sorry, i have been overworking too much! and thus i'm working again today.
Their killing me at work XD because i need to learn every tidbit that the supervisor does for me to get the stinking job....>.> and thus i am going to become a supervisor yet, like you omega, in many ways i feel im accomplishing nothing...i could have my way and become higher up, but its not what i want...i want to be a God dammed teacher for pete's sake....yet i need the money and cant lower my hours to start college yet...this has me slightly depressed....>.> plus my grandmother is mad at me and hanged up on me because i refused to go live with her and have her give me everything i would damn want....
I mean, sure being at Grammies,not having to work or do ANYTHING while i'm getting cash...would be nice...having someone kiss me on the cheek goodnight and tending to me when i'm sick. and holding me when i'm lonely or crying for no reason (like today) would be nice....but then where would my damn self worth be?...id tell you where, in my closet with all my books and work clothes and big girl panties! that's where!....so i cant go back can i?....Oh lord i'm rambling again.
>.> seriously i'm just going insane....In any case i need to post in Tales, and i miss just hanging with you guys! everyone online (or mostly everyone) we have messed up sleeping schedules XD.
Isn't it sad that other than my best friend who lives 3 hours away (and just got married so no we time) all i have is you guys....wait before you jump to conclusions! i love you guys! your so fun and make me laugh, but i just feel i need a life...with like friends by my side haha.
omg....i feel lonely...Hug me or shoot me?....or do both xp
Ill just look it art...it always makes me feel better....


