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 Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 9:33 pm
"There are too many rules...I can't do it...I'll just not read." He looked away from the book again, why can't he get this? This is like a first grader's book. Maybe even lower than that! He can tell, it has pictures. Wait! Pictures! This is easy! All he has to do is describe the pictures! Since there are only three words left on this page and the picture is of a cow eating. So maybe it's "The cow eats the grass." He looked at the picture to reassure that it was that. He had it this time! It had to be! "See? I can do it...I'm just a slow reader..." He still was lieing he was going to keep lieing too until she approved of him. He made himself look so confident. It had to be right. He looked at her again noticeing little ears sticking out from her head. Ears!?!?! When did those get there? Had they been there before? Was he that lost? He knew what she was now. It hit him so hard it wasn't, no, couldn't be wrong.
She was a cat girl.
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 9:44 pm
Shae grinned, and took the book from him. "I guess you don't want to read?" she guessed from his imaginary sentence. The cows were very unhappy Was how it began, but she guessed it was too much for his pride to admit being very unable to read. Why do I want to help him? It's his own business.
standing up, she put the book on her night stand. We can try another nightTIME, ANOTHER TIME. Another DAY. Shae sat back down on his bed, and examined her fingernails, waiting for him to speak, not understanding why he'd fake knowing... who cared? We all needed to start from somewhere.
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 10:06 pm
He was even more embarassed than before. And he suddenly looked dissapointed as well. "I want to. It is just that English is too difficult. I wouldn't know how speak etheir if my brother hadn't came up to my room to talk to me. I was never exposed to anything when I was young, I couldn't even go downstairs or have friends or anything. I didn't want to try and cheat...but I didn't want to look stupid in front of you. Well, I don't care anymore! I don't know how to read. I don't know how to tell time. I don't know how to think for myself. Because I'm just a stupid little slave boy who only knows how to work!" He put his face in his hands and felt like running away. Where would he go? How could he leave now? ...he didn't know what to do. He froze and waited for her to respond. What could she say? What was he looking for her to say? His mind went elsewhere. It was his brother and himself in his old room. He noticed now how clean it really was. He didn't have anything else to do. He just cleaned. "How are you today, brother?" Alar asked gently. Agrnulocytosis didn't answer. He just shook his head. "If you don't answer, you'll lose your voice. And even if you didn't lose your voice. You can't speak words, if you never try them." He shook his head one more time. Alar sighed. "Brother, your older than me, and I know more than you, don't you feel ashamed?" He shook his head one final time. "You should feel ashamed, and so should I for saying so. But brother, talk. You are aloud to talk. You can to the ghosts when I am gone and to me when I am here. I will not laugh, just say something!" Alar exclaimed. He spoke his first sentence in a long while it was beautiful, so beautiful it made Alar cry.
"Those with wings...are the ones that stay at the window, why does this one stay next to I?"
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 10:21 pm
She squished a little closer to him, trying to tmake him feel better, even though there wasn't much she could do. She took a breath, and tried to organize her words before just saying them, like she usually did. "I..." She couldn't say anything.... But she had to!
Trying to start again, chatoya said "I didn't mean to make you feel bad. But..." she put one of her small hands on his shoulder, and tried to continue. "You don't need to worry about looking stupid, or dumb, or whatever in front of me. I'm teaching you, right? Everyone needs to start somewhere."
"I just can't imagine not being allowed to go where I want, or do what I want. A cage. I would rather die. But I just want you to see another door out of your personal prison. Don't worry about being happy, just do it." Shae looked away, not moving from her spot nxt to Granu. I just want to help you
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 10:35 pm
Granu snapped out of his thoughts. There he went again getting lost in his memories and poruing out eveything thing onto her. He still didn't know anything about her. Why can she keep her mind, while he's just falls out? His emotions fall like waterfalls and his mind make him so sick. He was a human all right. Humans are emotional rollercoasters. But no, I don't want to be a human if this is going to be my fate... Sure, love is the best thing that happened to me in my life. But this hatred that I have for myself. It's so tempting just to feel numb. If I become numb. My emotions will just randomly come out. I won't be able to feel anything ethier, no pain. No emotional damage. Why did he want to be a human again? For her...for her? It was all for her! The error of him. If she wasn't there he would still be himself. That icicle hanging off of a roof just waiting to fall. Just waiting to shatter in a million and one pieces. Just to end it all. Before it began again. He ignored everything she said. He didn't care anymore. He changed his mind, nothing was going to happen anymore. This was gonig to be him. He layed his head in her lap. "It's okay, your right. I was just stressed...don't worry about me." He sighed slightly be tried to pretend like he never did.
