you come and say"you can cry on my shoulder", whose shoulder do i cry on when its you im crying about

HEY I AM SAMANTHA I AM IN 8TH GRADE AND I HAVE A TRUE BEST FRIEND HER NAME IS LEAH SHE LIVES RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO ME I PUT HER THROUGH SO MUCH AND I DONT DESERVE HER BUT I AM GLAD SHE STAYS AROUND I AM SORRY FOR PUTTING HER THROUGH STUFF I KNOW IM A COMPLICATED PERSON AND I JUST WANT HER TO KNOW I NEED HER MORE THAN SHE NEEDS ME WHEN SHE GETS MAD I CANT STAND MY SELF AND WHEN I SAW HER WALK HOME TODAY I ALMOST WANTED TO JUMP OFF THE BRIGE BECAUSE SHE IS THE ONE TRUE PERSON WHO CAN ONLY MAKE ME CRY WHEN I LAUGH TO HARD OR WHEN I MAKE HER MAD SO YEAH I AM SO SORRY FOR BEING A b***h TO YOU AND I AM REALLY TRYING