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I pray that none of the following offends you as it is not my intention. This is my own personal experience and it has made me a better person today.
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I have been changed. Profoundly so. Let me tell you my story.. my testimony- the reason I chose to follow Him.
I wasn't always like this. But I'm not always perfect- even up til now.
I'm not always nice, I'm not always in control of my temper. But I feel much, much better than I have ever been.
My life changed in 2012. Before that..I was in fits of anger, depression, always cursing in my mind and at times, out loud. I was a constant liar, I lusted over anything and anyone that looked good.
I've thought of suicide countless times but was too scared to actually go through with it. And in first few months of 2012..I was at my peak. I have had enough. Most of my life was filled with negative feelings, thoughts, words, and actions that I've chosen to engage in.
Feeling on the brink of committing suicide, I wanted it to all end. But not physically. I wanted to end these feelings of negativity, helplessness, worthlessness, I wanted to feel joy again. And the very thing I did at that point..was to pray.
I prayed to God- like speaking with a best friend who'll always be there for you and to listen to whatever you have to say. I've asked for forgiveness for the way I've been living. I was in tears, full of guilt and after all was said..I felt whole again.. like all the weight on my shoulders and deep within my soul has been lifted.
I felt like I was given another chance to start over. And that is forgiveness. If you ever feel guilty of anything, let Him heal you. Let Him know you feel remorseful for what you've done, said, thought of. Don't ever let the Enemy make you resurface those feelings of guilt after you've already confessed your sins. Trust that Jesus Christ's sacrifice is stronger than the Enemy, that He has the power to break the bonds of sin, past, guilt, etc.
I prayed for Him to change my life, to turn it around a full 360 degrees for the better, and for Him to help me each day.
Since then..He has radically changed who I am.
I'm not perfect, I am a work-in-progress. Always letting Him down in some way or another but I'll always strive to follow Him no matter what.
He has deepened my faith and understanding. My days are filled with purpose. I have hope now. I want to give the love He gave me ..back to others.
It is once in a blue moon that I have ever thought of suicide but when I do, I remind myself that to commit suicide would be to commit murder on my own body. To kill a life, a Holy Temple in which He has given me as a gift. And in doing so, I may go to hell.
Now..why would a loving God do such a thing you ask?
Keep in mind that God is Holy and Just. He is the Judge and since He is Holy and Just, He does not allow the unrepentant to go to Heaven. It wouldn't be fair to those who are righteous and who follow Him to the best of their ability.
Would you think a judge on earth is just in letting a murderer go without punishment in jail? He has given us free-will to choose whether or not to follow Him.
I was an unbeliever even though I was baptized as a Roman Catholic. I went to Church without any feeling..without really taking the sermons to heart. Without following Him. He's shown me that living the dangerous and negative life I was living before..was why I needed Him. I needed a rescue and He delivered me from a chaotic path.
I am brand new. I stumble sometimes, yes..but I don't fall. I know I can depend on Him. Whenever I stop reading the Bible, I forget who I am, and what I should do. I start to revert back to my sinful ways. But I do my best to acknowledge Him in everything one day at a time by praying, thanking Him, and picking the Bible back up again.
I know things don't always go the way we plan it but He'll always be here for us no matter what.
16Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. 17Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Sometimes we think that the bad things that happen to us is God punishing us. But it's not. Like I said..there are two plans. God's plan and the Enemy's plan. If we make an effort to follow Him, He will reward us and change our lives for the better.
If I could recommend a video, I would say 'The Bible Series'. I haven't fully watched it yet but I'm starting to. And so far.. it has been epic. Truly a beautiful episode thus far. I also recommend listening/watching Joel Osteen's FREE audio/video podcasts on iTunes. They are phenomenal, engaging, and funny. : )
There are just so many occurrences where I've felt God's presence and love for me. Even though I was an unrepentant sinner, He still waited patiently for me to turn to Him. He has done SO many things for me that I haven't noticed before ever since I've turned to Him. He's shown me how to love others, He's healed my past hurts and situations. He's helped me to forgive and let go. "To forgive is to set a prisoner free and realize that prisoner.. was you.” ~Lewis B.
My name is Crissy and this is my story. My testimony to the One who changed me for the better.
The Gospel of Jesus Christ
A Terrifying Truth
I’d like to share with you the most terrifying truth in the Bible. Are you ready? Here it is: God is good (Mark 10:18 ). Why is that terrifying? It’s terrifying to know that God is good, because we are not (Romans 3:9-18, 23). Can I try to reason with you, so that you might see this is true about yourself?
Are You a Good Person?
Do you consider yourself to be a good person? Chances are, you probably do. I think most of us think that about ourselves (Proverbs 20:6). If you do consider yourself to be a good person, do you mind asking yourself these questions, honestly, to see if that’s true?
5. Have you ever used God’s name in vain? This would include saying things like “Oh my G-o-d” If so, then you are a blasphemer (Deuteronomy 5:11). Basically, this means you are taking the name of the God who made you, and dragging it through the mud.
