So, dropping the jesus bit I'd like to bring up my point of view.
To me, sexual activities hold nothing wrong less you take a vow/follow a path with more emphasis on celibacy. If your a layperson(aka not a monk) then really, the rule is more of avoid damaging sexual activities.
Let us look at this situation as a wonderful way to evaluate if for you personally, sex is appropriate at this time. Your panic, your fear and your general guilt of being "unmindful in your actions".
This is the world of being sexually active. It's scary just how responsible you should be, isn't it? Now that you've been through this experiance, you need to meditate on this: "Is it for you? Are you ready?"
Do not be terrified of sex, and do not be ashamed of it. Be mindful of it completely. Understand its pleasures, it's responsibilities, and its limitations. Also understand yourself.
I bring this point up, because how she was on birth control and your strong fear of her being pregnant. Less she just recently started the pill, I find it possible to read into your reaction as that of not truly being ready.
Now, I am not going to tell you that you are or aren't ready for sex. I am just saying, that such a reaction warrants such a possiblity just as a leaf blowing in the wind can go one way or the other. Look at the other side, you where worried about her. You where worried about the future of a possible life in the making, and you took extra precautions to begin with.
It is entirely up to you, to do just what you worried you weren't doing. Be mindful. Take the time to figure yourself out. Do definitely follow this: check into condoms more. Did that one break because of mis-sizing? Crappy brand? What in that situation might have lead to that? If nothing seems wrong with it as such, then view it as just the needed wake up into the situation to fully evaluate where you are at this time in your life and sex.
ps: whens health class for you? Don't they teach you kids about emergancy contriceptive/72 hour pill/plan B these days? Makes me sad you didn't know of that.
To me, sexual activities hold nothing wrong less you take a vow/follow a path with more emphasis on celibacy. If your a layperson(aka not a monk) then really, the rule is more of avoid damaging sexual activities.
Let us look at this situation as a wonderful way to evaluate if for you personally, sex is appropriate at this time. Your panic, your fear and your general guilt of being "unmindful in your actions".
This is the world of being sexually active. It's scary just how responsible you should be, isn't it? Now that you've been through this experiance, you need to meditate on this: "Is it for you? Are you ready?"
Do not be terrified of sex, and do not be ashamed of it. Be mindful of it completely. Understand its pleasures, it's responsibilities, and its limitations. Also understand yourself.
I bring this point up, because how she was on birth control and your strong fear of her being pregnant. Less she just recently started the pill, I find it possible to read into your reaction as that of not truly being ready.
Now, I am not going to tell you that you are or aren't ready for sex. I am just saying, that such a reaction warrants such a possiblity just as a leaf blowing in the wind can go one way or the other. Look at the other side, you where worried about her. You where worried about the future of a possible life in the making, and you took extra precautions to begin with.
It is entirely up to you, to do just what you worried you weren't doing. Be mindful. Take the time to figure yourself out. Do definitely follow this: check into condoms more. Did that one break because of mis-sizing? Crappy brand? What in that situation might have lead to that? If nothing seems wrong with it as such, then view it as just the needed wake up into the situation to fully evaluate where you are at this time in your life and sex.
ps: whens health class for you? Don't they teach you kids about emergancy contriceptive/72 hour pill/plan B these days? Makes me sad you didn't know of that.
