So... Where to start well let's start with the basics... My name is Jasmine and I am turning 23 with a two year old son. His name is Damien. I have had a pretty complicated life and it still it but I guess the difference is I brought this on myself this time. I didn't fight for my happiness and I put someone else's happiness before my own. I was with the most amazing guy I have ever met who has a son who has become to mean so much to me. Either way I was with him and everything about him drives me crazy. How he smiles how he laughs how he tickles and how he would squirm when I gave him massages.and lovely he just called me and I am in tears again. God I am so scared he is going to hate me. It seems so stupid but I am so scared that he will blame me for it not working with this girl he left me for. I always end up getting hated on this stuff but I fought and gave everything I could or knew how to. I just don't know what to do anymore. Life without him and his son seems so pointless. I knew since day one his heart was elsewhere and I knew he was moving on he'll we where talking about him moving in though he basically already was and I just don't get how it went from that to not even try continuing to move on to walking out the door and saying goodbye going back to her. Was I not good enough? Was this all not worth even trying to forget her for and move on to the future? Was all of this really because I didn't do enough to keep you here? God I wish I knew god I wish it didn't hurt so much but even with this all I still love you and I hope you are happy and if not then I hope we can give it a try again if it doesn't work with her. But I hope this time you can bring yourself to rid of her and maybe grow to love me like I have come to so desperately want from you. Haha this about me section didn't go as planned it died the second I heard your voice all over again... God I love your voice and hearing the emotions and god I just love you. See side tracked again.... Ill end it here because my heart is killing and all I want to do at this point is scream at the world for always taking everything away. Did I really so something to the world to have this happen every time? Am I a bad person? Am I really what my father said and always going to be useless and meaningless? Where do I go? What do I do?
* hugs you and kisses you close*
Had an awesome vday with you, dinner, movie, cuddles;, smiles, laughs, hugs, stay you that i do love about you. But also whole weekend was awesome too hehe your so truely is as awesome and cute as you :
yeah i cant wait to see the new ones...how old is he now?how long have you and your fiance been to together?i dont know if i spelled fiance right so you can correct if im wrong.and thanks for accepting my friends request.and how lod are you?that is all i have to ask you for now.haha.i said thats all for now.lol.biggrin
I am a proud mother of a little boy. Damien Horace Rolland Bourdon born July 16 2011 <3