Jamainme
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- Posted: Fri, 18 Jan 2008 21:27:08 +0000

"If all of the stars fell,
Making a wish would seem so pointless,
There's no need for false dreams because,
You've already got me,"

"Kill sweetly,
Love doesn't fall from trees,
Hearts flutter not like souls,
We're all unrealistic secrets,"
Love doesn't fall from trees,
Hearts flutter not like souls,
We're all unrealistic secrets,"

"Poisoned whispers are sweet to the ear,
Dire crys make people blurt blasphemy,
Contemplating lush revenge,
Quiet sleepers no longer stay awake because it's over,"


Bright, seeable mornings had woken those up to every occasion of the day. Other little pieces of light fell down into the broken blinds, climbing down unto the sheets that lied neatly on the bed below the sun’s gaze. Looking upon it, there was no one within it. Going out of the stance and searching every other corner of the small room itself, there still seemed to be nothing but silence as the light peered down unto the carpet floor, catching naught but maybe some various loved shoes and folded clothes that sat about and inside a basket. Obviously, someone had been doing some washing while they were away. Let’s not forget the accorded dresser and vanity that were left in it as well with make-up resting on top of the counter in a set order along with other small accessories. There happened to be a closet, too, but it was closed to everything else as well; clothes hid well when tossed behind closed doors along with a box full of colorful and white socks. Unavoidable now was the opening that led to the outside of the room and into the hall.
Close to the room and down to the right, there was a bathroom but the steam had already settled, both towel and rag had been hung to dry by the rack that was immediately down to the left if one were to look that way after facing the mirror first where it hung above the white sink and silver placements. Lying on one side of the sink was the toothbrush, paste, floss, and a Dove soap bottle while on the other side were cotton balls, alcohol, cream and Q-tips. Some of these were necessities for everyday use. A black trashcan sat on the side, near the toilet that was not too far away from the bathtub that was covered by a black and paladin white curtain that had Japanese writing sewn on but that was just the decorative one; there was another one that their long gone parents had gotten when they were living in Germany. It was lovely on how it looked as the sentiment was easy to depict but the matter didn’t come as a problem to move on as staying in this kind of house drove off reprimanding media that wanted in and out of it.
The rest of the house would be known later as the window had been opened and closed upon exiting the place and the bushes were in a slight mess, obviously hiding something away but could that have been it? Maybe something or nothing at all. The morning was a warm welcoming to those just not coming out to the light itself. Ticking on like that of a clock, the chains pulled with all of its might to progress over small hills, crosswalk edges, streets, and straying winds of misperception. Once lost in the world due to becoming known as inexistent itself, there were not many that could succeed into the already made family that rose to the top then fell apart as soon as it had started. Clashed amongst betrayal, losing of the breathe, and ending what had been so right to all, people end up having second thoughts, growing anger, and lingering grudges that have yet to be removed from the first case of pandemonium. That, of all things, was hard enough to let go but has anyone left the battle as is? That’s an answer most would like to know.
Ah, the fresh air was like something not many could ever experience like this! The sun was smiling down on all the people that were beginning to move about for the day, the noon quickly approached the steps of society with raisins ready to fall from the two scoops in its hands. Okay, maybe that idea came from a cereal box but it was good to think about and what if raisins fell from the sky? Wouldn’t that be cool? Well, just maybe. That’s why dreams exist in this kind of waiflike universe. Colored in the ways no one even came to think about, the world would be changed by the voices of reasons, of local cords, notes, judgment and acknowledgeable existence. Their kind of land lived in the hearts of those for wishing it to never go away. Selfish may come to being the case but the situation never changed. Everyone, at some point, would reach an ultimate purpose once it has been located out of sheer luck and by the playing hands of fate. Quiet to face the day, not so many were all having the same fun as someone else.
'Falalalalala, that's what I think about now.'
Jestiff Von Kaulitz, the used to be lead singer of the band, Crash Plastic, was now returning to the old days of visiting the hospitals to see premature babies, sing at clubs, pubs, and any other places he could find, and restore an old life he had finally got back into but that now become obsolete due to where his new meeting place was. After leaving his house, an old dump that he can call home than crap, he found it better to save his real money and make more just to go to places he wanted to. Odd jobs and other screwy yet objective missions had been a great thing for him as people finally got to meet a real being who was in to more than just singing and thinking of himself. Jestiff couldn’t have felt any better about himself once he had found something else to coddle the nerves that were left upon raging shelves after what had happened to them before. Of course, everything was almost peachy keen as he kept in close contact with the one that had been hurt. Yeah, he’s that guy who got burnt.
