About Me:) <3

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure don't deserve me at my best.”

My name is Brandi, I'm seventeen, in love with music, writing, drawing, and anime[and there's this one guy i absolutely cannot get off my mind, sshh it's a secret]. I care about everyone in this world for who they are and respect their essence. I believe that events in this world are there and happen for a reason, some of which we may not comprehend. I am what some could call a peacemaker, quite a passionate soul, wanting to help and love everyone, someone like me- because I've had plenty of issues in life, big or small, and who hasn't? I'm tired of being the "victim", because it's time to grow up, stop being so selfish and immature- so my personal policy is 'Do no harm[But take no s**t- unless it's karma, then b***h you deserved it.]'
Here's something I wrote, it's sad
The Value of Nothing More

i wish that i could show You,
Who i truly am.
But i cannot,
i am isolated in where i stand
Stand? i don't have the pride, regardless- there's nowhere to go.
So who You think You really know,
Is just a lie.

i would tell You who i really am and not,
If She weren't locked away so tight
In Her hell of misconstrued perception, irrational thought
And ceaseless night.

i placed Her there so long ago,
And therefore forgotten who She is;
Where She is- i fail to know.
So i refuse to try, hopefully at least that would be what You forgive.

Her emotions are trapped too,
Wandering about on Her oppressive world;
True feelings hidden beneath the façade You know;
Containing the falsified happiness and consequential behavior.
So if You questioned my stubbornness;
i have the value of nothing more,
than being lost and feeling dead.
~Brandi Pawnee~
Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Sometimes we live our lives like puzzle pieces turned upside down - only showing the world our gray sides. Then along comes life, and it starts flipping them over, showing to us and the world more than just the outline of who we are - it shows us the colors. If we can start to turn more over and put them together, we can see the picture of who we really are emerge. ~Manifest~

"Breath No More"- Evanescence
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
All the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
Too sharp to put back together.
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.