A LiTTLe BiT aBoUT mE~
years old, currently a freshman in college
, and I love
, and God
Update: Currently 19 years old (almost 20), haven't been on gaia in a while (sorry) >_<, might be updating my profile again one of these days...anything you wanna know just ask.
~More about me if you wanted to know~
I play a few musical instruments for personal reasons and/or entertainment, and I like writing poetry/song lyrics. I tend to joke around a lot with my friends, and it's very rare for me to show people my serious side. I'm secretly a deep-thinker, and if there's something on your mind that you feel the need to share, feel free to. I'm a patient person, but one of the major things that will get you on my bad side is if anyone messes with or hurts any of my friends, so don't do it and we'll be cool. :]
~What's on my mind~
The sense of loss is unexplainable in words. Only emotion can come through, and all you can hope for is understanding. Everyone goes through this process at some point(s) in life, and some more than others. Even people who died before they were born have lost something, their lives are precious. A lot of people in the world today disregard the value of life. I remember a time while I was in elementary school (probably around first or second grade), my step-mom had a miscarriage, and that would have been my first half-sibling. My dad and step-mom were never told the gender of the baby, so I'm not sure what my baby sister or brother would have been like. I've had more siblings since then, and I've had that topic creep into my mind from their personalities. I love my siblings, and although that life was taken earlier than the rest of us, I'm thankful for the many lives entwined with mine in the different forms of human interaction. Whether it's friends or family, we've all had the ability to choose our own paths, our own walks of life, and we're all individuals. I'm thankful for my life, although sometimes it's easier to wish you were never born. Not to be hypocritical or anything to what I just said. It's just that pain manifests itself in many forms, and many things can trigger your mind into thinking about things that you don't want to think about. I've experienced that many times, I'm sure a lot of you have also experienced this. Sometimes pain seems unbearable. This is not a cry-out for attention, it's not necessarily meant to be "emo", although I guess it could be taken that way by some. I'm just saying what comes to mind (read the title). I guess it's a sort of rant, except I'm not angry...just deep in thought. Anyway, back to the subject. Many of us really don't realize how precious life is (or even just people in general) until we've either lost someone close (it doesn't always have to mean death) or have lost ourselves in regret of something that happened. You have the general idea, but it's like learning from someone else's mistakes...you don't exactly know how it feels until you're either in the same situation or you have a knack for putting yourself in the person's shoes. Even the second option doesn't give you the full wisdom until you've gone through it. How do I know? Been there, lots of times. All I can say is never give up on anything or anyone that is truly important to you, because if you do...only then do you truly lose them. Live your life how you choose, no one can stop you. Just be aware that everything has a consequence, whether good or bad. Anyway, I've gone on long enough about this for now. If you've read this whole thing, thank you for listening to my random opinions and whatnot. I just thought it was something to think about.