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 Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2011 1:54 pm
Chapter 1: He's coming home!!! Well everyone has a famous movie star, rock star, singer. blah blah blah ect...we all get that ok.For me theres only one person i depise the most and thats my brother.The big shot Rock star and his lame loser brother.The lame loser brother is me.My name is Mitsaki Kioshi and i'm 16 years old.Yes only 16 and my brother is what 18 almost 19.Yay i get the older brother that has the most talent and looks better than i do, well we have the same hair color, faceial featrues and eye color but what makes my brother so much better then me? I mean my hair is jet black just like his, light crytasl blue eyes like his and the same plae skin as him.So what? Oh wait! He's a freaking Rock star! and i'm stuck at home all the time and never get to see him.Truth is i'm actually jealous of him and wish i was him....i don't want him to know, if he knew he'd laugh at me and say "I told you so!" and just laugh in my face.I heard the sound of my parents coming up the stairs talking. "I don't think he'll be to happy about this" I heard my mother say "Really are you sure he hasn't said a word of him maybe he'll be happy or at least excited" I heard my father say, and i knew who they were talking about.Blaze A.K.A my older brother Haru.Great.Just great.My mothers light knok came at the door and she pushed it open smiling abit at me. "Mitsaki we'd like to talk with you for a minute or two" She said with a kind motherly smile on her face.My father stood right next to her a smile on his face also. "Your brothers coming home" he said.My mouth dropped if it was able to it would have hit the floor i was so shock, angry, abit happy, somewhat excited, i couldn't speak, but somehow i stood from where i sat on the edge of my bed and said out loud "I don't want to see that jerk!".My parents just stood there staring at me.My mother looked abit disapointed in my father for having said such a thing. They left after a few minutes and talked back and forth to one another along the way.Haru was coming home tonight.Just great even better.I sat in my bed trying to figure out what i was feeling right now.Was i happy he was coming home? Was i mad? How excited i was? These things kept flying by in my mind as i layed there.Thats when i heard the front door come open and the words came flowing up the stairs through my door and into my ears "I'm Home! Wheres that little brother of mine!". It was haru.He was actually home....what was i supposed to do now? Slowly i got up from my bed and opened the door to my room just to see him standing there holding a few bags in his hands.Haru smiled over at me and walked over to me ruffling my hair abit. "Hey there little bro i haven't seen you in what almost a year and no welcome home" he said shrugging his shoulders.He handed me a guitar case and walked down the hall to his room.My mouth was half open as i held the heavy case in my hands "He actually remebered that i wanted a guitar" i said to myself, setting the case down on my bed i opened it to reveal a large black and white stripped guitar within the case. "He really remeber that i wanted a guitar and in this color too....but its been a since i told him...how did he have the time to remeber and get me this?" i asked myself and pulled the strap over my shoulder and set it against my lap, placing my fingers on a few of the strings i strummed a few notes and smiled abit.Haru stood in the door way of my room, i was unaware of it too. "Glad you like it....didn't think i would remeber huh?" he said.He came into my room abit more and sat on my bed next to me. A smile playing its self on his lips he lightly placed a hand under my chin and lifted my head "You really thought i'd forget huh?" he asked.I didn't answer and avrted my eyes.The truth is....that i had fallen in love with my brother and i was always in denile of admiting that i missed him or was happy he'd call, whenever he called i couldn't stand to hear his voice so i'd hang up.I loved him too much and i was always so jealous that he'd find someone better but he's been single ever since he broke up with some girl after high school.I still think he might be seeing someone and it tears my heart out to think such a thing. The feeling of his hand against my cheek made me want to blush but i tried my best not to.I then placed my hand against his own and lightly pressed my cheek against his hand "Haru...." i said softly.He looked at me with a smile "Yes?" he asked still smiling at me "I....i missed you Haru....and i'm glad your here" i told him Why had i said it? Becaues i love him and had to, if i hadn't he would think i still hated him.He must not hate me if he's always smiling at me the way he does.
