I'm shy. I've always been shy.
I've felt stupid for being shy and I've felt like I can't do anything.
Zayn is of the quiet type. He doesn't say much.
I guess you could say he's kind of shy; so right away I grasped onto that.
He helped me to be a little more okay with my shyness.
and I've just... I have found refuge in him, and now that...
this was just thrust onto us all at once; I felt like the rug was ripped from under me.
if it was done differently, I'd be fine - you know?
That's it in a nutshell.
oh, well thank you.
yeah, it was spaced out enough so that right when we felt like we could breathe - we were pulled back under.
Yeah, I saw that; I definitely feel like something's not right.
but thank you Jez.
As for Fluffy, yeah I'm doing much better about that now.
We found Duchess' kittens; apparently her and Iris are helping each other.
But we had a pretty bad storm so they moved them again.
This past week no; because yesterday the boys were in a city nearby.
So that really sucked. I wanted to cry, but I felt like I shouldn't because I was having fun.
I was with Katie and Megan and had my first ever taste of alcohol.
and today might be kind of shitty if I let myself think too much.
but I think next week will be better.