About

My name's Vaurien. Damien is my real name. People call me Damien Devious, which pretty much describes my nature. My username, Vaurien, translates to 'Villain' in French. People say that I am clever, literate, and most flattering of all, a w e s o m e. I am currently in sophomore year, sixteen years y o u n g, to be exact.

I am stereotypically S c e n e, but don't judge me because of that. I really like the c o l o u r s and my b e s t i e s. They're always there for me, but not on G a i a. I live in preppy-town, U S A, so there's not many S c e n e s.

I've got the appearance of a s c a r e c r o w, kinda scary. L a n k y with the height of a six f e e t four and the weight of one forty. No, I am not anorexic, thank you very much. c: P a l e with Mac white, especially. I like my hair the way it is, b l a c k with l i m e g r e e n streaks. Those are my favourite co l o u r s. I've got a few piercings, but I'm too l a z y to count.

My favorite hobbies are writing, doodling, and skateboarding. Of course, m u s i c is a must. My favorite group is the Vitamin String Quartet. It irks me when people a s k how many people are in the String Q u a r t e t. I like any m u s i c that is catchy, uplifting, and has emotional value. I'm not a picky person, so d o n ' t be afraid to ask more about me!

A r a n d o m quiz about the personality disorders that I may be p r o n e to.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High [ Afraid of toilet plungers. Don't ask. ]
Schizoid: Moderate [ ? ]
Schizotypal: Moderate [ *High pitched whispery voice* I see dead people! ]
Antisocial: High [ I'm the Emo of the Scenes. Only social if you know me. ]
Borderline: Low [ Not really depressed. ]
Histrionic: High [ I talk in funny speech with elaborate words. ]
Narcissistic: Very High [ *Loves how I look even though I'm seriously underweight* ]
Avoidant: Low [ I don't avoid things. ]
Dependent: Low [ I'm very independent. ]
Obsessive-Compulsive: High [ Is a neat freak. ]

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DlGlDESTlNED

Report | 04/23/2010 3:15 pm

DlGlDESTlNED

Hiii. D:

Are you still interested in continueing that roleplay we started?
Because I am, and I would like to if you still want to. q ^q
onceuponatimeMULE

Report | 02/07/2010 7:19 am

onceuponatimeMULE

-poke prod- Hi. Busy? ='(
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Report | 01/30/2010 8:59 am

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Not in the past week, but I don't have any more grandmothers 'cause they're all dead. razz
I've got two grandfathers, though.

It seems like disease runs in the female side of the family. D:

Lol.

Next week our Sophomores are taking the CAHSEE (Exit Exam for CA) so we've got minimum days and no homework. <3

I'm reading Catcher in the Rye. :]
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Report | 01/29/2010 4:48 pm

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Hey, no problem. I've been pretty busy with school myself - so busy that I might have strep throat (I know school has nothing to do with it, but hey).
I'm okay, I suppose. I'm dead tired and want to sleep, but I have to do laundry later at the laundromat (we only own a washer) and, yeah. x_x
How about you?
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Report | 01/26/2010 5:17 pm

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Hola. How are you today?
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Report | 01/23/2010 8:26 pm

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Thumbs WAY up for GERARD! <3 Hee hee, I made a funny.
One of the guys I like likes My Chemical Romance (I hadn't been very into it before him), so in an attempt to get his attention - like a dumbass - I listened to some of it and lo and behold, I became addicted.
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My favorite songs are probably I'm Not OK (I Promise), Famous Last Words, Welcome to the Black Parade, Helena, The Ghost of You, Teenagers, Desolation Row, and most of all, Blood. XD
Okay, that's a long list of 'favorites.' xD

Oh, in my old school I was considered a raving b***h because whatever someone asked me, opinion or simply 'Can I borrow a pencil?' I answered them with honesty. Complete. Honesty.
So, since most people despise the truth, I was called a b***h because I was honest to everyone.

Since the depression started seriously setting in, though, I started lying to people more because I didn't want them to worry or think I was bad (since I'm Paranoid and Schizotypal and so forth - I've taken that disorders test and got Very High in Borderline, Depressive, Dependant, and Avoidant. I got High in everything else. XD), even though I think I'm a bad person overall. I want to be an actor because it's fun, and for two other reasons: Most of the time, I can cry on cue (not lately, though - I just...can't make the tears come out anymore), and everyone falls for the happy mask that I slip on my face every morning. It takes seconds, and people have fallen for my s**t for years.
I reject people because I think they think I'm horrible, and because I don't want to be hurt by people. I just know that in every relationship I'll say something hurtful or spiteful just because I'm so ******** lonely and I'll end up losing that friend, so I just avoid relationships to begin with so I don't have to deal with it (wow, saying this stuff on comments is embarrassing. It's so public).

