Welcome to Gaia! ::

Wow, this is tough. Not because I can't think of anything to say, but because there's too much.

Ananel brought me to Gaia, and I was really unsure of my place. The chatterbox definately didn't appeal. Neither did general discussion. I wanted more than to just play games or do lottos. Politics frighten me. so I followed Ananel again into M&R. While I was there I met some amazing (and not so amazing stare ) people. I didn't always know what they were talking about. Sometimes I couldn't follow their arguments. But each and every one of them had conviction. They had the conviction that what they believed was right, yes. But, whether or not they chose to realize it they also had the conviction that people - in essence - were good. That it took good works to do good things. That doing good things made for a good life. M&R nearly vibrated with it. It was someplace that I wanted to belong to, but still didn't really fit it. And then I heard a small doll holding a leatherboud copy of the ToS talking about exactly what I had felt. Yes, in some ways it was a mockery of that conviction, but in other ways it confirms and upheld that same conviction with an iron pilliar. I loved it. I fell in love with the little doll. I held that belief close to my heart, and I fit it. I made friends (icy, katane) and lost them (Ellie-doll, Songlian, and many others). I met new people. I wanted to reach out and help others find their own place to fit in. I could log into Gaia and it would almost immediately put a smile on my face, no matter how hard that day had been, and I was going through some pretty rough times at that point.

It may sound sappy, or childish, but I think I really do believe in Mod. Not because it's some person on the other side of another computer screen, but because of what a little wind-up doll put into it. Love. Kindness. Respect. Thats what the Church of Mod means to me.

I may not stop in as often as I used to, but please, please believe me when I say that I do stop in, and look around. I do still believe in Mod. I do still remember you all. And I do still love you.

excuse me. *runs to dry her eyes*

*snugglies*