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 Posted: Fri Oct 14, 2005 9:37 pm
Yuuto_Kigai Mine's not to long, but it is kinda wierd. Practically my whole life, my mom's been pressuring me to do well in school, and i don't mean a's and b's, I mean Straight high a's. or house arrest without any electricty. So, being as these high grades don't make themselves, I study all the time. In school, i always got made fun of for reading during lunch and break, and not just fun stuff, but stuff like, "The Art of War", and "War and Piece", all of the old historical books, and classic plays. When I was in the sixth grade, having just moved down to South Carolina a year ago, I met a really nice guy, who shall not be named. I was studying at his house, while he was playing on his computer, and due to stress, and lack of sleep, I passed out sweatdrop . When I woke up, it was nighttime, and I was in his bed(It was a Saturday, and I was sleeping over), with him practically snuggling up to me, so I did what anyone would have done. I snuggled back. After that, i started to think about boys like that instead of girls,not that I had had time to think of girls at all, with the amount of work i had to do. Sadly, I'm not exactly with him, though we remain close buddies. It's really difficult to find an outed guy in South Carolina! evil
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Posted: Sun Oct 16, 2005 5:16 am
well.....
I guess it all started in 1995...... oops wrong story
from 1st till 4th grade i had this crush on this girl at my school, and tried to ask her out, but it alwase ended with her running away screaming and me chasing her.........*long pause* anyways then we moved away, and in 5th grade i was very reserved snd kept to myself......... then i met these two boys, and almost instantly had a crush on one of them, but i was a BIG homophobe, abd wrote it off and forgot about it *or tried to at least sweatdrop * then in 6th grade i kind of forced myself to have a crush on a girl in my class, and totally focased on her the whole year. the next year one of my friends *the one i had a crush on* came out to me. I sort of worshiped him in my brain, and started questioning my sexuality. then last year i found out alot of the people i knew were gay or bi. and i was thrwn into a swirling vortex of confusion and DOOM!!!!!!!......... yeah......... anyways... oh yeah..... this year i found out that the girl i liked was bi and i guess that just clicked everything together!......... Oh yeah....... also scence last year I have had this HUGE crush on this now senior in my school....... i was kinda stalker about it too....... like all summer i would stare at his picture in the yearbook,and this told me nothing, and now all year i've been following him around..................................................................... yeah..........
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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2005 12:38 pm
Claena Yuuto_Kigai Mine's not to long, but it is kinda wierd. Practically my whole life, my mom's been pressuring me to do well in school, and i don't mean a's and b's, I mean Straight high a's. or house arrest without any electricty. So, being as these high grades don't make themselves, I study all the time. In school, i always got made fun of for reading during lunch and break, and not just fun stuff, but stuff like, "The Art of War", and "War and Piece", all of the old historical books, and classic plays. When I was in the sixth grade, having just moved down to South Carolina a year ago, I met a really nice guy, who shall not be named. I was studying at his house, while he was playing on his computer, and due to stress, and lack of sleep, I passed out sweatdrop . When I woke up, it was nighttime, and I was in his bed(It was a Saturday, and I was sleeping over), with him practically snuggling up to me, so I did what anyone would have done. I snuggled back. After that, i started to think about boys like that instead of girls,not that I had had time to think of girls at all, with the amount of work i had to do. Sadly, I'm not exactly with him, though we remain close buddies. It's really difficult to find an outed guy in South Carolina! evil I don't mean that I was outed, I mean someone else that is, though I wouldn't mind an open relationship. It's hard to gauge who is and who isn't with all the prejudice against homosexuals down here(no offence to any southerners, but come on, it's vicious!). I wouldn't know if a guy I'd want to go out with is gay or a flaming homophobe, the latter could be horrible. Blind dates are the only option, and the last time I went on one of those, my date was a ardent nympho, who tried to have sex with me the first date, and for the rest of the month that we were together, I broke it off for obvious reasons, he tried to get in my pants whenever we were alone! Sometimes I envy you people up north, Southern hospitality my a**! stare Don't get me wrong, I was born in Southern Cali, and raised in Pennsylvania! Yay Flyers!!
