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I pray that none of the following offends you as it is not my intention. This is my own personal experience and it has made me a better person today.

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I have been changed. Profoundly so. Let me tell you my story.. my testimony- the reason I chose to follow Him.

I wasn't always like this. But I'm not always perfect- even up til now.
I'm not always nice, I'm not always in control of my temper. But I feel much, much better than I ever felt.

My life changed in 2012. Before that..I was in fits of anger, depression, always cursing in my mind and at times, out loud. I was a constant liar, I lusted over anything and anyone that looked good.

I've thought of suicide countless times but was too scared to actually go through with it. And in first few months of 2012..I was at my peak. I have had enough. Most of my life was filled with negative feelings, thoughts, words, and actions that I've chosen to engage in.

Feeling on the brink of committing suicide, I wanted it to all end. But not physically. I wanted to end these feelings of negativity, helplessness, worthlessness, I wanted to feel joy again. And the very thing I did at that point..was to pray.

I prayed to God- like speaking with a best friend who'll always be there for you and to listen to whatever you have to say. I've asked for forgiveness for the way I've been living. I was in tears, full of guilt and after all was said..I felt whole again.. like all the weight on my shoulders and deep within my soul has been lifted.

I felt like I was given another chance to start over. And that is forgiveness. If you ever feel guilty of anything, let Him heal you. Let Him know you feel remorseful for what you've done, said, thought of. Don't ever let the Enemy make you resurface those feelings of guilt after you've already confessed your sins. Trust that Jesus Christ's sacrifice is stronger than the Enemy, that He has the power to break the bonds of sin, past, guilt, etc.

I prayed for Him to change my life, to turn it around a full 360 degrees for the better, and for Him to help me each day.

Since then..He has radically changed who I am.

I'm not perfect, I am a work-in-progress. Always letting Him down in some way or another but I'll always strive to follow Him no matter what.

He has deepened my faith and understanding. My days are filled with purpose. I have hope now. I want to give the love He gave me ..back to others.

It is once in a blue moon that I have ever thought of suicide but when I do, I remind myself that to commit suicide would be to commit murder on my own body. To kill a life, a Holy Temple in which He has given me as a gift. And in doing so, I may go to hell.

Now..why would a loving God do such a thing you ask?

Keep in mind that God is Holy and Just. He is the Judge and since He is Holy and Just, He does not allow the unrepentant to go to Heaven. It wouldn't be fair to those who are righteous and who follow Him to the best of their ability.

Would you think a judge on earth is just in letting a murderer go without punishment in jail? He has given us free-will to choose whether or not to follow Him.

I was an unbeliever even though I was baptized as a Roman Catholic. I went to Church without any feeling..without really taking the sermons to heart. Without following Him. He's shown me that living the dangerous and negative life I was living before..was why I needed Him. I needed a rescue and He delivered me from a chaotic path.

I am brand new. I stumble sometimes, yes..but I don't fall. I know I can depend on Him. Whenever I stop reading the Bible, I forget who I am, and what I should do. I start to revert back to my sinful ways. But I do my best to acknowledge Him in everything one day at a time by praying, thanking Him, and picking the Bible back up again.

I know things don't always go the way we plan it but He'll always be here for us no matter what.

James 1:16-17

16Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. 17Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

Sometimes we think that the bad things that happen to us is God punishing us. But it's not. Like I said..there are two plans. God's plan and the Enemy's plan. If we make an effort to follow Him, He will reward us and change our lives for the better.

There are just so many occurrences where I've felt God's presence and love for me. Even though I was an unrepentant sinner, He still waited patiently for me to turn to Him. He has done SO many things for me that I haven't noticed before ever since I've turned to Him. He's shown me how to love others, He's healed my past hurts and situations. He's helped me to forgive and let go. "To forgive is to set a prisoner free and realize that prisoner.. was you.” ~Lewis B.


My name is Crissy and this is my story. My testimony to the One who changed me for the better.


For those who have received a red tube [life preserver] and message from me: [please click spoilers]

When I wrote that message...I tried to make it as inoffensive as I could. I chose my words carefully, but I realized that I ended up offending some people. I apologize as I never intended it to offend you. I've been called crazy, rude, obnoxious, etc. I hope you can hear my heart through that message. I know tone is pretty much void when reading text online, but please know that my tone is not one of condemnation or 'holier than thou'. smilies/icon_3nodding.gif
Thank you for your time. I really hope to speak with you soon.


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I currently live in Canada. College keeps me busy, but I'll try to get to all the messages I receive.

Here's a quote that I've found and love. I've added the last line of it:

"Having a rough day?
Place your hand over your heart.
Feel that?
That's called purpose.
You're alive for a reason.
Don't give up"


All glory and honor to God. I take no credit for anything I've said. I wouldn't have taken the time to type out my testimony, along with the media, had I not been inspired by Jesus Christ to do so. emotion_smilies/icon_heart.gif

If you have any questions/comments, please leave a message by clicking on the word 'Comment' at the bottom as I do enjoy a good conversation or feel free to send a PM my way. : )

 

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waste yrself Report | 07/04/2015 7:37 pm
thank u for being so kind
have a good day
im glad youre in a better place
Nurul Levesque Report | 06/29/2015 6:34 pm
Field Fighter
2.5bil ?? emotion_kirakira
averykae Report | 06/28/2015 12:03 am
I saw someone ranting about you on cb.
I just wanted to say that I love what you are doing and God Bless.
I love Clayton Jennings and follow him on facebook.
Keep doing what youre doing!
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fascist scumbag Report | 06/27/2015 9:30 pm
I appreciate it.
Savage of OC Report | 06/27/2015 8:46 pm
heart god bless
elderberrylove Report | 06/27/2015 6:04 pm
You seem nice, I'm glad you found something to help you. I really don't think "God" exists for many, many, many reasons. I don't think there is inherent meaning in the world and I don't think anyone's going to hell for anything they've done because that type up eternal punishment is way too extreme and way too black and white. If you're fretting over the souls of billions of people, I really don't think you have to worry. You linked us to an online bible, I've read Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus and some of Numbers I think it is? Mathew, Mark, Luke and Revelations. I feel I've read enough to get that this is not a being to looked up to or praised (more so old testament God)

Anyway I can definitely respect you for trying to help people for what ever reason, you seem wonderful and I hope you have a good life.
I e-babe I Report | 06/26/2015 5:50 pm
I'm glad you like to give people gifts with scripture and messages,but it's important to be mindful that not everybody believes in your faith. You seem like a great person and everything,but it's not really a good idea to just be sending gifts like that to a bunch of people.
Unknown Foxx Report | 06/26/2015 4:23 pm
heart heart heart thx for the message and gift heart heart heart
leslinn Report | 06/26/2015 4:05 pm
I just received the most amazing gift from you and I just wanted to say thank you so very much
your message was absolutely delightful, and a really really sweet reminder
may God give you more in return, and I am so very happy that you over came your dark times
I'm happy you got back up on your feet, and that you continue on living
God bless your beautiful soul, Thank You for your time
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ringa linga Report | 06/25/2015 6:17 pm
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