't think it's worth it. It's such a hard decision... Thanks for your advice, though. well there is more then one brand of pill out there. Maybe you could go back to the doctor and say listen this is not working for me are there any other options. Like i said the pill isn't the end all be all of concraception. I used to have the implanon in my arm (a small rod which would last about 3 years) it gave me weird peroids, and spotting which I hated so I went back to the Doc and he said to take monofeme. WHICH I did and now I find it works great for me (Monofeme is the brand of pill) it was a bit hectic at first and I was teary and the first few months I worried that I wasn't taking it right so I was worried about being pregnant too. but its settled down now.
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