About the Heroine
Her eyes are as black as night,
but her soul burns with the fire of the sun.
I'm s**t at writing about me's but here's one for 2015.
If I were asked to describe myself in five words, I would answer with:
erudite, passionate, imaginative, curious, and compassionate.
I would also say that I am artistic.
Those are the longest standing qualities about myself that have managed to stick with me throughout my ridiculous roller coaster of a life.
I am a musician, obviously not in the professional sense (because if that were the case I'd not be here), but like them, I too have formed a lifelong bond with my instrument and with the world of music as a whole.
Music moves me, it is something very integral to who I am and my life,
and it is no less important than my own heartbeat.
Where my words or speech falter, music always speaks for me,
and usually, much better than words could do my feelings justice.
For those who are curious, I play the flute, it is my primary instrument, though at first I tried out for the clarinet.
It took me years, but, eventually I learned and am able to play the clarinet.
I can also play the trumpet, sax, and oboe.
I aspire with all my being to learn the piano, cello, violin, and harp.
Also, I'd love to learn how to play bass and guitar.
One of my goals in life is to compose a piece of music, even if it remains private and never sees the light for other people to read or play, I'm okay with that.
I also write. Mostly poetry, but I used to write stories, back when I was much younger.
I aspire to write a book someday. Like the piece of music I hope to compose,
I am okay with it if my future book never sees the light of day or is read by others. To construct a world and characters in my own vision, all on my own is enough.
I also paint, not at Picasso or Van Gogh levels, but, I'd like to think that like them, I too use a canvas to convey something I feel or think about, or maybe something that inspires me.
Nature is one of those inspirations.
It is something that I can never get enough of; it makes me feel serene and full.
There is something about the smell after a rainstorm, and the smell of freshly mown grass that invigorates my senses.
There is a sense of comfort in the sound of an excited ocean crashing its waves to the seashore, and in the way the morning dew dampens my toes as I walk on the grass.
There is this endless wonder I feel in my soul and deep in my bones when I look up to the night sky, especially on nights when all is still and quiet, and the moon bathes its cool spotlight on the world, the stars burn their dazzling beauty into my eyes, screaming at me to remember them. As if I ever could or wanted to forget them.
That same sense of wonder also hits me when I am at a new height and I can see far and wide, my vision full of fresh valleys, hills, and fields of green, the spectrum of light and dark hues spotting my eyes.
My inner child and old soul are constantly at war with one another all the time.
I am a walking mass of contradictions, and I'm okay with that.
I've learned to accept and love myself as a person.
I'm still working on loving my appearance and body.
I am very enthusiastic about space, music, food, nature, art in all forms, marine life, books, anime, manga, science, history, mythology, Kingdom Hearts, Sailor Moon, Madoka Magica, Doctor Who, Harry Potter, Steven Universe, Bee and Puppycat, Adventure Time, video games, Supernatural, Once Upon a Time, The Hobbit/LOTR, Scott Pilgrim, EXO, G-Dragon, Korean Dramas, Period Dramas, Lolita and Japanese Street fashion, Korean fashion, sweaters, plushies, and blankets. Probably a lot more than that. Definitely into a lot more than that.
What I truly want out of life is an opportunity to explore this world.
That is my ultimate happiness, to see the world, to do things in it, and to be a part of this world.
There's so much beauty in the world out there for me to see
and infinite adventures to be had in this big, big world.
Most people never leave their home or hometown to face the world on their own,
and I don't want to be like most people, who live and die in the same place.
That just isn't me.
It's like that Child of Light quote I love so much, it resonated within me quite deeply:
"You have to leave your castle to face the world on your own,
To find what it truly means to find your real home."
If there's anything you want to know, just ask.
If you need someone to talk to, just pm me, I'll always listen.
My pm's are always an open option if you want to chat or vent.