Phantom Wolf of Darkness
My art work on deviantart:
: Don't message me negative comments about what I wrote, if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.-
: (Gaia) Phantom, Wolf, Darkness.. (Real) Ash, Wolfy
: brown, long
: Metal, screamo, anything on the radio (dislike country)
: 1st-Black, 2nd-purple, 3rd-teal, blue, white, etc.
: Love gothic
: Legend of Zelda, Kingdom Hearts, Kirby, Y's, Final Fantasy, Ookami, Mario, etc.
: Black cat, Bleach, Deadman Wonderland, Soul Eater, DN Angel, Casshern, Naruto, etc.
What I like
: I like watching the night sky, I love nature. I like close friends. Some time alone, in peaceful area. I also love being with people as well... I love animals, especially my cat. I like to read books, draw, paint, organize, clean.. I like fun people who haves a bombastic personality and is pretty loose/relaxed about themselves.
What I dislike
: I dislike people who are rude, pushy, uncaring, etc. I dislike Things that force blood out.. like parasites and needles.. I dislike zombies (scares me a lot). My pet peeve is when people purposely ruin my artwork. I dislike how things don't go as planned sometimes..
More about myself
: I've been told that I am "Down to Earth" ... I'm actually tired of hearing that now. I'm an artist, I love to draw and paint. I prefer working with realism, and drawing anime. I have been working in my first job for about a year now, and I am still going to college in the major of Fine Arts, hoping to get my Bachelors degree.
My secret dark side is that I have hate towards everyone, I also hate seeing couples (hopefully this would be temporary).. I don't like my parents, I don't like my siblings anymore. I can't stand where I am living, and I would like to leave. I always feel like I'm depressed, and feel like I'm being torn to shreds from the inside out.
My not so secret, on the surface... I am nice, shy at first but eventually gets used to you if I know you long enough and if we really connect. I've been told I have a nice smile, that is my fake smile for now... I don't truly feel happy anymore, I forcefully smile in front of people to show them there is nothing wrong. It is my mask so to speak.... I was really happy once, when I was with my first boyfriend, he shown me love, true happiness, I couldn't even stop smiling when I mentioned his name.. but after he cheated on me, my world basically fell apart, and it still hurts....I had been with him for a year and four months...
I'm normally not mean, that's why I keep everything to myself. I try to be positive, but it is really hard too... but if you press my buttons, I won't be nice. Other than that, I like making new friends. I am shy, like I mentioned before, I will have interest, but I won't take action... =< sad to say.. I am mostly afraid most of my life because of my family (mainly parents).. I turned down mostly every offer, whether to go to another house to hang out or go to the movies... I rarely get offers.... but, I'm afraid to go with them because I normally get yelled at by my mom... over nothing.. I feel like I can't do anything.. I feel so stuck at home, I feel like it is prison, an unhappy place to be. I KNOW I'M AN ADULT DX< .. but I have communication disorder (a type of autism, but it isn't even close to being minor, I have a touch of autism.. but I am functional, but my brain doesn't work too well when I am under pressure...), plus, I don't make that much money... I have been threatened to be kicked out of the house... I can't afford that, so that's why I'm afraid to try and keep her happy.. when she is never happy with anything in the first place because she is disabled thanks to my clumsy dad and his rages in the car and got into an accident.... again... trying to keep a smile, but it is difficult... I try my best to try to keep my feelings hidden.. but I like to show them in my art work on how I feel, but no one ever figures that out.... which is good, but it is sad.. even writing helps me write everything and have time to think to myself on what I missed and what to edit.. physically talking to someone can make me draw a blank... I know I should talk to people about how I feel so I can feel better but.. I don't want too.. I always shared how I felt with my first boyfriend... but I have no one to talk to anymore.... <=(...
If you are interested to learn more, you can always message me.
P.S.. I get boring after a while <=/ .. especially when I get depressed or run out of things to say..