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Posted: Mon Aug 15, 2011 10:08 am
Chapter 2: The single Kiss i gave him Dinner, late night tv, all that went by so fast it was if i had just blinked and i was now laying in bed staring up at my ceeling with a blank expression on my face.True my parents would be up for another half hour or so, they always went to bed late.Haru had already gone off to bed (from giong around the world on his tour Bleh like i care).I just layed there wondering what i would do now.Haru had said over dinner that he'd be staying for a whole week.Perfect....why would it be though? I mean its not like i get enough guts to tell Haru how i felt. Besides he'd laugh and tell i was some messed up brother of his and just walk away from me, but i'm always thinking that so maybe it might not happen? I'm always so inscure about it and hate the fact i can't build up enough courage to just say "Haru i'm in love with you" but i can't its too hard, plus he's my brother what part of that doesn't spell wrong, sighing abit i slowly sat up and got to my feet, glancing over at my new guitar i closed my eyes and shook my head. Now standing at the door of his room i waited for the moment i wanted to push open the door and walk in, but he would be out cold, asleep i had to at leats trie something to maybe wake him up or see if he'll talk in his sleep like he use to do when he was home, pushing open the door i walked in and saw him lying on his bed with an arm over his eyes and the other on his chest.I smiled abit and shook my head before moving father into the room and shutting the door behind me making sure i wouldn't wake Haru from his sleep. Now standing at the side of his bed i wonderd if i should really do this but it was worth a shot to try.I climbed onto the bed so i was kind of over my brother looking down at his sweet sleeping self.He looked so much better when he slept.Leaning in abit my lips abit close to his i started to feel myself blush abit."Haru....i don't know if your able to hear me but....I love you and i always have...." i whisperd and leaned in abit more and lightly touched my lips to his.Hopping he wouldn't wake up i sat there with my lips pressed against his and suddenly i felt him kiss back.Oh god! He kissed back! I ran from the room back to mine and shut the door a dark blush on my face as i sat there. What had i done?
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Posted: Mon Aug 15, 2011 1:42 pm
Chapter 3: Pleading for him to retrun my love.....NOT! He had kissed me back, he had really done it....i still coouldn't beleive it myself, i couldn't bring my self to think of why he would do such a thing.He might have been dreaming about kissing some girl that he liked? But that was only making me jealous of how he would like some girl.I sat there in my room on my bed trying so hard to figure out the answer to why he would kiss me like that.I had never had the slightest thought that he would kiss back the way he did. But his lips were so soft, so gentle i couldn't help but smile at how he had kissed me back.Would he think i did it? would he know? Oh god i might as well end it right here! He'll find out and it'll be game over for me! Lets just hope he doesn't know it was me though god i also might as well kill myslef right here then he would never find out he'd only find me dead but no i couldn't do that.I sat there on the floor in fornt of my bed now racking my bairn on this thought. What was i going to do now.Finally haveing been able to now fall asleep, on the floor i had dreamt of Haru knowing it was me and he actually liked me, but it was just a dream that had made me wake up at like six in the morning.I stood from where i had been laying and walked form my room down the stairs and into the kitchen where my parents where already having breakfast.Haru was still in bed by the look of things.My mother gave me another onee of her motherly smile before she went back to eating and my father was busy reading the news paper still as always in the morning. I sat down at the table along side my father and my mother set down a plate of, eggs, bacon, taost, and some pancakes.I loved pancakes to much and even my mother knew that, for some odd reason i could eat as many as i wanted without getting sick.I poured on the syrup and began eating when i heard the sound of the shower going.Haru was up, sighing a bit i just kept eating until i froze.That thought about the kiss came flooding into my mind making me blush abit and almost drop my fork onto my lap.My father glanced at me and gave me an odd look. I hadn't said anything as i finished my breakfast and got up to go change my clothes.As i walked up the stairs i had my head down and didn't notice Haru coming down the hall, tripping i fell forward onto Haru, brushing the hair out of my face i looked down at him and tried to think of something to say up i came up with nothing.Ok so this is the akward part for me, i had tripped you all got that right? Right well now here i was lying ontop of my brother while he was shirtless and in only a frinkin towle, half wet from his shower, and what makes it worse is i was blushing so badly he actually started to smile at mee. I quickly got up and got to my feet before walking to my room without a word to Haru.I really didn't want to say anything to him, but before i had even made it to my room i felt his hand grab me by my wrist and just hold me in place.I then looked back at him and sighed softly. "What haru?" i said to him abit annouyed now "Just one question? Why are you blushing so badly?" he asked a bit of a smirk on his face. Right then and there i didn't know what i should have said. My mind was raceing and so was my heart, i was silent and unable to think straight now.What elsee had i done to desever this? He then let go of my wrist and walked down the hall to his room and shut the door behind him.
