The clever little box of my updated moods

Memories consume like opening the wound. I'm picking me apart again.
You all assume I'm safe here in my room (unless I try to start again).
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused.
I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way. I know it's not alright.
So I'm breaking the habit...I'm breaking the habit tonight.

Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit