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 Posted: Thu Jul 13, 2006 6:15 pm
It was after Amelie had said Rage could stay with her and Phib that night...it was actually a few nights past. Malik told her to stay in the large den he had made before, a few of the wolves were there. Malik, herself, Cael too. They were all sleeping soundly, except her, she seemed to never catch a break.
She was getting older, adolescent borderline, she was nearly there. But things bothered her, the past wouldn't leave her alone. Her mind wouldn't rest...it tortured her in the night, and she tossed and turned squeaked in her sleep.
Something was there, someone, following her. Eyes gleaming white, suffering, pain, all there in those eyes. Running, she could feel her paws carry her over the ground, and she tripped, but kept going. Her heart ached and beat unsteadily it pained her, and she ran...just like she did when her family needed her most.
And she hated herself for it...when would she gain the courage to stand up and fight?
She had heard the rumors, those new wolves, Arguin, Daemon, talking of another wolf...the wolf that had wanted her. Was this them? Chasing her? Thunder cracked outside the den and her amber eyes shot open as she ran from the den.
Running...always running...when would she get the courage?
She had no one to motivate her, Nix was gone. Her family dead. She felt alone, and that's what she was in this state, her mind torturing her, alone she was. She ran through the rain that poured down, finding refuge under an overhang from a tree as the rain began to fade. The thunder receding back into the ocean, past the horizon.
She was on the beach, she watched the water, the ebb and flow of it as the waves lapped the shore. She knew that that wolf was coming...the one with the white eyes. But when would she find the courage to stop running, when would she learn to fight, who would teach her?
Rage was alone. Her black pelt shimmering from the beads of water that littered her fur, the crimson markings seeming to glow. Her mind was not yet at peace, she felt like she was dreaming...she wanted to wake up. But her dreams and mind had clouded her reality...was she was feeling and seeing was real.
Who she'd meet would be real...but who would teach her? Would she find them? She felt like she should run, something was coming, Rage was uneasy. She was close to the borders of Phib's lands, and she wasn't sure of what to do.
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Posted: Thu Jul 13, 2006 6:36 pm
Sleep had been late to come. When it finally did Meskeet was pestered with frenzies of dreams. One in particular caught her and held her. She was chasing something, perhaps in a hunt.
Just as she lept at a smaller, dark figure, everything swirled and began to change. She was on a beach.
Yet a sudden sound nearby woke the borderline adult from her dream. She wasn't on a beach. And she definately wasn't where she fell asleep.
Her coat was damp It had been raining and she'd been walking in her sleep. Not a normal thing. But nothing was normal anymore.
It had taken some time after her meeting with Arguin and Daemon that Meskeet realized she'd been talking to Arguin, without spoken words. It had disturbed her and kept her up fretting over what was happening to her.
Something was definately happening.
Waves washed gently against a shore. The ocean was nearby. She really should sleep closer to her packmates from now on. If only they weren't all demented.
Meskeet walked quietly in the dark towards the sound and stepped silently onto the sandy beach. There was no where else she needed to be, and she could atleast see if the rest of the dream was waiting for her in the coming tide.
And there was something there. A dark figure was watching the waves. It was smaller than her though. Wolf, definately. But it was small and Meskeet doubted it would do anything uncalled for.
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Posted: Thu Jul 13, 2006 6:43 pm
Rage was almost hysterical. Her mind haunting her with images of blood and pain of her loss, her family, gone, before her eyes. She didn't understand, why was this happening? This wasn't supposed to happen to her. All Rage ver wanted was to be normal, but it seemed her mind and body thought otherwise.
The sun was rising but some stars still littered the sky nad glittered among the blue and purple hues of the sky. Amber orbs watched the, as if questioning them.
What could she do?
She ran forward, and climbed up onto a rock that the water nearly touched. Her eyes wished to shed tears but she didn't allow them too, crying hurt to much. She hated the pain...sometimes Rage wished she would become numb. Perhaps she wouldn't feel this aching and sadness in her.
"Why did you leave me alone?!" she yelled up into the sky, as if talking to someone who wasn't there. "Why didn't you make me stronger! Why didn't you let me try to help YOU!?" anger, pain, sadness, loss, all welled up inside her tiny body.