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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2005 3:47 pm
Yuuto_Kigai Claena Yuuto_Kigai Mine's not to long, but it is kinda wierd. Practically my whole life, my mom's been pressuring me to do well in school, and i don't mean a's and b's, I mean Straight high a's. or house arrest without any electricty. So, being as these high grades don't make themselves, I study all the time. In school, i always got made fun of for reading during lunch and break, and not just fun stuff, but stuff like, "The Art of War", and "War and Piece", all of the old historical books, and classic plays. When I was in the sixth grade, having just moved down to South Carolina a year ago, I met a really nice guy, who shall not be named. I was studying at his house, while he was playing on his computer, and due to stress, and lack of sleep, I passed out sweatdrop . When I woke up, it was nighttime, and I was in his bed(It was a Saturday, and I was sleeping over), with him practically snuggling up to me, so I did what anyone would have done. I snuggled back. After that, i started to think about boys like that instead of girls,not that I had had time to think of girls at all, with the amount of work i had to do. Sadly, I'm not exactly with him, though we remain close buddies. It's really difficult to find an outed guy in South Carolina! evil I don't mean that I was outed, I mean someone else that is, though I wouldn't mind an open relationship. It's hard to gauge who is and who isn't with all the prejudice against homosexuals down here(no offence to any southerners, but come on, it's vicious!). I wouldn't know if a guy I'd want to go out with is gay or a flaming homophobe, the latter could be horrible. Blind dates are the only option, and the last time I went on one of those, my date was a ardent nympho, who tried to have sex with me the first date, and for the rest of the month that we were together, I broke it off for obvious reasons, he tried to get in my pants whenever we were alone! Sometimes I envy you people up north, Southern hospitality my a**! stare Don't get me wrong, I was born in Southern Cali, and raised in Pennsylvania! Yay Flyers!! (lives in NC) Gawd do I know what you mean.. sweatdrop
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Posted: Tue Oct 18, 2005 10:54 pm
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Posted: Mon Oct 24, 2005 7:05 pm
Well thanks to some info from Shmoo and some of my own research, I find that I can better identify with the term pansexual, rather than bisexual. It's an interesting discovery, but not one that was unexpected based on what I'm like. Still it's good to know you have a term that descibes you better than others.
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Posted: Sat Dec 03, 2005 11:20 am
Vash262 For me i dunno really sweatdrop I mean there were thoughts about other boys when i was younger and stuff, but i always kindof just neatly filed them away and didnt pay any attention to them, until one day about 1.5-2 years ago it just kinda reared its head and bit me on my a** and i realized i was gay xp Same here. I'd see girls and think "she's hot!" but then I'd just brush it off with a "but I'm just being stupid I don't REALLY like girls". I'm a lesbian and I always just thought I was a very weird straight girl rofl ! I thought maybe I was bi but when I said to myself "I'm bi" it just felt wrong xp . So one day i was just like "FINE! I'M A LESBIAN!" and everything made sense 3nodding !
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Posted: Sat Dec 03, 2005 1:49 pm
(i'm in NC too 3nodding )
How did I figure it out? Well since the sixth grade, I've progressively gotten less and less interested in guys in general. I mean, i can't stand them now, for the most part. Maybe it's something about southern states having stupid guys as 90% of the male population. But anyways, I've always, as long as i can remember, had a thing in the back of my mind that payed attention to girls. How beautiful some are, and how i liked them. And i've always noticed that when I'm with my female friends, if they comment on how cute a guy was, i wasn't really able to understand what they were seeing. I've not really thought of many guys as 'hot', you know? I don't really pay attention to their looks. And when I do, it's hard to tell.
Like how a boy would react to "wow, he's hot, huh?" xDD He'd be like "wtf." That's like me. Very few boys catch my interest as much as girls do.
I also have grown up surrounded by male friends, as have many other people in this guild, so i see. Maybe a determining factor? Dunno.
But anyways, in 8th grade I knew I was different. So I played with the idea of bisexuality, and by my freshman year in high school, I was pretty positive. And now, as a sophomore (i am still so young u_u please tell me i'm not the youngest one in here, haha.) I'm thinking maybe I'm actually a lesbian. Guys have no interest for me, anyways, but that doesn't bother me anymore. I don't like them either. whee
Buuuut. I've known my friends for so long. It would be SO weird to suddenly say to them one day, "i'm a lesbian". They'd be like, "uhm. yeah, right." >_< argh. But i do have 2 bisexual friends. Although one's a girl who has a big mouth. And the guy is kinda suspecting that i like girls. He knew that i had a thing for Laura, and would poke fun, just joking around. I know I could tell him, but I can just never get up the courage for something like that. stare
(do longer posts really get you more gold? just wondering :3)
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Posted: Sat Jan 07, 2006 9:15 am
sweet! You live in NC too! What part (you dont have to be specific if you dont want)? I live a lil north of Charlotte. 3nodding
And no, I dont think longer post get you more gold. sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Jan 07, 2006 9:38 pm
BakaTulip Discuss your storiesMINE Okay yes, I was at the beach with my friend and she dared me to go flirt with this guy... and I did... and we ended up kissing but...I think from the time I was 10 to the time I was 14, pretty much all of puberty all I wanted was to be normal. I didn't know about homosexuality or anything and so I lived like a normal girl. I had a boyfriend when I was 10 and I dressed like a prep and... looking back on how I used to be I'm pretty disgusted with myself back then. I always thought girls were prettier than my mom did and I always felt emotionally closer to women even though most of my friends were guys. When I was thirteen or fourteen, my role play friend told me she was a lesbian and she was the first gay person I knew. It was about that time that I began to wonder about my orientation. By the time I was 15 I was still clinging to being partially normal and so I tried to come out to my mom who INSTANTLY wrote it off as a phase. It was at that time I developed a massive crush on my friend who was a lesbian as well but after I told her she started to hate me. Well, I'm now I'm approaching 17 and I'm positive I'm a lesbian. In fact, I've been in a relationship for 6 months now with the girl I'm positive is my soulmate, it's been a long distance relationship (see, she was the first lesbian I ever knew) and we kissed yesterday for the first time and it was just...wow... the two times I kissed guys was never ever that good! Wow....so much of that sounds like my life. Well except for your friend being a lesbian, mine came out as bisexual. Which also connects to my not knowing if i am bi or a lesbian. I jus twish i had a happly ever after too. *sigh* darn lucky people. Ill just have to be comforted by other bitter people.
