Semi - hiatus. Working. I'll come to check things such as inbox, messages, etc and look after these people and change avi or whenever I have free time to do so to update this profile and etc. There'll be no further information until been told and so on. Have a nice day / night .
Language learned in reverse.
Dull, introverts, pathetic human scum. Some people said I'm friendly, some said I'm sadistic, some said I'm nice and some other's said I'm cold towards people. But, that's just how I show my "gratitude" on you. It's based on what you've given to me, it reflects. Sometimes it's just randomly passed by, I also hated how I felt about it when my mood tend to change like weather. I'm a paradox, I'm more nothing than black and white. I do have insanity, the psychopathic side, it always triggered my mentality side, so sometimes it's just hits my head and it's certainly not the nicest feeling in the world to feel about it and it hurt my head quite a lot in one row. I do love human and hate human. I appreciate things around me and people that been nice to me like, "Thank you for making me feel like I'm a somebody, appreciated. You made me feel happy & want to smile." I tend to sulk myself into the corner of the room and preferably to sit quietly by my own. I am awkward and I tend to feel shy like a lot and cold towards people so don't take any of hard feelings about it, I also hate it a lot and questioned myself why I felt that way. I usually use formal language and being polite to speak most of the time. I do have anger issues, so please don't try to make me feel that kind of way because you'll hate me and feel hurt about it and I don't want that to happened. My words are usually sharp and directful / forceful whenever I'm angry and when I'm getting even angrier, so I usually use physically and use my mentality to hurt people who ever hurt me, in as I take it as an equality, so don't ever try to trigger that side, it's just purely horrible even to me and it always had made me felt numb after that. But, I do love the anger, it's addictive and likely turned me insane and heartless for a short time after that. I tend to destroy and protect things. I cared too much even I don't want to, so it's simply shitty for me sometimes. I have trouble on setting my avi using such colorful items, so you'll be likely to see me wearing lots of black, white and red also any of dark colors as it's always been my favorite color and it changed by my feelings / mood . I lack of communicating so I tend to sit quietly and being awkward or shy or look down or look at people's eyes / face or my hands or roaming my eyes to somewhere else. Well, I don't know what else more. Anything else, ask.
When you live in the dark for so long, you begin to love it. And it loves you back, and isn’t that the point? You think, the face turns to the shadows, and just as well. It accepts, it heals, it allows.
But it also devours.
To protect the things that you hold dear, anger and hatred is the only way to survive in this world. Begin with the strongest, to bear any of pain. To see it safe and secure and bear the sake of yourself than letting them feel what it did to you. Take the risk and let them consume you.
Just a worthless , burden, pathetic creature. Please remember as vivid as I used to be .