"What time is it?"
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 1:52 pm
Surprised a bit by the head she found in her lap, Chatoya let it slide, since he was clearly stressing about something. She lifted her hands, and rested them on her head. "I think it's a little after midnight." she said softly, starting to feel time's train on her body. The girl let out a jaw-cracking yawn, but she wasn't ready to go to sleep. I can't... Not while he's here.
She shook her head, and while sitting there peacefully, absentmindedly began stroking his hair. "So... this teacher business... Do you still want me?" she paused "As a teacher, I mean. Does the offer still stand?" Why am I doing this? I've spent too much time with him already.
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 3:55 pm
He felt her fingers run through his hair. It wasn't normal that he would have so much attention, but he liked it. He liked everything she no matter what it was. She could bite him, and he'd probably hold his arm and say 'Do it again!' smileing, so clueless. What? When did he start acting that way? Was it before or after he met her? Was it still happening, at this moment? Would he ever be himself? Did he want to?
Myself is me, but at this moment that is who I don't want to be.
Maybe I'm afraid of me, the only thing I can't see...
Is how I wake up everyday thinking things are the same way.
Since I met her, it has been this way. Always doubting myself, and listening to her. Like her word is law. How can I think that she is the same? She isn't neglecting me until she needs me. She cares about me, I should know, if someone doesn't care about you they just go away.
Or send you away...
"Of course!" Granu smiled brightly to himself. He knows she cares. She had to..."Why, is that a yes?"
Even though things are changeing, he still lingers here now. Crawling around in my head. Waiting to at any moment stir up new trouble for me. Like Alar...
How could he make him think that way?
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 5:23 pm
"Might be." She grinned, all the sudden in a better mood now. "Might not." Her grin grew, slightly tipped canines glinting. "I don't like ranks though. I'd prefer we were not teacher and student, but friends. We're friends, right?" Shae asked all of the sudden, not knowing.
What was a friend anyways? Most of her friends (all) had been her family, none of the other kids liked playing with her. It's not that she minded, but she suddenly realised that she didn't know how to be a friend. What was the line, and where was it? Her only other friend had been John, and He didn't exactly count.
"Hey muffin girl..." the older boy looked at her, black hair getting in his eyes some. He had the beginning of a beard, and hollow eyes. "Howabout a muffin?"
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 5:54 pm
"Yes! Of course! Just friends." She seemed happier and so did he. He needed to get away from the earlier thoughts about Alar and Principalities and think about what was going to happen now! His life was moveing on! He was on the subject of her right now. He was reminded of the same thing he had been thinking even earlier. Angel or human? Maybe he could ask...and maybe it could lead to was she is. Not to be rude but ears, claws, and teeth!?!?! She was scaring him, but only a little. Love can conquer anything, anything...
"What do you think about me?" He stopped, thinking that it wouldn't be that easy. "Angel or human?"
He stared at her teeth a bit. And the only thing he could think now was something a little mean.
Are you going to eat me?
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 6:04 pm
Shae closed her mouth, and looked thoughtful for a minute. She also stopped running her hand over his head, if only to think. Retstarting fiddling with his hair, she looked up.
"I don't know... Ultimately, It's not up to me, but I'd have to say.... Both." She smiled a bit. "You know, best of both worlds. I don't see why anyone should ever have to choose between one half or the other. That's like looking at your parents, and deciding to kill one of them, based solely on their heritage. I don't think anyone should be forced to make a choice like that." Ever.
"I like you fine the way you are, but it's still up to you."
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 6:20 pm
She started to pet him again but he shifted a little to lay his head on her stomache, her chest laying on top. He blushed a little and hoped that she wouldn't mind. What does he think he's doing? Moveing up like that isn't really 'baby safe' anymore. But I guess it was a little more safer than laying your head other places. I was just trying to get comfortable! I think...
Why couldn't she pick a side? Did she want him to be obidient to her but still able to have emotions? Or maybe it was she wanted him to be emotionless but still love her? Or maybe it was just like hse said, 'I like you just the way you are' The thought made him own a sneer expression a little. That just that forturne cookie s**t talking again. It was worse than 'All I want to do is help!' But I guess he could let it slide for her.
