You're an amazing person, you'll realise that when you feel proud of yourself for your many accomplishments that are pending to happen wink. It's always a pleasure being here for you, you know that. You're a great friend and I'm so glad we met that time in rally.
Very late response, sorry about that, I haven't really been around much. Listen here Cody. You have absolutely no reason to feel depressed over a situation such as this okay? On the contrary to how you feel, this kind of position after school is actually incredibly common and well known. The thing is, I have been in exactly the same situation as you, having life changing events, fearing the unknown, but when experiencing it, you can build yourself control points to learn new things from these experiences. To explain a bit about my story, my life took a dramatic change when I was only 17 too. I had lived in my home town in the North West of England virtually my entire childhood and younger teenage years. Come the middle part of high school, I had to move to a brand new city following the death of my mother, so I ended up living with my dad and starting a new school mid-way. When my college years started I also had absolutely no idea on what I wanted to do either, however I never let this get to me because I taught myself the ability to build bridges when I actually come to the crossing point. Little did I know I would end up moving 300 miles down South of the country a few months later, because of a sour relationship between my step mother and I. After moving, all was a bit doom and gloom for a while, I had left all my friends, even to this day I still don't socialise at all unless I'm working. It took me quite a considerable amount of time to settle in all honesty, but I reckon this could have been done a lot more easier for I was still mourning the loss of my mom, it was a difficult time for all of us actually. The thing is Cody, life is about change, life comes with faults, barriers, all kinds of whacky obstacles that one must traverse with as much ease as possible. At the end of it all, you will always find comfort, new settlement and your dream job of what you wish to do in life can be chosen at any point you are good and ready, at any point your imagination decides for you. Everything will be okay my friend, I promise you, you'll be fine here okay? Like I said, I was the same as you, so this is my own experience. Try not to worry, it's not as bad as you think it is, you may even discover some very hidden surprises along the way. The quality of life allows us to understand our talents and qualities. You will learn so much about yourself that you will never believe you had.
On the whole, I wish you the very best of luck with everything, I'm always here if you ever need any support or help okay? I can tell you as much as I can.