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 Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 7:02 pm
 The nights were lonely. The loneliest time for this male with the two-toned eyes. He couldn't help but wish he had someone, female, male, pack, to curl up with. For he would be cold, plagued with nightmares and not able to sleep. Such as tonight. Hellish nightmares brought him back to the world of the living, and forced him to wander from his temporary den for the night, looking for answers to questions he didn't know.
Did he have family? Did he have a mate, children? Anything of that sort? Why couldn't he run without it feeling as though he'd die? Despite everything that happened to him, he wanted to know, and to forget at the same time. The only thing he -could- remember was her words running through his head. "My little Backus..."
That's how he knew his name. Or what he assumed was his name. It was the name he'd taken on, introduced himself as. Licking his muzzle, the wolf swiftly moved away, further and further in search of water. He was so thirsty. He must have been whimpering in his sleep, or barking, something not good.
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 11:23 pm
Dru had taken to wandering after her litter had all come out stillborn. A part of her knew they had all died- but the rest of her clung to desprite hope that she's hear the little pitter patter of puppy paws behind her. She stopped only for a second to realise that the only sound she had been hearing were her own paws scraping the dirt. She sighed and hung her head haphazardly blinking into the abysmal distance.
Why on earth did all her children have to die? She was strong and healthy- and the male...well she thought he was in the top of his prime; obviously not. All she wanted though was some home. Something to love as her own- something to adopt and care for. And prehaps if she was lucky another chance at children? She again dragged another paw threw the dirt barly having the inner strength to pick herself up.
She needed to find some food and shelter- if she didn't she would be joining her young soon enough. And though she had lost most of her will- she still strove to keep herself alive. What good was all the love she had to offer if she was dead? She sighed again and walked forward; this time picking up her feet out of the dirt and adding a bound to her step. She couldn't let anyone see she was at her weakest point.
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2009 6:05 am
Dragging caught his attention. The sound of something wounded? A wince came across his features at that thought; like something stabbed his memories. What was it? Why is it so fuzzy? Sighing softly to himself, Backus took the lead to pick up his own pace. Not running yet, but definitely trotting towards the sound.
His nose picked up a scent that he didn't know. It was another wolf, and something wasn't quite right. The dragging stopped, causing his steps to slow. But it was to late. He caught the gleam of her white fur and the dots that seemed to line her. She was startling against the night backdrop. So ghost like in appearance. Unhindered, Backus moved towards her, ears low, head down. He didn't want to scare her. As his unmatched eyes examined her, he noticed the great sadness that seemed to envelope her.
"Excuse me," he murmured softly once close enough. "I didn't realize there was another about this night.."
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Posted: Sat Apr 04, 2009 10:29 pm
She stopped and turned for the second hoping that he hadn't seen her face before. "Well I-" Dru stuttered lightly trying to think of a clever lie, but nothing did ever come to her so she told him a half truth. "I like to wander at night- it keeps the questions light because everyone is sleeping." She made it quite obvious she wasn't in the mood for spilling her guts. But she added a polite smile to show that she didn't mind having the company. The last time she had been around anyone- well was the male she was going to have the puppies of...and in wolf time ment she hadn't been near anyone in nearly- a year.
Had it really been that long since she had started wandering? Well she probally supposed that she could have left the male having healthy children to love...but look how that turned out. She sighed inwardly and tried not to put her head down in sadness. But her eyes were transparent that something awful had happened to the poor girl.
"Well since we did run into each other by accident...I'm Druciella...but you can call me Dru." She blinked at him and pushed forth another smile once again.
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Posted: Thu Apr 16, 2009 1:41 pm
Dru. Such an odd name for such a female who's fur gleamed with whatever light caught it. It was currently what caught Backus' attention and caused a smile to tug across his muzzle. Wandering at nights was something he'd taken to only very recently. Shaking himself a bit to snap out of his staring, Backus bowed his head and extended his paw in a sort of wolf bow. Something gentlemanly about this. "Dru.... I'm Backus," he said smoothly. He didn't want to scare this female who seemed nervous and uneasy.
He shifted to get closer to her, to examine her again. "Wandering at night with.... that sadness about you?" He asked, hoping he didn't overstep his boundaries that were still very, very fragile considering they'd just exchanged name. "I don't mean to pry, but... I can sense the sadness around.... around you," he finished softly, ducking his head as he moved over. In a bold move, Backus nudged her chin with his nose, trying to get her head held a little higher.