Personal girl stuff? Oh, you mean the period.
The diseases I have aren't that personal. They just make me sound like a crying piece of s**t when I tell people about them. C:

I think the originals of many songs kick the remake's a**, all the time. Like, I mean, the rap remake of 'You Spin me Round?' SERIOUSLY? ******** NOOOODFIWHF.

xD Love me? No-one can love me. 0:<

Okay.
Your girlfriend's birthday, and the sparkles on you and everything...

I bet that was mortifying for you, but I found great humor in that. I almost literally rolled on the floor laughing.
Oh, on the Twilight note: He sees you when you're sleeping,
He knows when you're awake,
His name is Edward Cullen
Now get ready to be raped~

Now more to the point: I don't like to manipulate people. At least, if I ever do, I'm totally unknowing of it. At least, my friends have never told me I'm manipulating. I just kind of...keep to myself.
I'm a complete ******** maniac with friends, though.
Alone, I'm the most depressed MF known to man.
With friends, it's like someone slipped me some speed or something (which I WISH I was doing right now, for personal reasons >_>; ).

...chased by a giant toilet plunger.
...ooookaaaay then. That sounds horrifying, actually. D:

My nightmares consist of me killing people, the world ending by asteroid (2036 HURHURHUR THERE'S PROOF HUR), me being chased by assassins, killers, zombies, etc... and some of them are me dreaming of myself dreaming of killing people, then waking up with blood on my hands.

I freaked out when I woke up. D:
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Report | 01/23/2010 7:19 pm

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I guess under stereotypes I would probably be considered Emo, but I've got a seriously starved artist inside me that wants to give color to my black-and-white world. I'm an outsider looking in to a lot of the things that happen in my life.
Like all those skinny jeans that come in every color known to man, all the cute little picture tees - I love the fashion of Scene, but if I ever tried to dress like one, I'd probably be called a poser. At least, that's the case where I live. Anyone who encroaches their territory without first being accepted are immediately deemed a poser and worthless of respect even though they advocate being nice to everyone. x:
Nobody ever called me anorexic, even when I was 139 (and I'm 5'9" wink - which I didn't consider unhealthy at all even though I had lost my period. I'd talk more about that, but...yeah. You can probably assume what I would scream if I wasn't so sure it'd make me sound like an attention whore.

Out of all the Queen songs, Bohemian Rhapsody is my favorite. c: Then comes Under Pressure, and Killer Queen - even if the second one was a collaboration with David Bowie.
For some reason, when I think of myself playing music on a violin, I envision myself creating somber, morose music because that's what would come from my heart/soul.
And I don't think I would ever possess the skill to play as insanely as Nuttin' But Stringz does.
Oh, I really enjoy Symphony No. 25, but it's not a favorite. ;P

I'm not even so far as what you just told me, so yeah. I don't care who dies, but you just fed me a spoiler. xD I've noticed that a lot of people like Grell too, even though I don't know who he is. D; Please don't tell me. I'll get to it eventually.
A random note: When I went to listen to Symphony Number 25 again, the box automatically dropped down with Symphony of Destruction, so I'm listening to it now. I'm not really a metal fan, but uh...this song is okay. xD
Man I would kill to be a rockstar.

I just love how Stoker wrote Dracula. So much mystery. <3 I haven't read it as many times as you, but it was still enjoyable and I wish I still had my copy. My mother took it - and when that happens, it's gone for life.


You should see and read Memoirs of a Geisha. The movie and the book are both beautiful creations and I would recommend it to ANYONE who hasn't seen the movie or read the book. (FWFWKFWJ I hate English sometimes...the only difference between present-tense 'read' and past-tense 'read' is pronunciation. Kind of like the verbs 'to blow' and to 'fly': 1. she blew... 2. she has blown UFYGW ******** ENGLISH. Drive in a parkway, park in a driveway...all that jazz. My mother tongue is English, but it still makes me wonder how words were created. Did the primitive language-speakers just point at something going 'UGGH! UGH GUHGUHG!' until words were formed? D: )

I've seen V for Vendetta before. However, when I watched it (like my friend was when she watched Cloverfield - which is a movie I'm in love with and own) I was disinterested. I'll probably like it more when I'm actually engrossed in watching it.