How did you do? These were just 5 of the 10 commandments (Exodus 20:3-17). If you’ve said “yes” to even one of them, you have broken God’s law. When you die and stand before God on Judgment Day, if He judges you by the 10 Commandments, you will be guilty. God is good and just and righteous and holy (Psalm 7:11), and so He must punish evil; He must punish you for your sin (Nahum 1:3). What will you say in your defense?
You might be thinking “God is a forgiving God, and so if I repent, He’ll forgive me”. Imagine a murderer standing before a judge. He says to the judge “I’m really sorry I’ve committed murder and I’ll never do it again. I’m a good person and I give to charity. Will you please let me go?” Do you think the judge will let him go? No way! Those good things that the criminal is doing are irrelevant here. No matter what he tries to do to make up for it, the fact is he broke the law, and so he must be punished. In the same way, no amount of apologizing (we SHOULD be sorry for breaking the law, but that doesn’t make our consequences for breaking the law go away!) and good works we do can make up for our crimes against God (Isaiah 64:6, Galatians 2:16).
Imagine a thief breaks into your home and murders your entire family. He is caught, and brought before a judge. The judge, he says to the thief “I am a loving and merciful judge, and that’s why I’m going to let you go”. How angry would you be? That judge, he is more corrupt than the criminals he is releasing. God is not like that judge: God is a just judge. You have broken the law, and therefore, you must be punished. The punishment for those who are guilty of breaking God’s law is an eternity in Hell, suffering God’s just wrath. Every single human being deserves this just punishment, for our evil against God. Does this concern you? If so, I’d like to share some good news with you.
God is good and holy and just and righteous. This is all true. However, God is also love (1 John 4:16). In love, God has responded to our problem (John 3:16). God came to earth as a human, in the form of His Son, Jesus the Christ. Jesus was born of a virgin, and He lived an absolutely perfect life. He was accused of evil falsely, and sentenced to death by crucifixion. Now, before going to the cross to be crucified, He was beaten terribly, and afterward He went to the cross and was nailed to it. He wasn’t just beaten, and He didn’t just get nailed to a cross. When He was on that cross? All of the holy hatred and just punishment that God’s people deserve, it was ALL poured out upon Jesus Christ. Christ died at the cross, and He was buried. On the third day, He rose again from the dead. He appeared to over 500 eyewitnesses before ascending to Heaven, where He sits at the right hand of God the Father.
In doing this, God both remained just and was able to have mercy on those who have faith in Jesus Christ. Imagine that you are standing before a judge, guilty. The evidence is all against you, and there is no doubt in anyone’s mind: you have done this crime. Your fine is $250,000 and you have no money, no way of paying. The judge is about to sentence you, when suddenly, a man you’ve never met before in your life runs up to the judge, and pays your fine for you. Now, the judge can legally dismiss you. This is similar to what Christ has done for you: He paid your fine. Now? Anyone who repents (turns from their sin) and puts their trust in Jesus Christ will be saved from God’s wrath.
Thank you for bearing with me and reading this. Will you please think about these things? We never know when we will die. We are not promised tomorrow. So please, now, while you have the chance, repent and believe in Jesus Christ! You may not get another chance! If you’d like to contact Michael [the guy who's profile I copied and pasted- with permission] about this message, you can reach him at: Christ Died for Sinners [his username on Gaia]. Take care, and God bless you. He has an amazing site called Christdied.com. I HIGHLY encourage you to check it out whenever you get the time.
Here's a quote that I've found and love. I've added the last line of it:
"Having a rough day?
Place your hand over your heart.
That's called purpose.
You're alive for a reason.
Don't give up, luv"
All glory and honor to God. I take no credit for anything I've said. I wouldn't have taken the time to type out my testimony and add in the above, along with the media, had I not been inspired by Jesus Christ to do so.
If you have any questions/comments, please leave a message by clicking on the word 'Comment' at the bottom as I do enjoy a good conversation or feel free to send a PM my way. : )
Oh my gosh.. seriously, thank you so much for writing all that.
I feel like you understand me in some ways and I really appreciate it SOOO much more than like you'll ever know.
I believe agape love is like the kind of love I used to be looking for, and I gave this to other people..
It's really interesting because I actually have someone who I talked to who I gave this agape love to on a friendship level,
Well I guess I had multiple people I did that to, I would just put down everything to try and make them feel better in a selfless sort of love,
But it's discouraging when you're ignored and I know you shouldn't expect appreciation when you're trying to do good, but it's just so hard..
Like, definitely I want to find someone to love in a relationship someday who will like be able to offer that selfless spiritual life and I'll do the same for them,
But with just friendships alone being hectic enough, I'm just like gaaah.. It makes you lose faith, but I know I shouldn't.
I think I will work my way out of the shyness thing.. Can't be scared of the world otherwise you'll never grow..
I'm literally terrified of getting a job.. How can I overcome this social anxiety? I'm 18 and graduated, still haven't had one job and I'm feeling really bad about it..
What was it like for you to get a job, or if you don't have one, is it ok to not have one yet?
By the way, thank you again times a million for everything you wrote.
I want you to know that you're truly appreciated.