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Please help me I need help....
I am having major issuses in my life right now...
1.I just met my dad for the first time in 13 yrs just a few months ago and found out that I have a younger sister that I propally will never meet....
2. I got my love of my life off of the internet and my mom thought he was a petifiler and filed a police report agaisnt him....
3. Mom thinks I am depressed and Im cutting myself...
4.One of my best friends are in jail and she just broke out and If she ever comes back my family forbids me seeing her....
5. This weird old guy is basically stalking me and I swear he is a child mellester... I mean hes gotta be if he puts a tatto over his adopted sons n****e just so he can touch it and show it off...and the boy inst even 10yrs old...
6.My best friend more like a sister to me got raped....her mom died....her brother blames her moms death on her and her dad is gay.....and she tried to kill her self at my house.... and Im afraid her rapper might come back for me cause he asked me out infront of her....
7. I am rejected by a lot of people because I look gothic yet I am a christain and they dont under stand me....

Please I could realy use some closer and advice....

First of all...HUGGLES.
Alright, now that that is over with, I'm afraid that I don't have much advice that you're going to want to hear.
1. First of all, why did you just meet him and did he try to contact you? You can also try to contact your sister, just ask you dad for her contact info. As for your feeling about your dad, I say give him a chance and try to get to know him. Suspend judgement until that happens.
2. How old was the love of your life? Unfortunatly, I agree with your mom in this case, because it's very hard to get an impression of someone off the internet, and it's also very dangerous to meet them in real life to form that impression. Also, no offense meant here, I'm just speaking from observing people your age (I'm assuming that you're 13), it's very rare that you will find the love of your life at that age. Even if you do find that one special person, you've got so many changes that you're going to make before you even become legal. Keep that person in mind if you wish, but most of all, try to live your life. Enjoy your adolescense, it's gone far to quickly. Don't forbid yourself from falling in love with another person, one that you actually meet, and remember that internet relationships are always very dangerous, especially with someone who is flattering you, telling you that you're mature and beautiful. I'm not saying that those things aren't true, but you should be wary of them coming from someone who is much older than you.
3. Are you depressed? It's not something to be ashamed of if you are. I struggled with hiding my depression for years, hiding who I was behind a cheery exterior. But, in doing that, it just got worse. It got much better once I admitted it, and began seeking counseling, though, it took me a few tries to get to a counselor that suited me. As for the cutting, it's a hard thing to get out of, I know that from experience. For me, it got to the point where I just wanted the endorphins (the feel good chemical that your brain produces in responseto pain). The way that I stopped was by finding an alternative source of endorphins, one that wouldn't allow me to cut without it exposing my secret. I started martial arts (Brazilian Jiu Jitsu was the one that finally helped me stop), and the endorphins that came from the workout were unbelievable. With cutting, you can't only semi-want to stop, you have to give yourself a reason to stop. And don't feel bad if you can't stop right away. I had so many failed attempts, but the main point is, YOU CAN BEAT THIS. It'll be hard, and there will be many people who don't understand why you just can't stop, but ignore them (on the subject of cutting at least). You can do it. One of my good friends at my former college told me this when I was really having a bad day: "Just take it five minutes at a time, sweetie. And remember, if those five minutes are the worst of your life, well, they're over now, and you've survived. Taking it a whole day at a time can be overwhelming, so I want you to focus on just making it through the next five minutes and to congragulate yourself when you do." That helped me get through many a day.
4. The reason that your family forbid you from seeing her (I'm just making a gander here) is because she broke out. See, if she comes to your house, and you don't turn her in, then you're all guilty of a felony (aiding a fugitive). In addition, your parents probably don't want to see you go down the same path that she did and end up in jail. Despite what many people believe, their friends often have more to do with their attitude and major life decisions than do their parents. This is dangerous because, even when a person is determined to not make the same mistakes, they often do, just in a different form.
5. Talk to your parents about the weird guy. There's a list of sex offenders online. Ask them to make sure that he's not on it.
6. First of all, did she report the rape to the police? If she did, then try to get a restraining order on him. If not, try to aviod him at all costs. The old saying that girls travel to bathrooms in packs has its reasons. There is saftey in numbers. Make sure that you always have someone with you, that way, that person can get help. Avoid being alone with him, that will give him oppertunity. With the trying to kill herself, just tell her that you're there to listen, and then change the subject to something non-depressing. Often times, people want to talk about it, but if pressured, they clam up. If she doesn't want to talk about it, then forcing her to do so is the worst thing you can do. Just remember, when she's ready to talk, make sure that you're there to listen. Don't tell her how she should feel, just hold her and nod and listen. Don't tell her that you've felt the eact same way, but you can tell her that you've felt similar to that. Try to give her alternatives to killing herself if she says that she just can't go on. One of my favorites is to push my cuticles back hard. The cuticles are a very sensitive area, and you can do it in public, if the situation gets to overwhelming, then I often start pushing my cuticles back. Most of all, just let her talk, and be there for her. Encourage her to go to counseling. Make sure that you tell her that it's not because you don't want to listen, but because counselors have resources that you don't have. Also, if she feels nervous, offer to sit the first few sessions with her. You're going to have to go through her dad for the counseling, just because of insurance reasons and legalities. Don't force her into counseling, be there for her whenever she needs you.
7. Everyone is rejected for some reason, try to get them to understand you, explain to them what you feel, why you look gothic. Don't try to cram your beliefs down their throats, however, simply try to get them to see you for who you are.

