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I can't believe it's been ten years since I opened this account and I still have it. And I still can't believe that my best friend who I spent countless hours on this website with is no longer my best friend.

It's crazy, I can log on and still see the conversations we used to have, remember how much fun we had together at our sleep overs, all the video games and tv shows we played and watched together...

It's crazy, we're friends on Facebook but I'm feel so ashamed and guilty for letting myself become a stranger, I feel I have no place to say anything to you. I would like to think maybe you feel the same way- but I feel like maybe you have resentment towards me and I'm much too scared of rejection...

It's amazing what time can do. I'm married with a little boy now, and you're engaged. I hope he makes you happy and you guys have a wonderful life together, I'll be cheering you guys on..

I'm so happy you honed your art skills and you're doing something that you love. You will always be the best artist I know.

How's your mom and step-dad? I bet they're great... And your little sister must be so grown now. She doesn't know how lucky she is to have you as a big sister.

I blame myself whenever I think about you because we should've gone to high school together and I messed that up. But I'm glad you made a ton of friends and you're continuing your education even though we complained about school twenty four seven.

I went through a lot, I changed a lot, and I lost a lot of confidence in myself. I'm not as happy as I used to be when we were younger- I honestly don't really remember being happy. When I think of my happy, younger times, I remember being with you and wish I could go back.

I went to your job once and saw you working, I kept my head down the entire time I ate because I was so scared you would see me and ignore me and the realization that you really did hate me would set in. I was so scared that these cherished memories I have of us, could be hated by you.

You haven't logged on in about a year and even if you did, maybe you're not as sentimental as me, you might not check out my profile and you just might never see this. But that's okay. I'm fine with the way things are now. I'm just glad I could say all this finally.



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Just crap I want to rant about or post, no? Even artwork, which my first post is. Lol... no flamming please...


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JustLetItRain

Report | 10/08/2013 6:22 pm

JustLetItRain

Thanks for your Bid! razz
Jaguar spirit

Report | 10/05/2013 7:15 pm

Jaguar spirit

thanks for your sale <3
S e r_A l i s t a i r

Report | 10/01/2013 10:28 pm

S e r_A l i s t a i r

No problem ;3
Badonkees

Report | 09/30/2013 2:56 pm

Badonkees

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shinigami6458

Report | 07/27/2009 1:12 pm

shinigami6458

were you my gran gran?
butter3

Report | 02/14/2009 9:14 pm

butter3

sup how are you maria ^___^
butter3

Report | 02/14/2009 3:19 pm

butter3

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Humble Follower

Report | 01/18/2009 5:46 pm

Humble Follower

BzZT!
Psychotic-Mayhem

Report | 01/04/2009 2:14 pm

Psychotic-Mayhem

Thank you.

I'm going to Photoshop it at school since my computer sucks.
Psychotic-Mayhem

Report | 01/04/2009 1:23 pm

Psychotic-Mayhem

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