Wait, was she trying to give him a sign to ask about her family? She might. Or she was just makeing a comment. But this was an excellent set up, he didn't have to just say flat out 'What are you?' He could poke around the edges then cut through when she lead him on somemore.
"Did you ever have to choose?"
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 6:25 pm
Chizuu hesitantly approached the andriod. "Um, excuse me, Joshua?" she asked to be sure. The andriod reacted with an overcheerful 'but of course, and you?'. She gave the bot a small smile in return, "Chizuu, Chizuu Kai Sayuri," she replied. The robot checked it's interal system and delcared that she was indeed on the list and asked for her room perferences. "Um...soft color scheme? A nice view too, I suppose," she answered the andriod. The bot gave another cheerful "alright!' and searched up rooms under her preferences.
After a moment the bot declared he had a few good matches, and lead her off to the best one. Chizuu grabbed her two suitcases, swinging her back pack over her shoulder and followed behind the swift moving andriod. The hall was long, and students littered about her, some of them eyeing her. She gave an internal sigh. She'd be the new kid again. As the other students sized her up, she lowered her violet eyes to the ground, vainly wishing her white hair would suddenly go black. But it didnt, just as it never had before.
Joshua stopped before a room, and opened the door for her allowing her inside. At her first sight of the rooms he drew in a breathe of awe. It was so wonderful, gently colors of lilac and white scatted the room, the window large and looking out over the forest and in the distance the beach. The bed had fluffy looking pillows, and a white, lacy hemmed sheets. "Oh, thank you Joshua,' she said elated, "It's perfect!"
The robot replied with an 'of course it is' and scuttled off to it's post. Setting her lugguage down she walked to the window. Her violet eyes growing wide at the view. 'So beautiful," she breathed quietly.
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 6:30 pm
Shae paused for a minute as he shifted, and for though.... Had she? It hadn't been so straitforward, there was more at work than simply 'choose'. It was much more complex than that... or was it? Being very careful with her 'claws' Chatoya kept up playing with his hair. It was so much softer than her wild mane.
"I guess so... " They say that good judgement comes from experience, but experience comes from bad judgement. "It wasn't as simple as that though. I don't suppose your circumstances are any clearer though." She laughed nervously a bit. It was kind of forced.
"I guess, I did have to choose. I chose the life of a human, to have less responsibilities." She shook her head at the memory. "Turns out, what seems is not always what is. And it's almost impossible to leave half of yourself behind." I learned that the hard way. If only... If only... "I regret now my decision, but if I had gone the other route, I would be just as unhappy. I guess a choice had to be made, and there was no right answer." In life, there are never clear cut answers.
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 6:47 pm
Agranulocyotsis' stomache growled once more for the night. He put his hands over the beast, trying not to intterupt her story. He noticed how completely opposite they were compaired to how they were the same. It was nice that they weren' that much alike. Differences are the way people express their feelings. Feelings...he remembered slightly about Alar. He never had any other feelings than happiness. The other emotions were given to him. Principalities gave him two, anger and fear... Our mother gave him sadness, as did I contribute. But how can feelings be taught? How do we get feelings in the first place? When a child is hurt they cry, when someone dies a grown man cries. It is the same, from early age to old. But are they something from within or given? I guess that is how they build character. Information fell upon him like a history book on a sleeping kid. ((What the...?)) She was giveing him some details now, just as he was before. He wanted to keep getting more, he carried on with the conversation as if he hadn't thought anything.
"Why wouldn't you be happy now?"
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 6:57 pm
"I am happy... I guess. I'm mostly happy. See?" She looked down and smiled at him, pointing to her grin. "I like being here." With you, I mean... uh... at the school. Traitorous thoughts! Then, turning back to seriousness, "But I'm unhappy with the way I acted, for all the wrong reasons. and I'm unhappy with the way my actions effected others." She shook her head... Two years because of my foolishness...
"We can't be all happy all of the time. I guess, this is my constant sadness, to make the happy parts even better." Still playing with his hair, she began braiding small parts. Her hair was too layered to make a proper braid, she was slightly jealous.
"It's still a terrible choice to make." She gently tried steering the conversation away from dangerous waters. He might change his mind if he knew she was a beast. As long as he kept somewhat distant at certain times, and stayed the crap away from that calendar, they would be fine.
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