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So there is this girl. I meet her at church camp three years ago. At the time, I was extremely socially awkward. For the most part, I've over came it, or at least to a point that I want to stay. But back then, I wasn't great with befriending new people, especially the ladies. They thought I was weird and gross or whatever. But at church camp, a few people still tried to talk to me, I didn't return the favor, because I was kind of shy and what not, but I really am glad they put forth the effort. One of these people was a girl, lets call her Tess, because I like that name. Tess tried talking to me and always had this wonderful smile. The next year I had just about reached my social comfort zone and I was trying to make friends. I got to talking with her and all that, and she was one of the people I was excited to talk to this year.

Now I had always felt a strange feeling towards her, and I wasn't sure what. I;ve had crushes before and I knew it wasn't that. And this year it really struck me between two different events. The first one was during our last class. One person would be picked and then everyone would say what they liked/admired/aprreciated about them. What great friends they were and all that jazz. So when it was her turn, and I was sharing about her, I kind of got embarrassed and I ended halfway mumbling, just loud enough to hear and understand. ". . .and I love you for it," without even thinking about it. And then at supper, while waiting in line, I turned around to say something to someone and just as I turned Tess grabbed her bust as she was talking to someone else. She saw me look at her. I gave her an "ok....." kind of look and turned around. She told me to turn around and she told me she was just saying she wanted a bigger bust. And honest to goodness, I hadn't noticed. As a guy, I am prone to looking at those, but in her, I had always just looked at her face or her body as a whole and never really noticed it. I don't know, maybe my subconcoius kept me from looking at it from out of respect for her, maybe I had just never had the temptation too, or maybe I just got lost in her smile, cheesy as it may sound. And I realized, maybe that strange feeling I've had for her is love. This love wasn't a physical/sexual attraction, but something much deeper. A sort of mental/spiritual connection. I don't know if its love, cause I'm kind of new to this whole thing.

I don't want to ruin our friendship because if she never talked to me because she thought I was weird, I would be absolutely chrushed. But I keep having this feeling that we are meant to be. I've known strong devote christains who had said the same thing and lost their virginity too early because of it. Any help or adivce on the issue is much appreciated.

you seem to like this girl
so give it a chance

there is no harm in telling her how you feel

just try not to start a story in with

and this one time in church camp