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Posted: Thu Apr 23, 2009 7:22 pm
"Well...I...yea..." She stumbled about with her words at his mention of sadness. "I guess you could say I was sad." Hasn't really been anything happy going on in my life for awhile. She mused aquwardly to herself.
"But I like the name Backus." She shifted the topic uncomfortably. She again wasn't in the mood to tell him how all her puppies had died- or how her mate had disapeared so she had to live off there meat to survive. Her face was now plastered with a crooked smile as she despritely tryed to get those thoughts out of her head. They were her children after all- dead or not she couldn't help but be repulsed by her own actions towards them. Never again she thought to herself. Never again would she sink that low. She'd starve before doing that ever again.
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Posted: Sat Apr 25, 2009 6:04 pm
He cleared his throat and backed away when she seemed to get a bit better and gave a ghost of a happy expression. One couldn't exactly call it a smile, nor a frown or sneer. Just a twitch of the corner of his lips. Those two different colored eyes watched the female for a long time as he pondered things. That is what Backus did, he pondered things, of ways to make the other happier around him. He, himself, was always surrounded by sadness, so he wanted others to be happy.
"...It seems we all have sadness... From everyone I've met thus far... family lost, packs destroyed... family dead..." As he spoke, his voice grew grim. What if his family was dead? What was his family like? His mom and dad. Did he have siblings? Uncles, aunts...? Would he ever know? Those thoughts is what drove Backus on. Sent him wandering aimlessly, looking for family who might know him, looking for anyone who could lead him to his family.
"I've learned it is better to just.... think of the happier times. Do not dwell unless it keeps you alive. ...I know my dwelling keeps me on my endless trek."
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 12:49 pm
"Dead..." She nodded as the word drifted out of her mouth without her catching it in time. She turned her head away from the wolf and sighed wishing she could reverse time and catch herself. Now it seamed to her he'd probally drift on that topic. Well if he did she wasn't going to hide anything anymore. Maybe if she soaked his curiousity he'd change the topic or move on; sickened by her actions towards her family. She ever so despritly needed the time alone- even if she had been alone for a year or two at this point.
"I don't have anything happy to dwell on or I would." She spoke quitly towards the male trying to push out another half smile threw what looked like pounds of sadness.
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 1:52 pm
He heard the word drift full of grief from her mouth and his ears flattened a bit. Sighing a little, he pushed forwards to nuzzled against her quietly. Backus didn't want her sad like she was being. Sitting down in front of her, he sighed a bit and looked off to the side. "I know.... grief.... Not as yours, but I've my own share. We all carry our weight in our hearts, not wanting to share. Sometimes it is better if you do."
Those bi-colored orbs looked away from her for a minute, as if thinking about something really hard. If he heard this female's story, she'd probably feel better. And he'd probably try to make her feel as good as he knew how. Emotions weren't in Backus' alley, but he'd damn sure try if it meant he'd bring a true smile to her face.
"....I'll listen.... If you want to share. I'll be here if you don't.."
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 2:02 pm
This male was sweet- and different in so many ways then her last mate. He had been brutish and rather self-centered. Only caring about himself and what would better him. Maybe that was why he had left her- because she was of little use to him anymore. Expecially not being able to carry live young. No he had not been the kind of male to stay around and support her threw the grief. He was the type of wolf to run off with another just to make himself happy.
No female needed a guy like that in there lives. Even if she would have devoted everything in her life to him. She sighed again missing his company; then regreting her own thoughts. She was too strong for a male that only wanted to hurt her anyway. She was glad now that he was gone and she only had herself.
And Backus seamed to be a nice wolf. She looked into his bi-colored eyes thinking a dozen things over in her head once again. Maybe it was time to move on and let the past go. Maybe it was time she gave another a chance to enter her stone cold heart.
"Well..." She started on nervously with a slight stammer. "My mate left me and my litter all died..."
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 2:32 pm
Backus would listen silently, giving a small frown when she spoke. He'd say nothing until she paused, and he'd offer a small nod. Something in the back of his mind clicked. He didn't know what it was, but it was something familiar feeling. With a gentle motion, he spoke.
