You know what ill tell you what i do when i get stressed or angered. I go to YouTube and look up Devil in the Details-Chemical Brothers. Its a soothing catchy song with no lyrics. I just put my earbuds in and stare at a wall or ceiling and just ponder while listening to it. Its also good if you have an annoying song stuck in your head.
Oh but sometimes hearing about other peoples lives makes you feel better about yourself. You gotta look at the positives in life. Ironic this is coming from a genuine Emo but then again genuine emos tend to be happier than fakes. You know what picture yourself as a moonflower since I see you as a. Night person. You need to blossom and stay blossom to show the world who you are and your not afraid of it.
You see sad experiences tend to make a person stronger and happier.
You see Tim as I said is a Samoan. His mother was a beautiful woman as most Samoans are. She made a mistake when she moved to America and married Tim's father. It took him until their 3rd child for him to become abusive. He became jealous and angered how she gave all her love to Tim and how Tim acted like a father to his younger siblings so he poured some kind of chemical in his eyes to make him seem worthless and helpless. He wasn't able to go to school and police became curious and didnt believe his story that he fell in the laundry room. But they came short when asking Tim who was threatened by his father that if he rated him out he would hurt his mother. All investigations were dropped. A year later his father forced the mother to put life insurance down making him the beneficiary and a few months later he decided to murder her. From what police believe right before he murdered her, she told him she switched the beneficiary to Tim and after killing her in rage killed himself. The irony is not only Tim got money from life insurance but his rich aunt from his fathers side adopted him and his siblings and writing them as her heirs. So Tim is a rich blind Samoan.
And to make the story sweeter Luxius having lost his father in Iraq and still being crushed from it saw Tim and began to act as a father toward him. He would wear a special belt for Tim to hold onto and skateboard around so he could still experience what he loved doing when he could see. Luxius is now Tim's assistant helping him in all his everyday task. Tim says being blind is so much better cause he can imagine everything the way he wants it to be. There is nothing that's ugly in his world and everything has color which is weird cause he has tropical plants growing in his apartment and he some how manages to take care of them.
The only unique name is Luxius pronounced Lucius) he had his name legally changed. He wanted to get away from his past so he cut himself from his family and a stalker. I mean Tim Gabriel and Danielle are basic names and yes I know thats the feminine spelling of Daniel but his mom did it. And Germaine is you know black best friend and the coolest in the block. And Eskimos real name is Kevin but we just call him Eskimo
Well Tim is blind, Luxius has trust issues, Dane maybe but weve been friends for 16 years, Gabe is afraid breaking the rules but never goes to my house, Germaine is a respectful guy whos married too and Eskimo has the hots on one of my online friends. Ya we are the weirdest bunch. And we are very multicultural XD