She felt a presence.
Was it Arguin? She wasn't sure. She didn't care at this moment. Rage didn't want to run anymore, but she didn't want the ones she cared about...the ones who saved her, she didn't want them to get hurt because of her. He was coming...but what could Rage do to stop him?
She wanted to stay, and fight. But how?
"Why couldn't you just make me stronger..." she mumbled more quietly as she flopped down onto the rock beneath her, watching the waves flow back and forth.
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Posted: Thu Jul 13, 2006 6:49 pm
Meskeet had paused where she stood. Just out of the woods and into the sand.
She stood and listened to what was definately a pup. But sadly she wasn't hungry at the moment and this pup, whoever it was, was not in as much unsuspected danger as it could have been.
A silhoutte upon a rock could be dimly made out and the brown pelted female noted that the pup itself was almost into adolescence.
If she had problems as a pup her adolescence would only be worse.
Meskeet did not feel sorry for her, but she was too tired and confused to by very mean.
"The strongest wolves are strong because they made themselves so. Nothing in the sky can give you that."
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 10:22 am
Rage craned her head to be able to look at a brown pelted wolf, female because of her tone of voice. This wolf seemed bitter too, Rage didn't like her attitude much...well, half of Rage.
"Be careful..."
"Stay strong."
"She's too big...will she hurt me too?"
"Don't be afraid."
"But..."
"Why won't you listen?"
The two side of Rage were bickering ni her head. Her personality split in two because of what had happened to her, loss, pain, no family. Everything gone. She did have Amelie and Phib...yes, she had them, Cael too.
"Don't tell me what the sky can and can't do...they're watching me..." Rage said, pertaining to the stars. Talking of them like they were the souls of her family, "I want to make them proud...I want to become what they would've wanted..." Rage stopped, this wolf wouldn't have any idea of what she was talking about.
But images of the past flickered in Rage's mind.
She stoof up and stepped down from the rock she was laying on, and padded over to Meskeet somewhat, her markings beginning to show bright in the rays of sunlight that were peeking over the dividing line of heaven ad earth, the horizon.
"Who are you? Why are you here..." she asked, trying to seem strong and fierce, but Rage was smaller than Meskeet physically, but she tried none the less.
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 5:41 pm
Meskeet had a sour look upon her face. Pups were so stupid.
"You should be afraid. But I'm not going to hurt you. Atleast not tonight."
She chose to ignore the comments about the sky. Another crazy pup. What a few wacked out generations. The pup thought the sky was watching her and even argued with herself. Clearly there were problems here not being addressed. But, Meskeet wasn't one to crush crazyness.
"You don't own the ocean. I don't have to explain myself."
It would still be good to avoid upsetting the pup though. She smelled like Phib and Am?lie.
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 6:02 pm
Rage watched Meskeet and listened to her words, and the fur on the back of her tiny neck began to bristle, a feeling Rage never felt before. She felt this way once before...she remembered...when she rammed herself into Arguin...and ran from him.
"Well don't you think your top wolf huh? You don't know anything." Rage said in obvious split tones, yet Rage herself couldn't notice them, not at all. But how did Meskeet know what Rage was thinking...
"Don't think and judge too quickly..." A voice thrummed in Rage's mind, unknown to Rage herself.
But then she sat back, ears folded back against her head, "I'm sorry...I just...I don't know what to do....he's going to come...thats what they said, he's going to come for me...maybe even to kill me...thats what Daemon and Arguin said..." she said lowly, as if ashamed of what she knew. She believed the wolf that was coming, the one with the white eyes...might try to kill her?
But she didn't know how to fight back...
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 6:15 pm
Didn't know anything. Ha! Meskeet could have attacked her just for that. But, she was tired. And to bothered by current life to even waste energy on this little fur ball.
"Arguin's full it. Daemon doesn't seem much better." She had low opinions of both. She even helped Arguin and she was made to look like a fool! Bloody idiot. Anyway.
"If someone's going to kill you then learn how to kill them first. Murder isn't that hard. And you certainly won't be able to defend yourself if you don't try to get stronger and smarter while you wait for whoever He is to come."