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Posted: Tue Aug 16, 2011 1:10 pm
Chapter 4: "I love you Mitsaki" He said to me
The best part about this whole day was when i my parents left, great right, i get stuck with my brother for about 5 or 6 hours, what now? I'm scerwed for life.Everything had just gone down hill, if only i had begged my mother to take me with her to work i wouldn't have this problem see.But no! The lame loser younger brother Mitsaki has to stay home with Mr. Big shot Rock star Haru...Great right? No it will never be great to be stuck with him.
Sighing softly i walked down the staris to the kitchen to get myself a drink, when i saw Haru standing at the fridgee taking out a can of soda.He glanced over at me and i caught a glimpes of a smile on his face before he looked away from me.I stood there slent, i didn't want to say a word to him caues i'd be stuck with him for the next 5 to 6 hours.It would mostly feel like 5 to 6 months! God i'm so scerwed! my life sucks!.I stood there trying to figuer out what i should do when Haru walked by me and smiled again.
I shook my head and just walked over to the fridge and opened it, taking out a can of Grape soda i popped open the top and took a drink of it, sighing again i walked form the kitchen to see Haru now sitting back against the couch with his feet up on the small coffee table in front of him, shaking my head i sat at the other end of the couch and didn't speak a word to him.Why wouldn't he talk? By now he would have said sothing to me? What was up? Was he planning something? Or was he waiting for me to say something?
"So Mitsaki whatcha been up to since i've been gone huh?" He finally asked
Ha! There it was something he finally spoke but why would he ask me what i've been up to since he's been gone? I didn't want to answer that one so i kept my mouth shut and drank my soda.
"Oh come now little brother don't be that way" i heard him say with abit of a chuckle.
I still kept my mouth shut what i had been doing was thinking about him, trying to send him letters that i could never bring myself to put in the mailbox.I had writen songs for him for his band for him to sing, thinking about him wanting him to come home so i could finally see him.
Then i had beeen beating myself up for wanting him to come home, for thinking about him, i destoyed each letter and song i had writen for him and then burned them, i had also bruned myself in the prosses of getting rid og the letters and songs, but i had kept one letter, one song, and one thought about him in my head the whole time, him retruning his love for me.I wanted so badly to know if he felt the same way.
"Mitsaki...." I heard his voice intrupte my thoughts causeing me to actually look over at him.I couldn't beieleve i just looked.I quickly looked away until i felt his hand on my head and lightly ruffle my hair abit before he gently touched my cheek, placing his hand under my chin he lightly lifted my head and gave a gentle kind smile, the one smile i had been wanting to see from him, the one i had seen before was a brotherly smile, but this one this one made me feel like he really did care, he must really care about me if he's giving me his kind, yet gentle smile that he never gave anymore.
I waited for him to speak again a light blush now coming across my face as he moved closer to me his hand still under my chin as he came much closer to me now.His lips almost touching mine but where just inches away.
"Mitsaki...." he said my name again his lips almost brushing against mine when he spoke.
"Yes....Haru...." I said quietly closing my eyes waiting for him to kiss me, but it never came. I didn't feel his lips against mine but his hand was still under my chin holding it in place.
"I love you Mitsaki" He said.
I froze completely as he pulled away from me and stood walking up the stairs to his room leaving me alone on the couch with a shocked look on my face.
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Posted: Sat Aug 20, 2011 11:07 am
Chapter 5: How do i say "I hate you" without being rude?
Complete and total shock, sitting silent my mouth half open, no words coming out, as Haru went up to his room leaving me in awe at the words that had come out of that mouth of his, and now i had no idea what to do or what to say to him.I hadn't realized i had dropped my can of soda that had now stained the carpet purple, as i stood and picked up the can of soda i shook my head.He must have known about last night when i had kissed him.Did he really know? No he couldn't have, Haru was a heavy sleeper, theres no way he would have known it was me or well i.Damn.I'm so scrwed if he knows.
