Cesious
... do you know how hard it is to lie to your family that everything is fine when everything isn't fine and you want to break down worse than ever before?
Everyday for the past few months. D:
Really. I've been floating back and forth between being happy and feeling emotionally dead inside. Luckily I've finally figured out the problem (a certain friend was weighing me down with negativity and basically emotional and verbal abuse) and fixed it. I feel happier than I have in a long time, and it's great.
On the note of career choices, I am a library assistant (don't have the degree required to be called a "Librarian" officially, at least not yet) and I am probably going into Professional/Freelance Photography. ^_^ I love my life. Most of the time. I plan on doing both and being a work-a-holic with little to no outside life, and mostly spending my small amounts of free time reading, creating music, drawing, or being on Gaia. Real life people are overrated and driving me insane except at work and the one person I actually want to see I can't. So yeah. (I really probably WILL have a life, because I do love people in all honesty, but I can't choose between jobs and definitely want to do both and will likely place them very high on my priority list. If I end up having a family my career(s) will come only second to them.) Luckily both of these jobs are VERY social jobs.
