Loss of Soul
I say i'm over you, but inside I know its not true. You were the only to awaken and dimenish my soul, make me whole then rip me to pieces. you dragged my soul to hell to burn each day, but I see your happy so I stay.
I still love you, guess I am a fool, I know theres no seccond chance, which hurts the most. I wish to no longer love you, maybe the pain will go away, its taken its toll I can't take any more. My thread has snaped, i'm still falling.
You made me laugh, now you only make me cry. I tear myself apart asking why? What did I do for you to break your word and leave me. I am on my knees, kill me please I can't take it anymore, the loss is great, you ruined my fait. You said you loved me, but you lied, if you did why would you hide. You awakened the beast now my soul is dead.
My soul was the food for the beast... or is the beast inside my head. I cry myself to sleep, I wake up in a sweat. I remember when you said you loved me, and then I lose my head. I wish that I was dead and you'd be the one to do it, you made me feel alive, now I want you to kill me, for you already have inside. My soul is gone, the beast is awake, and you smile at me like im fake, I am real so are my feelings, I wish you hadn't toyed with them, now I am no more. My soul is gone and yet you stay, how must I rid of you... if possible in which way?
"Shadowy Path with a Light"
I walk this path aware it leads me no where. I wlak it alone and distraught knowing no one would walk any other path with me. I walk the path of despair, hate, jealousy, and torment, what others call the Path of love. Most dont walk this part of the epath, because they have enevere truly loved and lost.
Down this path I see those who died for love, being honored as they should. This path is dark yete has an un-reachable light at the end. I ask myself why I keep trying to reach it, then just keep running.
I have loved once she was that light that me the darkness retreat. She made me shede my first tears of happyness and my last tears of love, loss, and care. I guess I should thank her for putting me on this path, for I know no pain, nor no happyness an even trade no?
So I keep walking toward the light no reason why, guess because I was always told to head toward the light, even though I know mine is now behind me.....