You know what? I'm so tired of living my life in this lie.
I'm so tired of pretending everything is okay when it simply isn't.
I am not the happy and spontaneous person I claim to be.
I am a very sad and depressed person that seeks for friends on some virtual site.
Half of you guys probably don't give two shits about me but i still like to have some sort of hope that maybe someone cares... But that same hope is what's destroying me on the inside.
I don't blame anyone, I blame myself.
In my mind I felt like people cared, but when you really think about it, who gives a damn? I wear my heart on my sleeve and people rip it off of my sleeve and stomp it right into the ground as if my feelings never really mattered.
Heh, I have a problem and my problem is, I care too much.
I don't know why I did this to myself. I don't know why I allowed it to get this far.
I'm sorry, but I need some time to re-think my life.