Hair, as black as night and washed out of the dye that held such color in the strands, easily fluttered in the wind as the young yet old male rode his bicycle down the trail that showed up everyday and night, no matter where he went, obviously glowing the instance light had came upon it. He was glad to have something as significant as this. Something about it just made it seemed so easy to look over but hard to forget if it ever were to disappear from sight. Some know that the break up would be eventful but no one knew the truth except those lying within the band itself. Still, grudges lingered as if they were bats, ready to drink both blood and flesh from the oxygen filled traitors of the clan. Well, it wasn’t like it never was going to happen in one lifetime or another but why couldn’t it have been in another year or so once that stardom was reached. Jestiff had never felt so inspired in all of his little life to be a star with so much fandom to face with the rest of them but when it burst into a bunch of faltering pieces of glass, he just had to leave.
Foolish boy! Doltish male! Retarded homo loving, womanizing son of a b***h man whore! Who the hell does he think he is for running out like that on something that never even concerned him in the first place? Had his panties got into a bunch? Possibly, but what made him go overboard himself? Well, it’s because his friend was hurt. That best friend, attached to him like a puppet to the master, was loved then betrayed by the harpy that parsimoniously flirted with the other without giving any second thought what could happen but that wasn’t in the regimen during that time and once both had been caught in the act, it went downhill. This charade had to end and it was during the break-up of the group itself. Hell, Jestiff didn’t say even a word but kept his vicious thoughts to himself. Sides for the exes broke up, said their silent, glaring goodbyes, and left for the greater ignorance of what could have been but never happened anymore. There was something dealing with life and it made such a mess screwing up other people’s storyline.
Cover time; nicely clothed in a fitting black jacket that was zipped up underneath Jestiff’s slender collarbone, the lower layer of his body was coated in a black shirt that was invisible to the naked eye; a collar was tightly clicked around his neck with a skull resting down on the middle of it, showing out in the open that wasn’t covered up. Oh baby, now Jestiff has some class especially with rolling his sleeves up around his elbow; maybe having one, lovely looking band that some may be able to see in an alternate universe he doesn’t really need to know about. Comprehension on that would be too dense and deep for his brain. Tightened and buckled around his body was an obsidian, open hole stubbed belt that he liked having on most of the days when he went out. He had others but this was his favorite. Un-ripped jeans, deep sky blue, were placed over his legs and, of course, like the many others in the band and around the world, they just so happened to be the skinny pants and jeans that many wore in this age. His shoes? Can’t go wrong with some good Vans, dipped in black and etched with white designs and shoelace, right?
“I’m pissed; why fly all the way around to a place I’ve abandoned for lonely ambitions that I’d follow myself?” Was he being a bit too skeptical of himself now? Going back into the past seemed like the wrong thing to do but it was already too late as he was called back from his light and into another that was considered of being darkness itself, which tended to be rather a shame, really. “How long do you all think we stand against time and self-loving fate, eh? Much too far to know now.” Cranking the bike over another pathway and even closer to an ending death itself, Jestiff, the renewed lead singer, made everything become known to him before lying his bike on the side of the building, on a bike rack that he had been using before when they were coming to the old studio for rehearsal and whatnot. Chaining it close to the wall, he had to breathe first. This first meeting wasn’t going to be like the rest of them. Nope, this was different now. “This better not suck. . .” His entrance was halfway done now. Was he lucky for mistaking himself to be someone else that he wasn’t going to feel like being at the time?
It was just like before. Everything about the old studio haven’t changed at all in the past two years as he could navigate through it without any hassle at all. First, he took a chance by looking through all the rooms, seeing as how each one brought on a memory of them all being together but that was of no more until now. Was getting back together going to really be the thing they should do. Well, could he have said anything against it and his own? No, he couldn’t because he missed the feeling and emotional steps they took to even capture reality into their very hands. Being all by himself and starring for fame like any great singer would did never crossed his mind as Jestiff wanted to be normal for a bit so keeping a low profile helped a lot but now, it was time to come out of the closet and present himself as being a ghost no longer but a real entity that now existed again. No should really care for him because that was what he wanted. Simply, why make poor Jestiff go through interviews and the like, which had nothing to do with him anymore? It seemed like a stupid ordeal for him to go through in his lifetime.
