Nix words can't express how much I miss you.... Please be safe I really miss you yelling at me and tellin me how idiotic I am I've grown up I'm almost 30 aren't you proud.... Just remembering you still brings tears to my eyes but ya know what they aren't sad anymore their happy tears cuz I got to meet you. Love you Nix btw I'm gonna name my first daughter after you I hope you aprove
We've never met... nor will we ever, though It pains me to say.
Profile hopping has never brought me to such feelings as these... I shouldn't have been nosy, and I shouldn't have been in other people's business... but I do not regret it.
I've been snooping around your and your friends' profile comments. I beg for your forgiveness.
I wish I could have talked to you... even called you friend.
Never have I felt so much sorrow in respects to someone I've never known. It brings me to tears, at the thought of not being able to know someone so apparently lovable and amazing.
Such an untimely fate. Your passing, far too soon.
I mourn the loss of a friendship that will never be...
I'll never get to experience your kindness, like you actual friends, but even so, I will never forget you.
Here, I pay my respects to you, Nixie, and in my own time of departure from this world, my only regret will be not being given the chance to make your acquaintance.
Hey nixie, i miss you... so so much..
and this might be the last entry i write to you, uh you see... i have emetophobia... and well ofcourse you knew that.. right?... or maybe not.. and tommorrow i will fear for my life... i will be boarding a plane to a third world country. I guess its much more than a phobia..and well...stuff might happen..in which i really hope that nothing happens!! please keep me safe nixie, if its too much to ask for..please please please.. im so happy for my mum, after about 26 years she'll be able to see her two sons..im super nervous.. ive already had 3 panic attacks...its not aa good sign...but i hope things will get better.. please keep me safe ... please...i miss you nixie, and this is a huge favor..but please...keep me safe
Even if I don't have anyone in my life, I can still tell you anything. I feel like my life is all s**t now, and I don't know what to do. Most people would turn to drugs or other harmful activities, but I won't. I don't want to because it won't get me what I want. It won't help me become the person I need to be in life. I know a better life will come. I just have to wait for a better environment. I can't change my life until that part is changed. Once I get to college, I can do what I have to do and become the person I want to be. I need to get out of this life and find something better for myself. There's nothing here in Phoenix for me anymore. But I have a purpose in life that I plan to fulfill no matter how long it takes. I will become something better than I am, and I will be happy in life. Thank you for being here for me.... I know you are.
on a sidenote, I don't play the violin anymore, I play the viola now. I honestly think it's a lot better, although I have trouble playing it. I honestly miss you so much and one day i'll go to the place where your ashes are and i'll send so many flowers in pots.. and water them everyday, and watch them grow. Haha remember when I had scarlet fever? ohhh the good ole days! and remember when I first started off roleplaying? I though Sebastian was my age and I was so scared of him. Now that I think back on all of the memories I smile so much. Remember that boyfriend who cheated on you that one day, well in your honor if I ever find him i'll beat him with a crowbar because he never realized how amazing you are/were. I love you so much, and I changed a lot physically, im still flat chested but I look a lot more.. "emo" ? I still think about you so much, and today i'll sleep soundly because I talked to you. as I said beforehand I cant help but cry whenever we talk.. or I talk to you.. i'll see you later bestfriend <3 take care of my family up there!
Hey nixie <3
I miss you so much!! I turned 16 on April. I'm getting pretty old huh?
I haven't talked to Sebastian in a while, and I miss him. mostly because I lost his number,and also because the last time I talked to him was when my sanity had broken. You see, i'm not okay, but I always say that I am. On the inside I die a little bit each day. People distract me from what's really happening to me and I thank them for that I guess you can say that I've changed so much, but I figured that you already knew. Ever since you went to a better place, I feel a bit empty, and a cold presence. I'm guessing that's you, right? My Godmother is with you right now, i'm honestly pouring out so many of my feelings. Whenever I talk to you I can't help but get teary eyed. You knew me more than anyone else in my opinion, and you always had the right answers for me. You always knew how to help. Where are you now hm? I miss you so much, I only hope that I could one day get that hug you promised me forever ago. I miss you...
hey girl <smile sorry i havtn messaged to you in a while ive been going through alot lately. Its just been...ALOT razz But yah i havnt been going on her alot, but i wanted to say hey(: i feel bad for not being able to say alot to u...imlike about to cry right now haha i miss you so much...!! heart
Nixie it's been so long :C I met a pupy today who's name was nixie lol smile She was really cute (just like you 4laugh ) so much has happened in my life!
I'm still in school OH MY GLOB!~! dramallamadramallama
I've changed a lot lol, I have a new boy friend! We've been dating for almost 11 months now razz his name is Sebastian lol and his birthday is on the same day as our Sebastian lol its bizarre >.> Anyway He's australian biggrin and I've actually been in australia for almost 6 months now <3 Its been so great biggrin I've been having a wonderful time! I havent been to yogurt land in forever :C AMerica stil has the best food and sweets lol biggrin My boyfriend is gonna come visit me in America later on and Im totes taking him to yogurt land <biggrin
I hope you're watching over Sebastian, he seems to have ben in a rut lately :C I hope he"ll be ok D:> when I get back to america Im gonna start talking to him again! he'd better text me lol, I have no phone in australia, its been strange to say the least haha :3
I'm still looking forward to the time when I can meet you smile Until then, Jessie out~! PEACE redface
Hey nixie.. happy nelated birthday.. im sorry i didnt type on your birthday.. but i really dont like my computer.. it acts like a d**k,, and im at a persons house.. i honestly miss you so much.. you have no idea how much i miss you.. i wqish you werent gone.. you always knew how to make me smile..and now i guess i lost all my hope...in general.. remember my fortune cookie? well we ended up growing apart.. she's with her friends and im with mine.. im with the "emo corner" and right now ive been having stomach problems,, and yeah..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY emotion_kirakiraemotion_bigheart It is ur birthday right???? Lol it says on gaia ur birthday is today. Oh well even if it wasnt ur BIRTHDAY its ALWAYS ur UN-birthday (woah allota caps XD..) Bc u know, there re 364 days a yr NOT counting ur real birthday. So 364 UN-birthdays emotion_c8 so HAPPY (UN?) BIRTHDAY emotion_hug