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Posted: Sat Jan 07, 2006 9:48 pm
*sigh* okay, here is my story. All my life i was an odd little child. When i was little i didn't have the "normal" crushes on celebraty males or even guys in my school so i started to make up crushes to get my friends off my back. I went on to be a snoppy preppy middle-schooler. In freshman year, one of my close female friends came out as bi and started stating another female friend of mine. That kind of opened the possibility to me. I started questioning and soon came to the conclusion that i definetly had an attraction to girls. I've still been struggling on weather or not i am bi or a lesbian, as i have neither a real attraction or unattraction to men. They are just fun to hang out with. I guess some are better looking than others, but so are some parrots. *sigh* But what does that make? I really like the idea of normalcy, btw. Well that is, i have been obsessed with it until rescently. Normality is starting to seem boring but i'm still clinging to the strings.
Anyway. I told my mom that i had an attraction to women and i got the whole "its just a phase" speech, so it was back to hidding books under my blanket. Most of my friends at my old school know (i just moved) but few do at my new school (2 maybe). Thats about it for now. I had a lost interest who completely ignored me for various men she could hump so i think i'm gonna take my bitter self and stop whineing about that. Ta!
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Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2006 6:46 pm
When i was growing up i lived a life full of knowledge. I moved all over the world and met tons of different people with different beliefs so i knew all about homosexuality very young. My parents had never really disscussed it with me though. When i was about seven I started hanging out with guys who had little crushes on girls and would compare who they found cutest but i never ever found any of them even a little attractive. Then when i was ten i had my first crush on brad pitt. I grew out of that and when i was twelve i had crush on a boy from school. I talked to my best friend at that point on the other side of the world over the internet and he said maybe your gay. And i sure was. I had my first boyfriend when i fourteen, Marco, that was when i was living in Canada. When i moved to Australia a year later i was comletely out, now everyone at my base (i don't live in a town i live at a great big military base for military families. I am sorta going out with this guy Kalen. He is such a sweetie.
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2006 10:33 am
One day, I read through a sexuality book at age 16 and I saw the word for myself, "bisexual". I brushed it off as nonsense, but it stuck in the back of my mind. After that, I had crushes on males and females, and I was confused with my gender identity as well. I did not identify with women, most of my friends were men.
Anyway, I came out to my mom as bi at 18, again to her at 19, and I fell in love with a girl recently. It was a short lived romance, onesided, but I know for sure I am bi.
I still have not told my parents about my gender issues, but at least I am halfway there.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2006 4:28 pm
I used to be homophobic rofl .
Brianwashing is bad stressed !
We left that chruch tho, n then one day I was like "wait a minute...she's pretty blaugh "
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Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2006 10:29 am
i'm not taking the piss by posting here with a "straight" person's story.
i realised i was most definately "straight" when i was online talking to my good friend wolfy, AKA the wolfster. wolfy is his nickname. and he confessed his feelings to me. identifying with bisexual at the time i said i'd think about it, having had bad relationships in the past, i didn't wanna jump into anything.
i rang him up on the night following the next, a sunday and said it's okay if we started dating. we went out for 3 weeks and didn't see eachother much because it was exam preps for our year (he's in a year below) and at the weekend, we met, followed a regular datey fashion (insert boring details here) and it didn't feel... right... like how i imagine a lesbian kissing a guy must feel. anyway, i told him, we broke off...
teh end
funny story, wolfy didn't know whether we were still together cos i hadn't seen him so he had an orgy w/ 3 other guys and i got told by one of the guys who he slept with WHO HAD A c***d FOR CHRISSAKES and so i made him guilty after we split up. i got told after we split up.
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