But he said that he loved mee....that doesn't seem right.He's messing with me, he's playing with my emotions i bet.I stood now at the sink getting mad, that i began to crush the soda can in my hand, cutting my finger i dropped the can and walked from the kitchen and up to the bathroom to bandage my finger.When i passed by his room all i heard was...was well nothing.It was so quiet i couldn't belive it really.Was he upset? Was he mad? Now i had those kind of questions passing in and out of my mind as i stood in the bathroom bandaging my finger.I wanted so badly to go into his room now.
So well i kinda did, but i was standing at the door of his room wondering what i should do next, placing my hand on the handle of the door i slowly began to trun it, hopping Haru was busy doing something so he didn't hear me coming in.The door suddenly came open and there he stood looking down at me.I tried to force a smile on to my face but nothing, my face was stuck with a bit of shock still and abit of anger.
"What do you want Mitsaki?" He asked looking down at me still
"I...i just wanted...to to....ask you....something" I stammerd.
Without another word he hauled me into his room and shut the door behind me.
"Alright what is it? What do you so desptretly need to ask me Mitsaki?" He asked and sat down on his bed looking right at me with a hint of a smile on his lips.What do i say? what do i do? I had suddenly became overwhelmed with anger and sadness that i moved closer to him and brought him down onto his bed, holding his wrist in a tight grip my eyes began to fill with tears that dripped down onto Haru's face "How could you just say that! With such a plain look on your face!" I cried and closed my eyes trying to rid of the tears.
He didn't speak to me, he was just silent and still had a plain unintrested look on his face.
"Say what?" he asked me and truned his head to the side abit
"How can you say you love me! and just walk off like that!"
I couldn't hold back with my words or anything, pulling one hand away from his wrist he looked back up at me.I tried so hard to keep myself from doing something i would regret but i just couldn't from how mad and upset i was with him.
Slapping him hard, I now felt horrible for hitting him.I had never hit him like that before.I usualy only gave him like a brotherly hit on the arm or whatever you know if you have a brother you'd do the same but not slap him the way i did.He had his head to the side a red mark now appering on his cheek where i had hit him, i was still silent and unable to move at the moment.He truned his head and looked up at me with a bit of a shocked look and opened his mouth to speak, but before he could speak i had slapped him again.
I slowly got off of him and backed away, watching as he to got off his bed and moved closer to me.I started to fall abit and sat on the floor in front of his door and watched as he kenlt down in front of me and leaned in a bit close to me.
"Mitsaki i can understand that your upset, but what i said to you, was true" He said quietly and before i could say anything he kissed me, my eyes abit wide as i felt his soft lips against mine made me start to blush a bit.I pushed him away and looked at him.
"Mitsaki....Please....i swear that i really do love you...." he whisperd and kissed me once again.
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Posted: Sat Aug 20, 2011 12:16 pm
Chapter 6: "Wait Haru! I can't!" I yelled wanting him to stop
I had no idea what was going on my mind was raceing with so mayny things i should have said, my heart was raceing from Haru kissing me right now.I felt one of his hands against my waist while the other was against my cheek.I couldn't help but start to kiss back, feeling him pushing his tounge into my mouth i blushed abit more and wanted to pull away from him but he kept a hold on me.
"H-Haru...." i muttered against his lips and felt him pull away looking at me with a smile on his face.
"Yes Mitsaki? Is something wrong?" he asked waiting for my answer.Now what do i say? Damn.Again.
Unable to controll myself now i leaned in close and kissed him again letting his tounge once again invade my mouth.No to much it was to much to handle i felt so many things going on at once i couldn't help but let Haru do as he pleased, which was a bad idea.He picked me up and brought me over to his bed, setting me down he got over me and started to kiss me once again.He pushed his hands under my shirt making me blush and a soft sound leave me.He pulled away a bit of a smirk on his face.
"Was that a moan Mitsaki?" i heard him ask me.
I shook my head no "N...no it wasn't" i lied but he didn't belive me.
I felt him now pulling up my shirt, pulling it off he moved abit lower and lightly touched his lips to my chest.I closed my eyes not wanting to watch what was about to happen to me.
"Mitsaki open your eyes, i want you to watch" He said quietly.