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 6:20 pm
"You don't understand!" Rage screamed outwardly, not meaning to on the inside. How could this wolf speak of such things, murder and killing. And she knew about Arguin and Daemon? But she didn't know that Arguin wasn't supposed to be real...he was supposed to be a myth, a legend...he wasn't supposed to be real...
"I can't kill him...I'll be what everyone said I was..." her eyes still looking at the ground. What was happening to her? Why was she feeling these things? She wanted to be strong, she wanted to be smart, but she didn't want to kill...she didn't want to do that anymore.
"I can't...I killed them all before....it was my fault..." she mumbled. Even though Amelie and Phib had eased Rage's mind, she couldn't help but feel like it was her fault that her family was dead...her fault her whole birthpack was gone.
"I don't want to kill him...I want to be able to be strong...and protect everyone here...I don't want to lose my new family, I don't want them to die because of me..."
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 6:28 pm
Phib's pack all die? Meskeet sighed inwardly. She'd never be that lucky.
What was wrong with killing someone? The adolescent had never had any ill feelings towards it before. How weak some wolves truly were. Death was necessary to keep things going.
This pup was obviously over reacting. Right? No one could kill all of Phib's pack. Well. Maybe Phantom. But no one else was as capable as her alpha. For chrissakes.
"So what are you going to do about it?"
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 6:31 pm
Rage sighed and pawed at the sand under her right paw. What could she do? She could do a lot...if she just tried.
"I just...I want to be stronger...I want to protect them...make them proud..." she said quietly, almost slurring her words together. Referring to Phib, Amelie, and making both them and her lost family proud.
"What would you do?" Rage asked, amber eyes trailing up to look at Meskeet. Pain and loss were held in Rage's, but other things as well...strength, and wanting revenge...on who and what, she wasn't sure...and why...she wasn't sure either.
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 6:35 pm
There were ways to get revenge without actually killing. It was just that a certain satisfaction was gained knowing that you'd exterminated something forever.
So who was strong in Phib's pack? Meskeet really had no idea. Phib himself was likely strong, he was the alpha after all. There had to be a few others.
"Find someone to teach you to fight. You don't have to kill, but you'll have to fight sometime in your life." Might as well learn young and have better chances later on.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 1:54 pm
"Who would teach me though?" Rage wondered outwardly speaking. If she asked Phib, he'd get suspiscious, but she believed he knew what was coming also. She couldn't ask Arguin...she hated him. She wished Amelie could teach her, but Rage didn't think it would work out so well.
Maybe she'd just have to do it on her own...
"You can fight...if you just let go..."
"Shut up..."
"Why don't you listen? I can help you."
"No you can't!"
"Why are you afraid to be what you know you are on the inside?"
"..."
Rage's mind was still fighting. Opposite side of a single coin, one trying to aid the other. Rage wasn't sure what to do...she had rammed into Arguin...but if she did that when she was so little...what would happen if she was how big she was now. Would she become what Arguin was?
"I don't know what to do..."
Maybe Rage could make a plan...yes, maybe that could work. But how many days did she have before he came here?
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Posted: Mon Jul 17, 2006 5:48 pm
"Someone's bound to be willing to help you. You aren't giving them enough credit." God, she sounded like she cared. Ick.
But this little thing just didn't seem to measure up in fighting standards. She could have possibly had splendid potential but not now.
How would you live if you didn't fight?
"Amelie doesn't fight. Phib protects her. Neither of them are hurt. Who will protect you? No one can if you don't let them. And that could hurt them more than any other thing you could do."
Ew. She was actually attempting to help. She must be sick or something.
Her life was screwing her up right now. There had to be someone she could kill to make it better. Not this pup though, naw, she didn't look to appetising.
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Posted: Mon Jul 17, 2006 5:52 pm
"No one can help me..." Rage spoke, obviously not in her usual tone, something different, someone else speaking through her, "No one cna help me from whats happening to me...help me from what I'm turning into..." Nix could've, Nix had understood her. But Nix was gone, all gone. Because of Rage-
Rage had killed Nix...
Rage had killed her family...
Rage had killed something within herself, killed a control she once had, she turned to Meskeet with hateful eyes for a moment, taking a step closer to her, "No one can protect me, I have to protect them..."
"You know how to..."
"No I don't."
"You used to..."
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