About*~Welcome Unfortunate Traveler!~*
(this will be updated the day I get on a computer where I'm actually permitted to go on Gaia.")
You've come to my profile to find out what I'm like or perhaps rather you have come just to post a comment because you are an associate of mine.Either way,my message is the same.
Even those of you that DO know me in some shape or form, do not really know me.Dragonqueen-1 for instance,is a kind girl who I know personally. In the time that we were still in contact, she discovered I wasn't as sweet and pure as she would have liked but still she enjoyed my company.
I am a girl of some strange caliber.I know that being weird is the new "thing" these days but I am not that kind of weird. Sometimes I lie awake at night with a hollow feeling in my stomach.It feels so empty...(not like I'm hungry or anything).
It's this strange aching feeling that even at home I do not belong.I don't seem to belong anywhere.And it all seems that it's because...I'm not the same.I'm different.
It's an odd feeling...almost like I'm not even human. At some point I remember being human,but that was over two years ago.Around the time when everything went wrong. I never used to think on a constant basis but now I can't stop. My mind is always restless.I never get any sleep.
Lately that hollow feeling has made me wonder...Could it be that I've no heart anymore?Could I have lost my heart in the two years that have passed?No...somehow I know that I do have one.
It's just...I...didn't seem to remember what it feels like to have one.So at the time,I was concerned.
As queer(meaning strange not gay) as it may sound,Kingdom of Hearts brought back that purity that I couldn't remember.It brought back a feeling of inspiration that I had forgotten...But it also made me crave that feeling.That powerful feeling of the past.
So now,every time I go to a computer,I watch videos of things that remind me of the life I once had.In a way,I guess I'm trying to recreate the past.
Another thing you must know about me is that I am,in the worst way possible, a very random lifeform.This is all due to my sense of humor which tends to be a springboard in many conversations.
That is another flaw of mine,but most find it delightfully charming.
Even with all I've told you,you don't even know a small portion of it.I have many insane tendencies for a girl of my age,many of which my family does not yet know of. For example, I am known to obsess over small objects that may or may not hold any ties to my former life.Some might call me a pack rat.In the bathroom,I don't look at myself in the mirror for fear that someone may be reading my mind and is watching me through my eyes.
Another would be that I like to talk to animals as if they are human.Now most people wouldn't really deem that as insane but I know a few people who would find it very disturbing to discover me in the livingroom at 6 o'clock a.m. having had a great long conversation with the cat all night.
It is also strange how,I have this unyielding need to judge people.I tend to compare their intelligence to my own and then think about how I am better then said person in so many ways.I know that sounds cruel but when you live in your head for two full years, you don't really care about others' emotions.
Most psychologists would classify me as a perfectionist of some sort.Now school doesn't count,because I make little effort in it due to my lazy habits of not wanting to finish or complete assignments.
In life however,I strive to be the best at writing and drawing.(manga mostly.)
I do this because I want to make my father proud.He is a kind man who is perfect in every way.He very intelligent.His art is unbelievable.His writing would blow your mind and to top that, his vocabulary is none to be matched by any.He is a kind and loving father and he supports everything I do ,so I make it a goal to myself to impress him every chance I get.This is why at my age I write in this fashion.This is why I draw at the level I do.This is why I read any chance I get so that when I see him that one day a year,he will be surprised by how I've changed since he last saw me.
This is why I am the way I am.This is ,in short summary,who I am.
~10 Trivial Facts About Me~
1.)I like to write fiction.
2.)I plan to be an accomplished author by the age of 22.
3.)I love to draw anime/manga.
4.)I love to read.-FICTION ONLY!-
5.)I'm a complete nerdchick.
6.)I used to skateboarding.
7.)I watching people foolishly endanger their lives.
8.)I'm a tad insane.
9.)I'm addicted to video games(and Dr.pepper). Runescape!
10.)I'm a magnet to chaos.
My motto is ,"Expect the worst;Receive the random."
Trust me when I say that if you follow my motto,you'll find that it's important to savor the good things in life as there are so few to count on.
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