Aw, love. A foreign emotion. C:

Nightmares. Get a dream catcher - maybe it'll help.
What kinds of nightmares?
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Report | 01/22/2010 9:50 pm

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Yes...I just have problems with self-confidence in everything, so I'd be automatically scared that I'm horrible. I only took one lesson and soon after, there went the violin, so aside from the 'skill' I had in the lesson, I was pretty horrible.
That won't stop me from trying again, though. I'm doing my best to buy and learn every instrument that interests me (and, typically, is present in an orchestra: violins, flutes, cellos, pianos, etc.).

With me, if it isn't classical, I'm usually listening to foreign rock music (usually Japanese, French, or German - I love languages) or rock music from here. I like techno, trance, dance, and house-type music because it has a beat and you can dance to it...and I love 'old' (to most teenagers, old is like 70s and 80s) music. Like...Bust a Move or Queen music. I swear that I was born in the wrong decade (but at the same time, the right one because despite the fact that a lot of my interests lie with old-ish things, I fit right into my age range - I may THINK I'm different, but I'm not).
Classically, I love Moonlight Sonata, Canon in D, Sonata for Two Pianos in D Major...okay, I like pianos too much. xD

Actually, what caught my eye writing-wise was Kuroshitsuji. c: I keep seeing it over and over again, and I am in the process of reading it, but I don't have nearly as much knowledge as people would like. For some reason, while I'm reading it (which I am right now), every time I see Sebastian or Maylene, I think of perhaps a plot with a governess in it (like Ciel needs one xD).
I do like reading it, and since it appears that demand for Kuroshitsuji (namely, Sebastian undaaa da seeeeeaaaaa), I've been reading it on and off.


Oh, goodness. Sherlock Holmes. I keep wanting to read Sherlock Holmes, but I always forget to check out a book by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. xD
I used to be addicted to Artemis Fowl when I was younger. Good books. I haven't read much Anne Rice because I lost patience for her style of writing (perhaps I'm too immature right now - I'm willing to give the Vampire Chronicles a chance, but I'd rather get my book reports out of the way). The vampires I know - aside from little tidbits of Rice's Lestat and Armand - are from Bram Stoker and Laurell K. Hamilton. The latter isn't the best of writers, though.

A lot of people appear to be reading a book called Marked right now, and I have NO idea what it's about though I'm curious; my favorite books by far are probably the Harry Potter series (/nerd), Memoirs of a Geisha, and Jane Eyre. In that order.

Okay, good night. Have a good sleep. c:
When you get this message I'll assume that you've woken up and are generally bright-eyed and bushy-tailed (unless you're a night owl, like myself and most teenagers) so I'll shoot a few morning questions:

How was your sleep? Have any wet dreams? xD
How were your dreams, if any?

Just curious.
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Report | 01/22/2010 9:17 pm

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I don't know the music teacher very well (okay, at all), so I'm not sure how that would work out, but I am willing to try. It's much better than getting my hopes up when I'm told I'll be getting one as a gift, then having those hopes be stomped on when I don't get anything. xD

Despite listening to this song and having it leave me speechless, my favorites are Rose - ANNA inspi' NANA, and Beauty from Pain. c:

Ooh, and I should probably tell you what brought me to comment me in the first place:
1. Curiosity, because when I read your profile, I simply had to comment you, and
2. Before all of this, I was drawn to your roleplay thread. I had a curiosity and wanted to write with you, but since I have little knowledge of what I want, I decided to comment you instead. xD

What's your favorite book or book series?
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Report | 01/22/2010 8:51 pm

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I know. I couldn't do anything to him about it, though, because he had a higher authority than me. My mother tried her hardest to get it paid off and get the violin back because she knew that I'd lost a piece of me with the violin, but to no avail : my grandfather kept preventing her from doing it, and when she had the loophole, she didn't have the money.
I'm a welfare kid, unfortunately. So the only things that keep me alive (okay, sane, not literally ALIVE) are music, reading, and writing. Anything that provides me some sort of escape from reality. Since I'm not great with people, I create bonds with my creations.

Reiterating that I'm a welfare kid, it's unlikely that I'll ever have one-hundred dollars spare or to my name, even, to buy a violin with.
If I was a meaner friend than I am, I would chuck my guitar (Christmas gift from my best friend) for a violin, but I can't do that. One, the guitar was a gift and I love it and her for giving it to me, and two - it's another strings instrument. It may make my pianist (my fingers are long as hell) fingers raw to the bone, but I've already bonded myself to the damn thing.
The flute is another story. I would never do anything to it. It's one of my babies.

And Anna's Theme : I listened to a version with Joshua Bell just now. It's...beautiful. It conveys so raw emotions without even needing much of a choral input (save for the beginning) - let's just say it left me speechless because I was too into it. xD

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