I am afraid to say that there's no cure. Once you've stepped foot on this world, there is no escaping it. You'll learn to adjust soon enough. Caffeine becomes your best friend. You do as the admins and learn to function without food or sleep. Your fate is inevitable and thus shall be done.
"Your crystalline tears follow me. . .
amidst the darkness for all to see.
Reveal every secret, intention and lie.
If you attempt to deceive, I'll have to
bid you goodbye." ~ Sin'
"To laugh often and much... to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children... to leave the world a better place... to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
Invent your own Rules . Trust your own Intuition
Perfect your own Look
Believe your own Eyes . Mix Up your own Style
Name your own Destiny
Express your own Love . Create your own Path
See your own Inner Beauty
Originate your own Character . Discover your own Truths
“An individual has not started living, until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.”
― Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
You know how there is something ridiculously obvious right in front of you? Like in an RPG, you fumbled a perception check so badly that you did not notice the 240' dragon level of obvious? Yeah, that's me right now. Those two things never even occurred to me.
I have no idea how most of those people can resist the barrages of stupidity, hate, and outright toxicity that many exude in such overwhelming quantities. I would like to acquire that resistance, as it would probably let me not be hurt so often and easily, but I would also fear that it would undermine some aspect of what makes me who I am.
Yup, my favorite so far is either Equal Rites or Mort. Equal Rites has that Vancian journey feel that I love, but Mort was literally like four witty jokes per page and as someone that does not get to read and laugh anywhere near enough, that counts for a great deal.
I am rarely without a book or three on hand (currently working through the discworld series). I was considering getting an eReader so I could carry more with me easily. It is less the lack of reading to keep me occupied than the uncomfortable places and harassment. Most of the doctors and medical buildings do not like people "loitering" and often have loud, hot, dirty common areas (not much their fault if it is a medical building since it is nevada, you open an exterior door and you have basically a dirty oven in the entryway for the next 30 minutes, more so with people coming and going).
I have already seen many of the discounts to the testing and prescription prices. But our system here has a slightly different method for what is covered and when, it goes in a tiered system where the first year they knock off X amount, second year more, third year more of the preventative screenings get covered, etc.; I think the idea is to alleviate strain on the system through a sort of "coverage triage." So on the whole, most of the tests are specialist visits still cost more than I have on hand. The silver lining is that because of the coverage increases in Year 2 on prescriptions, I'll have more money to put towards the specialists. Getting to them is a nightmare, relying on my mother or the non-emergency medical shuttle – as in pick-ups and drop-offs hours before or after appointments, sitting in medical buildings like airport connecting flights, and that's if i can even get into the queue for a given day. It's a 37 minute drive directly to the closest doctor. It's a mess, but i am thankful to have even a little of the pressure taken off.
Bit by bit. Overall, it is the usual mix of not needy enough, biases of social workers/reviewers, and needing various official documents and diagnoses – which are really hard to get when you can't afford to go to the doctors that diagnose those things. My only success has been in medicaid and renewal of it which has helped turn my financial situation from a death spiral of debt to barely keeping my head above water. VA closed my file, but said they were sending it through to DWSS.