'I'm not a idiot, darling.'
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What the hell was going on here!? From simply looking through the glass, attention paid to one of them that made strange moves on the inside of the closed room, the lead singer blinked a few times, wondering what he had been seeing before grabbing his balls, not literally, and making his walk into the room. This was where it happened and hopefully not how it’d end again. From his position, he watched the scene, catching unto the lips he could read before searching everyone else with his eyes. He was late. ‘God damn it, I’ll have to be faster next time around.’ Yeah, he could damn those errands he had to do earlier all he wanted to but it wasn’t going to change anything or how it came to be way past time for him reprimanding shields and wounds healed from past mistakes and ugly judgment. Walking about the room, eyes staring everyone down while not making a sound as of yet, he could see that everyone had kept their appeal alive and well. That was good but about the one lying on the floor, this definitely seemed like some of his business.
Did anyone want to run away now? Jestiff could have bet that there were a few that were more than ready to do so but it wasn’t going to happen. Not on his time when he didn’t need something stupid to happen at this point. Stepping one leg over the boy lying about, Jestiff hovered over him, giving his face some kind of direct eye contact while those other eyes ogled the ceiling above. “Why, hello hello.” He knew what was the deal then. Moving from being over the boy, he walked to the door but turned about face so that he was staring at the rest of them. “Two years. It’s been that long since we’ve even seen each others' faces. Right now, I was supposed to be looking at some crying eyes with hugs and kisses on the cheek galore but I required too much in one day.” A cocky smile rolled over those soft, pink lips of his then. “You all look like hell.”
Zealousness had gotten the better of him. If they hadn’t noticed two years ago, Jestiff was resented as the smartass who always, or almost always had something to say to anyone after making his entrance in the room. That was something in his nature that he just could not resist from doing. “Jo, Savannah, Kimi, Gabe, it’s great to see all of you. Hope you all can give me a hi in return.” It was time to face on the only left out of the phrase. “Dare, best buddy of mine, what the hell have you been doing, huh? You look completely bedazzled by absolutely nothing at all. Why'd you stop calling me back, eh?” Jestiff, a harsh person with much angst in the heart, mind, and soul, was feeling quite normal today as he titled his head from side to side, cracking his long neck a bit before running his elongated fingers, nails coated in black nail polish, through his hair, straightening out some parts of it before leaving it alone. If it had been a case, he also had a bit of eyeliner on. He felt daring today even with his looks.
Equal; one word had to be part of the team if they were going to be together once more. Crashing was what they didn’t need anymore. Over and over again, it had been one regret from another; medias get greedy when nothing comes through and they look for those mannequins that have broken and left for something of the better. Hey, let’s not be one to over exaggerate but did anyone see some of those pictures on the internet? Maybe no one saw them at all but that wasn’t the case for Jestiff. He just can’t stay away from those videos full of partying idiots, money grabbing pimps, and sluts of all kinds looking for quick cash or a really good one night stand. He always thought some of things were hilarious, especially when some of them fell but one of them ended up coming upon his russet pupils and before he knew it, he caught sight of someone that he would never, in a light year or two, think of his best friend, Dare, from Crash Plastic to be dancing around with other people in a club. This was beyond belief but he kept a low cool.
Quietly clenching his fingers into those bright red gloves of his that were fingerless, those blinding lights finally disappeared from thought as he stared at everyone else. No more fooling around now. It was time to get to business, if that was possible. “I really hate being honest or whatever but who truly wants to be here right now? Who has the stomach to bend around the problems we had before? On medications or not, out of you all, who’s ready to actually step back into stardom again? Come on, no p***y footing around. If we’re just here for play, I’m heading back out of this place to visit mothers with premature babies.” For an odd reason or another, Jestiff has been going off to see those that have had babies that were born too early. From time to time, he would go off and hang at the hospital for hours, just making a small or huge connection with those about to lose a life. This is how he serves his own, devoted community. It’s just simply playing soft songs for sleeping babies and mothers who can’t sleep well at all. It’s a paying job actually but he does it for free most of the period he’s there just because he can and will do it for their sakes. There’s nothing more great, or awesome for that matter, then seeing a smile come across those faces. When that one special child can make it through, it just added another part of life that could be underneath close succession without even knowing it. Yeah, the feeling was that good.
“Will there be any volunteers to answer my simple questions?”

