I have found my reason to smile when I wake up in the morning. My entire life changed - 12/01/2015.

I am a twenty three old fresh out of college with two associate degrees. I have been called many things through out the years though the following nicknames have stuck; Haru, Harumi, and Niya. You may call me by one of the various nicknames listed or if we know each other on a more personal level, you have knowledge of the other two nicknames I can be called.

I live in a small city in Kentucky that not a lot of people have even heard of, including residents that live around it, strangely enough. I have a love and hate relationship of the city where I have lived up to this point. I hope to be able to move out of state as soon as I possibly can. I love how I can go outside on my front porch and take an amazing photograph of the clouds yet I feel as if I've outgrown it.

Music has been my lifeline, it has been a huge part of what has kept me grounded through the years. In 2009 when one of the two people I could rely on was suddenly taken from me, it became a crutch. Music, reading, and writing became my life and it was a huge help or at least I'd thought so until last year (2014). I realized just how depressed I was and how I had been lying to myself. I won't hide the fact that I have anxiety and depression, I'm not perfect, I'm human too.

I listen to music every chance I get, it helps me feel better when I get upset, scared, mad, etc. I have become obsessed with anime and art, foreign culture and cuisine, and even drawing and creativity. I have made it a mission upon myself to be more open to new experiences, try new things, meet new people, make new friends and do things I wouldn't have done before all the chaos.

Life shapes us in my opinion and despite the things that have happened and not knowing the reason behind them, I still try and make others smile, do good things and lend a helping hand. Don't be afraid to message me just because I have written a wall of text. I've done this not just to prove that I can do more than just a few details but to let you (whoever you might be) know that I'm not perfect. I have issues and make mistakes just like you do/can but it doesn't stop me from doing things I love in life (photography, writing, music, etc) and it shouldn't stop you either. I know how hard it can be, how tired you can be from all the sadness and hurt, feeling like no one cares and that you would be better off alone. Don't listen to the voices, don't give in to the negativity, surround yourself with things you love, be honest with yourself about who you are and what you enjoy.

I am a furry who loves pink and white things probably more than I even should but I don't care. I love anime and girly things even though I don't have the courage yet to wear frilly and feminine things in life. I make characters/ personalities online to express myself and my feelings of wanting to come out with my girly side. It's okay to be shy, embarrassed, whatever it may be, just take your time to figure things out and do things at your own pace. Don't let anyone influence you or your decisions, it is your life and you should be able to live it how you choose.

I'm friendly and open minded, feel free to message me if you want to be friends or just want to have a conversation.


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Report | 05/09/2016 10:18 pm


Oh my gosh thank you! I enjoy how creepy I look whee I wish I could pull off a purple avi like you! I love purple but somehow I just can't find the right items to pull it off.
angel allure

Report | 05/07/2016 8:43 pm

angel allure

Tea party time? XD Looks like we've got some cute cuddly friends to bring with us, as well.
angel allure

Report | 05/06/2016 7:21 pm

angel allure

Chobits was a lovely little manga and anime. I really enjoyed the series and you did a fantastic job with an instantly recognizable cosplay. emotion_yatta

Thank you! I was feeling very cutesy this week. emotion_kirakira I feel like this avatar belongs at a tea party or something. heh

Report | 05/05/2016 12:56 am


Thank you for the purchase! heart heart heart
angel allure

Report | 05/03/2016 8:39 am

angel allure

Ahh, I love your current avatar. emotion_kirakira

Report | 12/24/2015 11:14 pm


Oooh, nice combo. o: Thank you!

Report | 12/24/2015 10:59 pm


emotion_kirakira Oh my goooosh, thank you! I love yours too, very classy and simple. May I ask what eyes you're using?
angel allure

Report | 12/24/2015 10:33 pm

angel allure

Thank you!
Howl's Moving Castle is my all-time favorite Miyazaki film. The animation + the music + the voice actors...I love them all so much. Strangely enough, I prefer the dub for that one. Something about Calcifer being voiced by Billy Crystal...and then Christian Bale's soothing voice for Howl. It's perfect.
Princess Mononoke was lovely, as well. Spirited Away was also a favorite. I don't know that I've seen wolf children?
angel allure

Report | 12/24/2015 10:12 pm

angel allure

Thanks! That's actually the look I was going for. It's a very loosely based cosplay of Kiki from Kiki's Delivery Service. emotion_yatta
I wanted to make a winter version of her outfit and I think it turned out appropriately.
angel allure

Report | 12/24/2015 11:27 am

angel allure

Thank you! n.n

I really love how you've incorporated it into your avatar. emotion_bigheart


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2016 goals:

-work on characters
-drawing practice
-learn shading
-learn highlights
-get a new computer that can handle my creativity
-start a youtube channel
-get new equipment
-get camera to vlog with
-get healthy/get fit
-meet friends from gaia
-learn more recipes