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I have found my reason to smile when I wake up in the morning. My entire life changed - 12/01/2015.



I am a twenty three old fresh out of college with two associate degrees. I have been called many things through out the years though the following nicknames have stuck; Haru, Harumi, and Niya. You may call me by one of the various nicknames listed or if we know each other on a more personal level, you have knowledge of the other two nicknames I can be called.

I live in a small city in Kentucky that not a lot of people have even heard of, including residents that live around it, strangely enough. I have a love and hate relationship of the city where I have lived up to this point. I hope to be able to move out of state as soon as I possibly can. I love how I can go outside on my front porch and take an amazing photograph of the clouds yet I feel as if I've outgrown it.

Music has been my lifeline, it has been a huge part of what has kept me grounded through the years. In 2009 when one of the two people I could rely on was suddenly taken from me, it became a crutch. Music, reading, and writing became my life and it was a huge help or at least I'd thought so until last year (2014). I realized just how depressed I was and how I had been lying to myself. I won't hide the fact that I have anxiety and depression, I'm not perfect, I'm human too.

I listen to music every chance I get, it helps me feel better when I get upset, scared, mad, etc. I have become obsessed with anime and art, foreign culture and cuisine, and even drawing and creativity. I have made it a mission upon myself to be more open to new experiences, try new things, meet new people, make new friends and do things I wouldn't have done before all the chaos.

Life shapes us in my opinion and despite the things that have happened and not knowing the reason behind them, I still try and make others smile, do good things and lend a helping hand. Don't be afraid to message me just because I have written a wall of text. I've done this not just to prove that I can do more than just a few details but to let you (whoever you might be) know that I'm not perfect. I have issues and make mistakes just like you do/can but it doesn't stop me from doing things I love in life (photography, writing, music, etc) and it shouldn't stop you either. I know how hard it can be, how tired you can be from all the sadness and hurt, feeling like no one cares and that you would be better off alone. Don't listen to the voices, don't give in to the negativity, surround yourself with things you love, be honest with yourself about who you are and what you enjoy.

I am a furry who loves pink and white things probably more than I even should but I don't care. I love anime and girly things even though I don't have the courage yet to wear frilly and feminine things in life. I make characters/ personalities online to express myself and my feelings of wanting to come out with my girly side. It's okay to be shy, embarrassed, whatever it may be, just take your time to figure things out and do things at your own pace. Don't let anyone influence you or your decisions, it is your life and you should be able to live it how you choose.

I'm friendly and open minded, feel free to message me if you want to be friends or just want to have a conversation.

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natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/25/2016 6:28 am

natsumi_bianca

really? You'd find Anya for me? ~huggles. Thank you.
her DOB is March 1st 2012.
Im thinking of going there again...to the B/c forums but I'm not sure if I am gonna be on gaia on a daily basis...of course once I see those cuties I'll definitely love to lurk around. Any clue why Ebby doesn't login anymore?
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/25/2016 6:17 am

natsumi_bianca

I wonder why Wishful doesn't have a list of owners and their pets. Other shops do. I got the egg for Anya but I never got the hatched version coz I went on Hiatus after that.
sad
So my siggy is still an unhatched egg from 2012 sweatdrop
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/24/2016 9:16 pm

natsumi_bianca

Do you still hang out in the Breedables forums?
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/22/2016 10:17 pm

natsumi_bianca

what kind of work do you do?
Do you like it?
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/22/2016 9:35 pm

natsumi_bianca

Of course ^^ and it's much cheaper here . How long have you been engaged ?
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/22/2016 8:35 pm

natsumi_bianca

I have a lot of friends on the east coast and a cousin in Ohio but the flight tickets from Cali to the east coast are very expensive...and I already spent 1650$ for my ticket from Asia..whew...
but yay next time I come there I will try to make it there. You have your own house? I live in a rented apartment xp
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/22/2016 8:05 pm

natsumi_bianca

I am back in Asia now. I was on a tourist visa.
Have you found a job there now?
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/22/2016 7:59 pm

natsumi_bianca

How's indiana ! I was in Cali for three weeks . I would talk to poppy yukia almost everyday coz I didn't know where to shop and get stuff...and dang Macy's is so expensive !
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/22/2016 9:05 am

natsumi_bianca

girl!!!! our time zones gonk gonk gonk sweatdrop sweatdrop sweatdrop
natsumi_bianca

Report | 08/17/2016 9:41 pm

natsumi_bianca

Haru!!!!

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2016 goals:

-rp
-work on characters
-drawing practice
-learn shading
-learn highlights
-get a new computer that can handle my creativity
-start a youtube channel
-get new equipment
-get camera to vlog with
-get healthy/get fit
-meet friends from gaia
-learn more recipes