Also, remember that you have someone to talk to, between GOd and those on this site, and real life friends, just remeber that there is always someone that you can turn to.

May God bless you and hold you safe in his arms. May he comfort you when you're in need of it, even when you don't admit it to yourself. May he guide you to your full potential in him. May he use simple things to make you smile. May he use you in this world to touch those around you. You don't have to be all smiley in order for God to use you. Those who are in pain don't want soneome who is happy and not sad, they want someone who seems to be going through the same stuff that they are. May God help you understand his will for you, and be a constant presence in your life.

Amen

Feel free to PM me any time. And always remember that you are loved, you are one of a kind, and don't let anyone rag on you for being unique.

With greatest love through God, Niharana

Wow.....I wish I could be of more help. But I just want to say
1.For your friend that got raped, offer her any help you can. Let her stay at your house, and just, be comforting to her. That's really all you can do.
2.I met the love of my life on the internet too, his names Ryan, and I'm not so sure it's the right thing to do, but I understand how you feel. Well, my mom doesn't know about him, but I understand what it's like to fall in love with someone you've never met.
And last but not least, I'm here if you need to talk.
<3 Megan

My advice:

Read Psalm 23:1 and BELIEVE IT wink *hug*

*Gives you huggles, along with Nihara*
That's some powerful stuff there... you have my deepest empathy... but here's what advice I can give:
1) I know that's rough... I didn't know my father for a while either. If you have a grudge against him for never being there for you until now, try to let it go. He might turn out to be a caring person later. As for this sister, well, unless your father brings her with him at some point, you're likely right about never meeting her. But if it does happen, be the best big sister you can be smile

2) I've had an internet relationship for a few months now - my mother has many doubts about her, too. It would be tough if you tried to slink out of the relationship now if you've been with him for as long as I have with my online gf, but if it's just starting out, it would be best to sever the small tie you have and say that not only is it better for both of you, but it will also keep him safe from your mother's overactive suspicion.

3) If you seriously are depressed, then try listening to music that calms you down... and if you have become addicted to the cutting, then try alternatives - thwacking your arms with rulers, perhaps - to ease off of it until it is over.

4) She just came out of jail; your family's suspicion is understandable, but if you ever do see her, make sure you let her know that she is loved and missed.

5) Three words: Call the cops.
And if you get the impression of fear coming off of his son (in regards to him), then you need to find a way to comfort him.

6) A similar solution needs to be carried out like the child molester you mentioned. Even if they can't get this guy arrested, they can keep you and your friend safe.
As for her suicide attempt, try doing something to relieve her intense depression. Perhaps try watching a movie that both of you enjoy very much.

7) That is the unfortunate side-effect of the subculture - people being very unfamiliar with your tastes. What's worse is bad media coverage on school shootings that have occured because of douchebags that have claimed to be gothic while they slaughtered many people in cold blood - Columbine is the most grim example.
But if you open-up to people and show them that you are not a bad person, perhaps they will accept you. And if they don't, then they aren't just unfamiliar, they're ignorant.

MK!! well, I won't give you advice, because my best friend doesn't trust me because of my advice, and it was on an issue like your online dateing thing..... but I will tell you a bit of past experience about that:

Past Experience Number 1> there is always someone out there.
my mom was once engaged to another man who wasn't my father. She didn't even know my dad and so yeah... but just before they were married he died at his work: he was a helecopter piolet for the AirForce. She went through hell and thought that there was nothing leved for her in life, but eventualy she met my dad... and they have been married for 18 years now.... Does that mean that Erin wasn't ment for her? No, I think she would have had just a successful marrage with him as she does my dad, but he died... and if he hadn't I wouldn't be her talking with you now. Although, I am really upset he died because he sounds like a person I would have liked.... a lot!

Past Experience Number 2> My best friend was involved in an online relationship for MONTHES!! she was compleatly in love with him, and I wouldn't have been surpized if she had married him.... but then they had a bit of a hard time with his friends (4 of them) commiting suiside... and him being beaten by his dad because of her and going into a coma for 3 days. So, they broke up... and then she found out he was cheeting on her. She really has never been the same since then, was suisidle for 2 monthes, and I only made things worse by giving her my adivce..... She is going to be ok, but that one online relationship that whent so well screwed up her entier life... so it was probobly really harsh for your mom to file a report on him, but even though you think someone is the love of your life then you never know. And i have said the sme thing about someone I loved.... but we arn't dateing any more....

so, yes its hard, but I want you to take what you want from my experiences.....

ps. Sorry for the HORRIBLE spelling!!