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Location: Behind You.

Birthday: 04/18


The Way To A Person's Heart Is Not Through Their About Me


I exist, and this is the state in which I exist.

As some of you may know, I took quite a break from Gaia for quite awhile. The girl who thought she was a woman is finally a woman now. She is a mother, and a lover- and many things aside, behind, and tucked away in the parenthetical. She has learned from her past mistakes. She has moved on. She has left behind mostly everything and everyone she ever thought she couldn't live without- except a few.

Those few things, those few people, are the most precious aspects of my life. They're the only things I can't capture in my writing, the only things I can't immortalize- because they are ever changing, ever growing, ever flowing down the rapids of time. They are mortal. The most precious things in my life all suffer from mortality, and that makes me cherish them all the more.

I am more passionate about, more determined to keep, and more in love with these things because they will all be lost some day. I could never have such strong feelings for the little things in life if they were immortal, if they never died or vanished. I have learned to treat each moment in my life as if I will never live it again. I have learned to love, to be in love, and to communicate that love.

And I have learned to be a better friend for those who will be better friends to me. If you would like to be a part of me, if you would like to cruise through my mind and maybe land on my heart, you're more than welcome to send me a friend request or a PM. But I assure you that the voyage will be long and hard, and you shouldn't be surprised if you fall short of my standards.

I am transcending into a state in which I can not describe, and it is beautiful. I can show you the heart of my mind, and I can guide you to that light, but I can not make you drink from it- for I am not your savior. You must learn to save yourself, in your own time, in your own way.

Sincerely Yours, Truly

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SiIverwing Report | 07/15/2015 1:00 pm
Eh, at this point there's nothing I can do but wait. Either that or cut certain people out but I guess I care too much to do that. Oh well.
Been trying to distract myself with other things.

Oh wow. I'm sorry to hear you've been in a funk too.
I hope things get better for you. heart
SiIverwing Report | 07/08/2015 9:57 pm
Thanks. Things haven't actually been as good as I'd hoped and I'm kind of still in a funk because difficult people and existential crises and life in general but I'll get through this.

I hope things are well with you too. heart
SiIverwing Report | 06/17/2015 10:21 pm
I'm looking at it. It looks interesting and we'll see if I can muster anything. I've actually been lurking this thread. Maybe I'll submit something. We'll see if I can come up with something I like.

I'm glad it turned out great! That sounds like a lot of fun. Especially Cards Against Humanity. Yes, yes, small but intimate gatherings are sometimes the best. 3nodding Again, congratulations, and here's to your life as a married woman. Hehe.
Starlet Of Noir Report | 06/16/2015 11:10 pm
Hello I would like to trade with you one of the items in your shop, your astra horn for my astra demon tail hope to hear from you/ cat_smile
SiIverwing Report | 06/16/2015 10:25 am
I actually don't really want to talk about it anymore, haha. Sorry.
Just that it's already done enough of a job bogging me down for the past several months and there's not much I can do at this point but keep my mind off things.
Trying to bounce back to my previous happier state is tough and getting even tougher, but I have coping mechanisms.
I'll be okay. Thanks for the offer, though. :3

Oh wow, congratulations! I'd love to hear stories. whee
And nice, nice! That's a nice name, and I'm sure he'll turn out great and you two will be great parents to him. emotion_kirakira
SiIverwing Report | 06/16/2015 12:09 am
Hey you~

I'm sorry I just fell off the face of the earth and never got back to you on lots of things. I just haven't had a good month. Still trying to catch up, really.

How are you? Hope you've been doing better.
Neon Pawprints Report | 06/15/2015 2:27 pm
Is that Anything Goes writing contest on Gaia?
SiIverwing Report | 04/20/2015 11:08 am
No problem, and thank you! whee

I'll say a bit more when I finally reply properly to your PM. For now, I'll say that I've been trying to get to it, but my PC has been blue screening repeatedly, and the new game is eating my free time. It's so addictive and so difficult. rofl
SiIverwing Report | 04/18/2015 8:12 pm
Wishing you a Happy Birthday. whee

I have to get to you on lots of stuff. It will have to happen. Soon.
Great Lakes haze Report | 02/25/2014 12:57 am
What a lovely profile! biggrin