I've had a similar experience with my stepmother. At least people close to me told me in private her attitude towards me wreaked of fake.
I'd tell you that counseling would help but honestly it only might help. You can make that chance greater by taking time asking counselors questions and not going to ones who give you answers you don't like. Ask about their experiences with child abuse and what they believe are the potential adulthood ramifications of it. Only commit to a few sessions so that you can back out if you don't like them. I can't say it's guarantee but worth a shot when you're ready. Opening up to people is step one to learning how to trust again. Trust coupled with a willingness to express vulnerability is a very important component to a good relationship.
It's something everyone's been thinking. The stress is far and wide reaching aside from those ignorantly bliss. When it comes to the actions of a few, I have a rather butterfly effect mind set. Perhaps it only takes a few actions to cause a ripple across society. Technology can spread the truth to those who care enough to do something.
To clarify, I don't own a phone anymore. Once I lost it and couldn't afford a new one, I just stopped caring. Having a laptop and being rather introverted is enough and having an open personal channel of communication has done nothing but distract me and cause me anxiety and awkwardness from people freely walking back in to my life via uncomfortable text messages. I may be a technophile but I can tell when something is personally doing me more harm than good. Also, I don't give a ******** about Apple other than suppressed disdain for their business policies.
One more thing. Hold out for that dream girl but even if you don't or thought you did and found out you may be wrong, don't be afraid to search again. It's worth it. My boyfriend proposed last night. No rings yet because he wants one too and what we want to make together needs to be custom made. I cried tears of joy when it happened.
I agree completely with your post in the ED. I think about it daily multiple times a day. Some times I have minor anxiety attacks just thinking about it. Human society has grown too large for its britches and its organs are about to start collapsing under all that weight. It's like watching a diabetic eat themselves to death - both pathetic and maddening.