Stuff about me.
This is kind of a long entry. It goes over a lot, but there is a lot more to be told. It's long but I hope you enjoy it.
If I come off as abrasive, rude, snide, sarcastic or quite simply an ***hole. Just remember this: It's the internet. Don't take it so seriously. It's nearly impossible for emotions and tones of speech to be conveyed in an accurate way over the internet, So if I offend you, realize its not intentional.
Stu and/or Stuart is how I preferred to be addressed. Please do not call me Stewie, Stuart Little, say "look what I can do!" in a joking manner or misspell my name as Stewart. I will not talk to you if you do because if you can't comply with this one simple request, it shows me you lack respect.
I am a "nerd" by design but not by choice as in I do not consider myself one. I am me. That's it. I detest labels. All they do is hinder your experiences and yourself in general. To the masses I am considered a nerd, a gamer, a geek, what-have-you. Why? I play card games, I play video games, I play board games, I play Dungeons and Dragons (among several other Pen and Paper games), I read a lot of comics and graphic novels, I hang out at a comic shop on the weekends. But the difference is that I don't let my hobbies define who I am. I am my own person with my own, thoughts, feelings, outlooks and opinions. I don't think our hobbies or interests should define who we are. Having similar interests is great. It's a great ice breaker when it comes to meeting new friends or a potential partner in a relationship. Having those interests/hobbies help you find your purpose in life is great. But we should not be confined socially, habitually, romantically or be labeled based on what we do in our spare time. We should be judged by the way we live our lives as a whole and how we treat the ones around us.
*I have a rare heart condition. I was born with out my right ventricle. I have had multiple open heart surgeries in my life, all when I was very young (birth to right before I turned 2). Because of this my my chest, back and inner thighs are covered with surgical scars. I try not to be self-conscious about them but some days I just can't help it.
* I'd like to think I have a very unique perspective on life due to a lot of the trials and tribulations I have gone through in my short life. It translates into my attitude towards a lot of things and especially my sense of humor.
*I dislike smoking. (Cigarette's that is, pot is whatever.) It will not stop me from talking to you/dating you. But If I ever meet you I do expect you to have some kind of respect for me and smoke as far away from me as possible.
*I'm fairly civil with my parents but I wouldn't say we are close. We never have been. With that said though, we are closer now than we have ever been. However, My sister is my best friend and I consider the small group of friends I have as extended family.
* I want to be a public speaker of some sort. Like a self help speaker. Or work for a charity. I was really depressed as a teenager because of my heart condition and it made me obsessively question my own mortality. I even contemplated suicide several times because in my mind, if I was going to die, it was going to be my choice, not some birth defects. Thankfully I don't think even remotely like that these days. I tend to go out and enjoy life and try new things more often than not. But I think a lot of people born with physical defects like mine, or brain diseases or cancer or something; they need a positive voice due to the fact they are going through the same thing I did. Like them, I had no one to talk to about it when I was a child and teenager..or even now really. My parents, teachers, friends, psychiatrist, and whoever else have no idea what I am going through. I'm sure they feel the same way. I just want to help somehow.
* I take appearances very seriously and first impressions very seriously. If you dress presentable (though this is clearly subjective.)and are well spoken with general manners chances are we will get along great. If you dress like you don't give a sh!t and transmit that through your attitude, chances are we won't get along and I will cease contact with you. That's just how it goes. The same goes for Proper Grammar.
* I am extremely nervous around new people. I have a lot of nervous ticks and tells when it comes to socializing. It's borderline anxiety. Awkwardly enough one of my ticks/tells is I talk A LOT when I'm shy or nervous. Which is generally the opposite of what one would do. The other major tick/tell is I'll say "yeah" while looking at the ground scratching the back of my head.
*I have an uncanny fear of what other people think of me. I can barely make conversations with new people. As mentioned above, first impressions mean so much to me, I worry so much about making the wrong one. Especially when it comes to someone I just met or a significant others friends or family. I don't want them to think ill of me. I can't count how many times I have emailed someone or texted a person I had just met apologizing to them profusely, usually over nothing but my own paranoia and hoping I did not offend them or make them uncomfortable conversing with me.
*Please read the following in it's entirety before disregarding me. This is a controversial subject matter but I do not mean to offend anyone.*
I am not religious in any way shape or form. However, I am not atheist. I have ideals,thoughts and my own moral code but I do not follow one religion. I also do not disregard religion as a whole and I don't mind if you are religious. I will even support your religious beliefs (go to church with you..etc) as long as you don't try to push it on me or if I find that belief to be disrespectful or wrong (like being against gay marriage). Again, its a respect thing. You will get the same courtesy from me. I will not press my ideals or beliefs on you (unless you are asking for my advice) and I will NEVER try to sway or make you abandon your faith. It's yours. Do what you want with it.
*Cheese Cake is my weakness. Seriously. I love it. It's my kryptonite. Honey Dew Melon Bubble Tea is a close second.
*I am a huge fan of Pro Wrestling. Not just WWE, I have 300+ DVD's from all over the world. I am very passionate about it and respect the sport and everyone involved in it a great deal.
*I love shopping. Clothes, video games, whatever it is. I just love shopping.