Slowly i opened my eyes and looked down at him, seeing the smile on his face he started to kiss down my chest, making me moan abit at the soft feel of his lips.Oh god what was happening to me? I was letting him get to me.He looked up at me and smiled as he moved abit lower.
Watching this happen i just couldn't stand it.I didn't want this.I didn't want to go this far, but Haru wanted this....i wasn't ready...not like this i couldn't let this happen, but he continued, with taking the zipper of my jeans between his teeth, watching as he started to unzip my pants i closed my eyes again.
"Mitsaki i told you to keep your eyes open"
Shaking my head i felt his hands pulling off my jeans and boxers at the same time.Oh god oh god oh god! he was eally gonna do it wasn't he?
"Wait Haru! I can't!" i yelled at him wanting him to stop.
~Timeskip~
Laying next to him with my fingers curled up in his shirt, refusing to let i go i looked up at Haru who had his eyes closed and his arms behind him head, a smile on his face, opening his eyes he looked down at me and gently touched my cheek.
"Mitsaki....you did good" he said softly making me blush abit at his words.
Realizing what had just happened i quickly sat up and pulled the balcket up abit over my chest.
"Your sick Haru....what you did to me...i'm your brother for crying out loud! and this happens!" i said abit upset, yet i had actually enjoyed it, but i wouldn't admit it to him not yet i wouldn't.
I got up and grabbed my clothes, walking to the door i truned back to look at him and shook my head.I left without a word and went to my room to get myself a shower and go to bed.I couldn't believe that we had sex and i enjoyed every minute of it! I'm such an idiot to have let him do that to me, sighing softly i dropped my clothes on the floor and grabbed my Pj's and a new pair of boxers, walking into the bathroom i placed the clothes on th sink conter and got into the shower.
Taking a quick shower was good enough for right now.I got out and dried off and got dressed, walking from the bathroom i shook my head riding abit of the water from my hair before climbing into my bed, closing my eyes i yawned softly and slowly drifted off to sleep.
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Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2011 3:25 pm
Chapter 7: The truth hurts Hard enough to say that i still couldn't bring myself to believe that i had sex with my own brother, but i loved him.I do but i can't he's my brother thats insect, he'd probably get sent to jail if someone found out about this or us or whatever.I sighed softly as i rolled out of bed and pulled off my Pj's, walking over to the closet a grabbed a pair of black faded jeans and a plain black shirt, putting on the clothes i walked from my room to get myself some breakfast.I'll just go hang out with a friend today so i don't have to be anywhere near Haru, but my friend lived half a mile away from my huse, plus it was hot as hell out. Grabbing myself a can of soda was all before i walked to the door and stopped when i felt a hand aainst my shoulder "Where are you going mister?" i heard his voice, Haru.I truned to face him and popped the tp off of my soda and took a drink "A friends house got a problem with that?" i asked him and shook my head "No you don't thats what i thought" i truned away from him and opened the door. "isn't that the friend that lives half a mile away from here hmm?" he asked me. He had said he was going to give me a ride,i gave in and decided to let him drive me there.I sat there silent in the passagers side of the car with my amrs crossed over my chest not looking at him.He was also silent, not even glancing at me.He mst have known i was still upset with him becaues of yesterday.I was ad i'd be upset for quit a while becaues of that.When we finally got to my friend Ty's house he gently took my face in one of his hands and leaned over, gently kissing my lips. I pushed him away and got out of the car, walking up the small pathway of Ty's house i konked on his door and waited.When Ty i came to the door i pushed him out of the way and walked inside not even waving bye to Haru from sill being upset at him.Ty looked at me as he shut the door "Hey isn't that your....brother?" he asked me.I nodded and sat back on his couch "Yes Ty thats my brother and i don't care i'm not going to get him to sign something for you" i told him. We talked for a while and i started on saying something. "Yes and well lets just say somethings happened with me and him...." i told him.Ty chuckled abit "Things? What things? Hmm?" he asked nudgging my arm and giving a bit of a wink "Oh i get it insect hmm?" he had read my mind "thats alright with me as long as it was fun" he said with another chuckle. I blushed abit and just looked away from him "Ok yes i admit i had fun but i'm not going to admit that to Haru" i told him and sighed abit.
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