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This is Rachel.
I'm not perfect:
I'm sarcastic and loud when I'm not annoyingly quiet;
I keep to myself and never hang out with anyone one weekends;
I spend most my time watching TV and drawing and trying to think about anything eles than my acually life which i have tried to drown several times in my movie watching obsession;
I'm usually there but you don't see;
Really i sit at the edge of every conversation hoping for an entry way that will never open;
I don't like the things most kid my age do;
I don't have anything to talk about them with;
I hate myspace and facebook both of which i tried but never got anywhere in;
I've given up on most of my friends;
I never became fully comfortable with inviteing people to hang out or spend the night;
I'm terrible with phone;
I have a cell phone i never use;
I realize how emo this all sounds;
I know most people wont read this;

I had one friends, one very small friend who i put first and who i thought would put me first. She was the only one i could talk on the phone with. The only one who i was comfortable inviteing to my house. She was the only one i thought i could express my self to. She was the one that it didn't matter how little i could see her, and it didn't matter that she rarely invited me over. And even though it hurt when i called and she had someone eles over i could put it aside. She was my best friend. My one true friend. No one could replace her.
But it wasn't the same for her.
My friend is gone.
My friend has moved and i can't see her.
My friend calls other people, but not me.
She worries about other but obviously not me.
I really miss my friend.
More than anyone can know.
Because for 7 years, she was my friend.
For 7 years she was my only friend.
For 7 years she was my best friend.
I'm not a perfect person.
And now I'm just a alone.



By the way
MY favorite person on Gaia is shortcutt. My own little Reece. Lil'Rachael.

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shortcutt

Report | 02/05/2009 4:07 pm

shortcutt

HAY BABY. I MISS YEW.
Cardboard Al

Report | 11/17/2008 8:31 pm

Cardboard Al

heyyy. <3



(this is Lindsey from guaarrrdd)
shortcutt

Report | 10/11/2008 1:59 pm

shortcutt

LALALALALLAAA YOU'RE SITTING RIGHT BEHIND ME IN MY NEW HOUSE RIGHT NAO. ;D



<333
Hopelessly Pretty

Report | 07/29/2008 4:06 pm

Hopelessly Pretty

Sweet avatar. ;D
Evie with tea

Report | 07/18/2008 4:24 am

Evie with tea

Hello, I really like your media User Image
xXSwEetS0mEXx

Report | 07/11/2008 8:38 pm

xXSwEetS0mEXx

HIYAHIYAHIYAAAAAAAAAAA
shortcutt

Report | 06/30/2008 8:51 pm

shortcutt

I'm on and off. :3 Try to catch me!

WHEEEE. XD
shortcutt

Report | 06/30/2008 7:26 pm

shortcutt

But, I left a message on your cell. So listen. : D

Andandand, I'm totally checking out your DA. 8D I'll update mine soon.



...



Eventually.
shortcutt

Report | 06/30/2008 6:58 pm

shortcutt

HOLY CRAP RACHEL, I FREAKING LOVE YOU. D: I LOVE YOUUUU I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU D: <3333333
shortcutt

Report | 06/28/2008 8:25 pm

shortcutt

D:

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and if these tings were ever gone
I don't know what i'd do.....