Lol it's fall and it's still hot!!!! Although it's does haven a nice breeze blowing now <3
Me nothing really adventure XD going through the path of what to do with my life in my world, also I found a nice hobby of writing short stories XD I love the feeling of my hand writing so much!!!! Not sure if I'm the only one with that feel 3nodding
How are you. Planning on doing anything of the 31th?
Haha, I'm not on Gaia much either. Though I found it fun to collect trash and make a lot of gold for a while, that too became kind of a chore in the end, and I went back to only using my phone to log in daily. I'm very busy with my homepage these days, having projects to update and whatnot. And also getting ready for the annual virtual advent calendar. Actually, I'm already half done with all that Christmas stuff... rofl
I had the last talk with my psychiatrist a while back, and she gave me some very good advice on my way out the door; To take care of myself. Not the way you usually tell a friend to take care, but the psychologically way. So some weeks ago, I told my mother off, which had been due for months already... Yes, I did it, and I felt horrible afterwards, but it's helping me tons now. She's been a bigger stressfactor than the state and childcare all together, and I just couldn't take her "care" for me anymore. She's been choking me to the point where stress outbreaks were a daily thing for me, and I cried my heart out several times a week. She was always in my neck, always on my phone, always texting me with stupid nonsense even my stepdad stopped caring about years ago... Every time I heard my phones SMS tone, I started sweating and my heart was racing until it hurt, even when it wasn't her writing me. It was so unbearable, that I even thought about getting a second phone with a number my mom would never ever get... I think I told you before, but she never listens to me, and she didn't do it either when I tried talking to her about my issues with her being all over me 24/7. For every argument, she had an excuse. I then told her to not text me unless it's very important... and I don't see her horse or dog doing weird stuff as important, nor do I want to know when her flowers in the garden are blooming or what my uncle in Finland had for dinner. I told her I don't want her to ask me stuff that's directed at my boyfriend, when she can ask him perfectly fine herself. I told her to effing stop texting me with the same stupid s**t every other week when she needs to pick up my boy from school (it's the same time and place every time for over a year, but she never gets it nor writes it down). I told her to stop making plans for us without asking, heck, we don't live under her roof. And finally I told her that when I don't asnwer a text, I just don't have the time or nerves to do it, and I don't want 5 more texts within 10 minutes from her when that happens. Even though she didn't seem to understand any of it, and it obviously broke her heart, it was needed. She didn't join dinner that day, nor did I hear from her for over a week afterwards, but it seems to have worked. She now only writes when it's important, and when I stop texting, she also does. I went down from daily stress outbreaks to maybe one a week, and it's not because of her anymore. Heck, I can even listen to my phone making noises without dying on the inside! So yeah... I'm glad you're getting back together with your kids, but don't give them too much love, okay? Haha, though I doubt you'll end up like my mom heart
I'm sorry to hear about Bekah though... Are you sure it's a physical illness? Not that I want to play doctor, but if it happened right before starting college, and she never had problems before, it might be psychological. I'm just saying, since many doctors tend to skip the idea of it being something inside the head, and if it has something to do with stress or anxiety, it could be psychological with physical damage. Though I'm very sure you already know that yourself.