"I can not take away that sorry, Dru.. Though I wish some of it could be burdened by myself, or perhaps someone you have grown to trust..." He was thankful she would share. With a bold look, he licked right under her eye. Dru sounded as if she'd start crying when she spoke. He knew he hated seeing a female cry. Especially since it was so hard. Backus knew he should let her, but it would break his heart to see her cry so.
"Tell me..... of your dreams. What you wish... What you want."
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 3:14 pm
Whereas she would have growled at most for the touch of his tounge. She just felt so comforted at that moment, a slight glint of happyness trickled into her dimly-lit eyes. "Thank you Backus- your very kind." Her lips parted even further then before. Maybe this was the male she was looking for all this time. Somebody that would take her feelings into consideration and care. She never did have anyone that would do that- except maybe her mom and pop...but they died a long time ago.
She seamed to walk forward and tenderly rested her head agaist his neck furs, as if just this new kind of embrace made her feel like things might be okie. That maybe with his strength she would be able to move on for a better life.
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 3:29 pm
When she put her head on his neck, Backus blinked and looked to the side. Well, this was slightly awkward, but it felt good. Like something he'd been searching for. Maybe.... maybe with her, with Dru... he could stop his search and be content in knowing what he had now. It took him a moment, but he eventually rested his cheek on her head and gave a soft, content sigh. How two wolves could fit like this, sadness for sadness. Little joy for little joy, comfort for comfort, was not something he knew of. He didn't know what to call this. But it was definitely something good.
"No one should be hurt as you have been," he whispered softly, more than likely a rumble in her ear. His tail seemed to flick once behind him, while his ears went into a relaxed pose. His whole body seemed to have relaxed around this one female.
Not even when he saved that other female from a cage with the help of her mate, did he feel relaxed. Of course, after that encounter, Backus had fled, leaving those two to whatever they were doing, leaving himself to wander. Which is how he found this area, how he found this female. This one special, wounded soul. Could he nurse her back to a happy soul? Scared, but no longer festering with sadness that would turn to eventual hate. He didn't want to see her corrupt. Someone he knew, in the back of his head, seemed to be like that. Someone really close to him. But he didn't know who.
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Posted: Wed Apr 29, 2009 5:01 pm
She let another tear roll down her white maw. This time less hidden then before. Though it wasn't so much because of her sadness. But it was because she was for once truely happy. It had been such an odd feeling. Something that made her heart warm and beat faster then before. Oh if only she could live in this moment for the rest of her life. The contentment. The bliss. She would trade anything to just stay happy like this.
Her smile continued it's upwards climb as she seamed to cozy even more into him. She was glad that he didn't turn her away when she did. Touch was just such a rare thing for her- expecially with anything affectionate. Her last mate didn't know how to do that; and though there was a few moments when he tried. He was just incapable of loving anything but his spoiled self-centered self. And how hurt Dru felt when she tried to nuzzle her mate and make happy wimpering sounds, and how she remembered his tone. 'Not now...I don't think this is working out' It never was working out with him honestly. But at least the one positive thing was that when he knocked her up he stayed. But she wasn't sure if it was for her or it was the guilt he felt inside knowing that he was 'stuck' with her because of his stupidity.
Prehaps that was why he turned on his tail so quickly when the pups were all still born. He was finally free to be himself. It wasn't excatly like he had any warmth or feelings for Dru. He was always looking for the next best thing...and she brewed on it the longest time that it wouldn't be her. It was only now she felt that she could stop brewing. Here in the fur of a very delightful stranger.
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Posted: Sat May 09, 2009 3:51 pm
He pressed his muzzle into her neck in a nuzzle and took a deep breath. He needed this. This contact with someone who he could feel for. For someone he could help. Backus wanted to see Dru smile all the time, to let her always feel happy. And he'd just met the female. It was a dizzying experiance for him, but one he knew was something solid. Even if they were only friends, this would be good.
Comforting.. somewhere in the back of his mind that word rang out. And it sounded right. They were both wounded; one emotionally, one mentally. Both sought comfort and seemed to find it in each other. He shifted to pull back softly to lap at the tear that ran down her muzzle before nudging her nose with his own. Then he seemed to get lost in her eyes, simply stared there, searching for something. What that something was, Backus wasn't sure, but he could find it there.
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