Ah I see. Not sure if deadlines work for me. I don't exactly work any faster and since there's no pressure to meet the deadline I would just extend it. xD It's not like when I have an essay due for class and do whatever I have to in order to complete it. I think Rping makes me feel too much like I can answer whenever I want, mostly in 1x1s, in group rps I'm more likely to answer sooner. But lately I still have been taking too long.
It's better to tell them you can't keep going. I rather here that than keep waiting for a reply that is never going to come. My partners just stop answering so...I never know what the deal is. They've never told me they had to withdraw from the 1x1 but I have had people pull out of group rps for various reasons.
Anyway, I don't have enough partners with loads of ideas. They just let me take the reigns alot, which can be annoying. I have also had times where I wasn't sure I liked the pairing. And I often adore the romantic pairings my characters end up in but sometimes I just be like....'eh...not all that excited about this one.' It's probably mostly an issue with characters that don't stand out to me.
I'm sort of having that problem now but it's like, gosh, I'm not sure how to put this to them, but that lack of interest in the pairing is killing my motivation to keep the rp going. It's been sort of a long time too, since we started. I guess I thought it was going to get more interesting as time went on but it's sort of not. At least not for me.
I always wanted to be a novelist too but I have this problem. xD Did you learn to just make yourself write because of your job or did the job make it easier for you to force yourself to write? Since it's basically your job to do so?
Ehh yeah. I don't like dropping rps. It's hard and I feel bad so I think I make the mistake of keeping too many rps even though my interest in continuing has diminished. It's like I rather tough it out than tell them I don't want to keep going. I told one person I couldn't keep going and I think I made her mad... (She never answered the pm I sent her and I never heard from her again. Though she is actually still on my friendlist.) We were writing for a while but then one day I was just like... 'Honestly don't think I can do this.' Our characters were like...the type that clash. Which is fine! I live for that now because I get bored when my character getting along too well with who they are with. Actually I think majority of my characters are with someone who gets on their nerves. C: But when they eventually fall for each other it's that much sweeter.
But at that time. That rp just felt like work. There were times where she just felt....so difficult to deal with I wasn't even sure how my character was going to handle her in certain scenes. And I think I didn't appreciate how she threw curve balls at me out of nowhere and made me frantically look for a way to respond. The incident that made me give that rp up just had me like, 'wait a minute? What do I make him do now?' Then I made him act but then her character threw me off a second time. Her character also seemed....overly powerful. She had like six, seven or more elements at her disposal that she was supposedly going to gradually unlock over time. And my character only used one element. It sort of annoyed me. -.- But she was totally into that rp. But yeah. Had to let it go. And I had nothing planned to keep it going, and I couldn't think of a darn thing either.
I love planning things out. Gives variety and helps people understand my character gradually over time. But I find with some characters it doesn't come so easily. Other times it's like 'wait, what if this happened?' Then bam! Idea! But I have this problem where it sometimes feels like my character is just dragging the other character along with them and my partner isn't contributing to the planning.
Yeah even forcing myself is pretty hard. xD I just think about how little I can think of for the post and how much I don't feel like struggling through it and I just be like....'Y'know what? I think I'm going to go do something else.' Bad Sari. Very bad. >..>
Hence why I don't really like to start rps off of ideas that don't have much depth. It is like: gosh...how do I keep it going? Dx